A Headbander’s Guide to Opening Your Intuition

2. A Safe Space for Intuition

Channeled by John McCurdy during a live Zoom session on June 14, 2023

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into what is being said.

Special thanks to Christopher Vandermeer for all his work on preparing this transcript!

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John: Welcome everybody!

[a pause]

Hmm…

I suddenly ran out of words!

So, I’m glad you’re all here! And others, I believe, will be joining in as we go, and of course others will be joining on the recordings and transcripts. I’m glad you’re here live!

So I think, since I don’t have many words coming up right now, we’ll just bring in Master John and get started.

[deleted some chatter with someone who just entered the meeting]

So, let’s breathe for a couple minutes.

Chris is going to put on a little bit of music that we set up, and I’m feeling the energies that have been swirling around this session since yesterday evening, for me anyway, so I think it’s going to be an interesting one.

So, go ahead, Chris. Let’s just breathe.

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[music plays, video shows John changing his chair before settling down to breathe]

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Master John: I am that I am!

Master John of Magical Service, here to see what kind of magic we can do here today!

Ahh… Human John wants me to ask Chris to be sure and make a note for next time to remind John to change his chair before we start the breathing, because the other one’s too noisy! But, sometimes we like to break up the energies also, and challenge the mind a little bit.

So, here we are. We didn’t want John to be too comfortable. Last week he felt so scattered, and he wondered if it was working, if we were being coherent. And then he read the transcript later, after Chris prepared it, and realized that there was so much wisdom in that session! And there will be in this session, too.

I Invite you to feel into your own soul, right now.

It’s right here. It’s joining in.

Whether you are here live with us, or whether you are watching or listening to this later, or reading the transcript later, your soul is right here with us, joining in and adding its wisdom. You might even hear things that don’t show up in the recording, because that’s your soul communicating with you.

So… breathe your soul.

Better yet, let your soul breathe you for a moment.

It’s right here. It is you. It’s your essence.

And never, ever again, will there be the veil, the separation, that you have felt for so long between you and your soul. Between you and your intuition.

Breathe it.

We don’t want to say breathe it in, because it’s here. Just breathe it. Let it breathe you.

Mmm…

Today we’re going to be talking about a safe place for your intuition.

It’s come up in questions, it’s come up in conversation with John and Romana, and so many of you, as you open your intuition it’s scary, because living with your intuition is unlike any way you’ve ever lived before. And in the past when you tried, it got you in a lot of trouble because, well, it didn’t fit with everybody else’s ideas of how you should live. It didn’t fit with the mind and its ideas, and people thought you were crazy. And they punished you for that.

Mmm…

So that’s a big part of what we’re going to talk about today.

Let’s start with your questions. We have three questions to begin with, and Romana is going to read them for us.

Romana: Ok, first question:

Hello, Master John. It’s a joy to be here. After Heaven’s Cross my memory is much slower. I forget everything. I’m avoiding talking about certain subjects because I know it will go blank in my mind. Please give me a light.

Master John: Indeed. We think Adamus Saint Germain said it really well recently: “If you don’t feel like you are going crazy right now, that means you probably are really crazy!”

The mind is struggling right now. It’s so used to being the authority. It’s so used to being the one to figure everything out and to manage your life. And suddenly, that job is over.

Your divinity is waking up inside of you.

Your soul is here in a way that it’s never been here before. The light is coming on and your mind doesn’t know what to do with that.

Mmm…

We can’t give you a light, because you are already shining so bright. And that’s the thing, just feel that. And be patient. Be patient with your mind. It will integrate in a new way, so be patient with it.

There is nothing wrong, nothing at all that’s wrong. It’s just that you are going through a really intense process right now of integration.

Hmm…

John and I recorded a channel this morning. It will be published on the website within a day or two, as quickly as we can, and we invite you all to listen to it. Or watch it, read it, or whatever you do. Well, we really recommend that you watch it or listen to it, because it’s an experience. And it will give you some clues about what’s happening with your mind and your body.

So, be patient. Trust that your soul is managing everything, and just allow yourself to feel what you are feeling, and to be where you are at. It will change, and you will find yourself in a whole new place.

Thank you for your question!

Next question.

Romana: I would just like to add to this previous question that my memory is much slower too, and I forget everything too.

Master John:I think that’s true for all of us!

Romana: Yeah, so it probably goes for many of us.

So, the second question:

After I came out of the shock of my stroke about three weeks ago, I experienced intense fears of dying. Could Master John maybe say more about these experiences? Thank you!

Master John: Yes, intense fears of dying.

Mmm…

You are dying.

But, not the way you have ever died before.

And it is triggering all the fears in your mind, the fears of so many lifetimes of dying. And it is the biggest and scariest thing that humans have ever had to deal with, because they didn’t know that there actually is no death. But now we know.

And yes, it’s still scary at times. But that’s the time to take your mind in your arms and hold it. That might sound strange, but you know what we mean. It needs a hug. It needs to be reassured.

Talk to your mind. It will be your soul talking to your mind and telling it, It’s ok now. We’re not going to die like we did before. We’re going through something beautiful, amazing, intense, difficult, but there is nothing to fear anymore.

There is truly no death, and even the body isn’t going to die the way that it used to, unless you choose that. But there is no death. There is only a coming home. Or, there is bringing home here, whichever way you choose. It doesn’t matter.

You can go home any time you want to, or you can be here and bring home here. That’s really what we’re doing. That’s what heaven’s cross is about.

Your own home, your own divinity, your own soul, your consciousness. It’s joining you here, in a way that has never happened before.

Oh, the mind freaks out, because it can’t see all of that. It can’t feel all of that like you do. It will, it’s beginning to slowly, but it gets scared.

It gets afraid that it’s not doing its job well enough. It’s afraid you are going to die and it’s going to be its fault. So talk to your mind. Give it a hug. Tell it that it can rest now, because now it’s Soul’s job to take care of you. And it is.

Hmm….

And yes, the fears will come up. But just keep coming back to you, to your soul. And you’ll find the fears begin to subside. You’ll find your intuition expanding, because like we said last week, intuition is actually your soul. It’s simply your soul’s consciousness coming into your human awareness. That’s all it is.

Thank you for your question.

[in the recording we asked Romana to read the next question through twice, because of internet problems]

Romana: The next question:

I love what you said about going beyond the mind by feeling into the body.

What is happening when you feel a strong intuition about something, but then what transpires in ‘reality’ turns out to be totally different?

I had an experience where I wasn’t feeling drawn to a particular potential. I could see all the issues. However…

Master John: Let’s pause right here, because we want to address this:

“I wasn’t feeling drawn to a particular potential. I could see all the issues.”

Hmm…

And yet…

Go on.

Romana: However, I felt these undeniable intuitive impulses that appeared to show me potentials that were extraordinary, so I went for it. It not only didn’t turn out, it was a bit of a human disaster!

Since then, I usually trust my intuition very well. This took me by surprise. What on earth happened?

Master John: Ahh!

You see, the mind is really, really good at coming up with ways to trick you into thinking that it is your intuition. But the number one thing, the first thing, that matters is, does it call you? Do you feel drawn to it? Does it feel light and happy inside of you? And if that’s not there, anything else that comes after that is not your intuition. It’s something else.

Because whatever is right for you, you are going to feel it. In that first moment, you are going to feel drawn to it.

Oh, it might be scary. It might be scary as heck! There might be lots of issues that you see, but you are going to feel drawn to it.

So, you need to trust that. And you need to pay attention to that. Soul talks to you in these feelings of lightness, or of not feeling drawn.

So if we understood your question right, then that was what happened right there. And all these other things started happening, trying to pull you into something you didn’t feel drawn to.

Well, that’s the time to just walk away. I don’t feel drawn! And that’s enough of a reason, right there.

Oh, the mind goes into all these reasons. Why should I? Why should I not? And all of that.

And that is not your intuition. It’s the mind, trying to distract you from your intuition that said, It doesn’t draw me.

Hmm…

Now, there is another side of these things, in that sometimes our intuition does guide us to something. We feel drawn to something, and then it doesn’t turn out the way we expected. Oh, sometimes it doesn’t turn out at all the way we expected!

And that is because our soul wanted us to change directions. It wanted to show us some new potentials and get us out of a rut, or take us toward some other potentials that we can’t see yet. But even then, if you don’t feel good about it, if you don’t feel drawn to it, it’s not your path. It’s not your intuition guiding you.

Now, whatever choice you make, your soul is going to turn it into a good choice, but it might be a little bit rough along the way. So there aren’t any wrong choices, but always, always stop and feel.

The very first question to ask is, how do I feel about this?

Forget the reasons. Forget the issues and the potential issues. Forget the potential benefits. Forget all of that!

Feel.

What happens in my body?

When I think about this, when I look at this choice, what happens in my body?

Does it draw me?

Does it lighten me up?

Or does it make me clench up and go. “Hmm, I’m not so sure.”

Trust that. That is your intuition!

Everything after that is the mind trying to figure it out, trying to come up with reasons, trying to justify its choice.

So trust that first feeling. Whether you feel drawn to it or not. Whether you feel happy about it.

Even if it’s scary, if it’s for you, something about it is going to be pulling you from the inside.

Trust that.

And thank you for your question.

Hmm…

Romana, I believe you had something you wanted to add here.

Romana: Yeah, I have lots of things, but I remember something else now; how actually this question reminded me of how sometimes I’ve felt drawn to something and it totally turned into a disaster, in many ways. But when I look back, in this disaster I collected and integrated lots of my parts of me.

It’s like if I would—like some relationships maybe, that I entered, and if I wouldn’t my life would probably have been much, much smoother. But these difficult experiences that we get into, that we probably wouldn’t if we, uh… Yeah, so sometimes with intuition, it doesn’t mean that it’s always taking us into pleasant things, or that if it turns out unpleasant it’s wrong or that we missed the intuition.

But sometimes our soul is collecting parts of us in the most terrifying or unpleasant or embarrassing or—yeah, I sometimes feel the more embarrassed I feel as a human, the more fun my soul has! Because it’s kind of telling me, “You see, what does it matter how you feel as a human?” because it’s just… in this moment I realized how relative it is to feel embarrassed as a human.

Who cares, right? Who cares? What does it matter?

Yeah, so then I start to begin to learn to laugh at myself, and life begins to be much easier. And yeah, so don’t blame intuition that it was wrong. I think that intuition has some kind of funny stories prepared for us!

Does anybody want to add something to that? Otherwise, I have another question here.

Master John: We’ll interject something here that is related.

It’s about the safety for intuition, and this whole thing of embarrassment. It’s such a big thing that blocks us, and it creates some of these really intense and difficult experiences.

My own human, John, lived so much of his life on the edge financially, and he ended up bankrupt several times. And he’d come to me, he’d complain inside himself, “Why? Why does this keep happening?”

And finally one day, I was able to show him how he had this huge fear of being what they call in America, a deadbeat. Someone who never pays their bills. Except the real deadbeats are not usually embarrassed about that, or don’t show it, anyway. They actually are, deep inside, but John was hugely embarrassed about that. And I finally showed him that:

You know, we have to get past that fear. We have to get to the place where I am completely okay if I look like a deadbeat, or whatever else!

Because that doesn’t really have anything to do with who I am. I am God also. I am divinity itself. None of those other things matter.

Oh, it’s still a struggle sometimes, this wanting to look good to other people. Wanting to please other people. And having to realize that the one that really needs to be pleased is self, and beyond that none of the rest matters. It’s just human games.

So, Romana, go on. Unless someone else has something to add at this point?

Go ahead.

Romana: So, I was feeling this—what we were talking last time in the class, and this week I was observing how this feeling of intuition, like not just recognizing intuition, but acting on the intuition in our daily life, how actually there is this part of me who is totally terrified of living… Is my internet okay? Can you hear me?

Master John: It’s okay. It’s a little choppy, but it’s okay.

Romana: So, what I was realizing is how terrified part of me is of actually opening to intuition. Although I consider myself a very intuitive person and  very easily opening to intuition, but there is just this part where I couldn’t until now, because of these headband things, but also this fear, because our society is mostly not respecting intuition.

Our mind, in general and as a society, was putting intuition in such a place that when you actually allow it as your intuition, as your soul, you are kind of outcast.

You know, not only in past lives, but also now, it’s really frightening for us to come out and just live as we feel and talk as a soul. I believe that’s not just me, but that many of us are facing this fear. Not just wanting to open intuition, but actually a deep within fear of opening.

Master John: Yes.

Mmm…

Yes, someone wrote to John. She wasn’t ready to ask a question specifically, but she wrote about how afraid she is to open her intuition, and how afraid she is to even feel into her past lives, because some of them were so brutal.

She was tortured for daring to have her intuition, for daring to be different. And so many of us have been there. We have those deep, intense memories.

Hmm…

John and I have lifetimes where—not only lifetimes where our incarnation in that time was brutally punished, burned at the stake and in all these different ways that humans find to torment each other.

But then there are the lifetimes where, with the very best of intentions, we did that to other people.

It’s still a little overwhelming for John, my human, to think about those times. To remember the feelings of them. When, in the greatest of service to what that incarnation of us understood, we did things that brutalized and tortured other people. Many of you have those kinds of memories also, and sometimes those are even more difficult than the ones where we were tortured.

So, how do we trust ourselves?

Because we truly believed, in those times, that we were doing the right thing.

How dare we trust our intuition, our knowing, when we were capable of that?

And now here we are, integrating all of that. Which means feeling it.

Not feeling the details, not even knowing the stories necessarily, but feeling. Feeling the energies of those lifetimes and letting them integrate within us.

It’s no wonder it’s hard to open our intuition.

It’s no wonder we’re having all this stuff going on in our bodies, and in our minds.

There is so much that we are integrating right now!

Hmm…

And again, we’ll invite you to the channel that we did this morning, when it gets published. Check it out.

We’re going to call it a session of this class, even though we’re also going to make it available to everyone else, because it is so much a part of what we are talking about.

So, who else?

Any questions, comments, experiences or feelings to share, about how safe you feel, or not, to open your intuition? To be different?

Participant 1: Hi everybody. Do you hear me?

Master John: Yes.

Participant 1: Hi. I just have to make my microphone unmuted.

Master John: We hear you, so go ahead and talk.

Participant 1: Ah, yes. This, what you talked about just now, touched me very much. I remembered some parts of my past lives, and I realized that not all of them were just good. In some I was tortured, and in some I was torturing. And this is a very shocking intuitive reality for me. So I just want to share this with everybody.

Master John: Indeed!

John remembers the first time somebody reminded him of those times when he was the torturer, and how shocking it was.

But here is what you have to understand:

This whole human/Earth experience came about because at some point you asked the question, Who am I?

And then you dove into experiencing the answer in every way you could. And so we created this planet, this environment called Earth, these human bodies and minds, all so that we could have these experiences. And then, when we came into human, we forgot that it was all, in a sense, just a game. We took it so seriously! And now, in waking up and coming into our realization, we understand that there is no death and there is no ultimate hurt.

And so those were ways of feeling into “Who am I?” in all these different ways, and it is time to simply let go of the shame of that.

From the human perspective, from the very, very limited human perspective, yes, it was a horrible thing.

From Soul perspective, it was just another experience. A beautiful, amazing experience that brought so much wisdom!

Oh, you never need to live through that experience again, because now you know it. But it brought so much wisdom. And that part of you is coming to you right now, bringing the gold, the beautiful golden nectar, from that experience, and asking you to let it come home. To let it integrate back into you.

Hmm…

What else?

Participant 2: Hi John, this is Sylvia. Well, I am here now, and you can see me.

Okay, so what I feel here is a bit intimidating to share in public. And besides, you mentioned that you’re going to share these recordings with other people, right?

Master John: Yes, and we are not including the video of you, and nothing but your first name.

Participant 2: Well, just saying that, it feels like we have to break the communication so we can all communicate freely. That’s what I’m feeling.

Master John:  What do you mean?

Participant 2: What do I mean? Well, it’s obvious that everyone here, we are feeling the same thing and that is why we are drawn to this class. Because we feel all that you mention about to open it up, and our mind also, taking the front and not letting our soul to go forward.

So, but, everything that I listen to you and everything that I listen to Adamus, it reaffirms that I’m on the path. My soul is here, even though I don’t feel it.

Master John: Yes.

Participant 2: I don’t sense it. And my mind wants to go forward, and keep going and going and going, and have those experiences even if they are bad (laughing). But it just wants to keep feeling it and doing and doing and doing.

So in a way, my mind wants to keep me busy. It always kept me busy, doing and doing and doing and doing.

Master John: Yes, that’s it’s job!

Participant 2: How can I stop that?

Master John: What we are doing right now.

You see, it’s a process, because that was the job that we gave the mind long ago. It’s part of what the headbands were all about. It was giving the mind the job of staying busy, to distract us from our souls.

[John pauses]

Even now, sometimes John’s mind jumps in and … gets all confused!

So, we’re all going through this process of letting go of that job for the mind. And again, I would invite you to…

Ahh…

Well, first off, let’s talk a little bit about how you “don’t feel your soul.” Because you actually do.

When you look in the mirror, you are looking at your soul.

When you look around you at the things in your life, you are looking at your soul.

The mind is programmed to think of your soul as some being outside somewhere, that feels different from you. And it isn’t.

It’s you. It’s right here.

If anything, it’s just a different perspective. A perspective that doesn’t get rid of the mind, that doesn’t shut the mind down, but that goes beyond the mind.

Mmm…

When John channels me, he doesn’t get rid of his mind. He just changes his perspective to my perspective, and allows me.

Oh, he sat down for a channel this morning, and even opening up to this session, the mind had no idea what we were going to say or talk about!

So, it’s simply a perspective shift. And you are in the process of making that perspective shift.

And the mind gets very confused along the way, but it is happening. And it is not something that you, the human, need to try to make happen. Simply let it happen.

Go on with your life. Look in the mirror and choose to see your soul. Your soul looks just like you!

You are not going to see something different. But you might see yourself in a little bit different way.

So, opening to your intuition isn’t about bringing some other being into your life. It is about allowing a perspective shift.

And you know what that perspective feels like. You’ve had plenty of experiences with it, even if you didn’t recognize them. If you think back on your life you’ll begin to recognize them.

So, just allow it to happen. It is happening. That communication is opening up, otherwise you wouldn’t be here. You wouldn’t be in this class in this session.

It is opening up! Just let it.

Trust it. Trust that it is happening, even when your mind thinks it can’t feel it.

Assume that it is anyway.

Participant 2: Assume. That’s a very important word.

Master John: Indeed.

Participant 2: In my reality, when I allow, I see the difference in the day. It’s like every day I’m a different person. Every day I’m a different aspect, or facet, of me. And that feels confusing! Because yesterday I feel this way, a day before yesterday I felt that way, and then the other…

So it’s like knowing a lot of parts of me and what I want to probably find, because I want just to feel the parts that let me feel connected with myself. And even though it’s not every day, I’m just hoping that eventually it might get to that.

Master John: Well, one little perspective shift here is that, you are connected with yourself. And it’s your mind that looks around and looks at how you’re feeling and goes, “I don’t think I’m connected with myself right now. I need to get connected!”

That’s your mind. Because you are connected with yourself. You cannot not be connected with yourself.

So if you just assume, I am connected with me, and that can’t change! No matter what is happening and no matter what I am feeling, I am connected with me!

Assume that! Claim that for yourself!

Don’t go trying to get connected.

Just assume: I am connected with me and my soul is taking care of everything. And go about your life.

You’re going to feel a lot of different ways, especially as all these aspects of you integrate.

All these other lifetimes are all coming and integrating, and with each one you feel their essence. Not necessarily their story, but you feel their essence. And some of those had great lifetimes and some of them had horrible lifetimes, so no wonder you feel strange on some days and fantastic on other days.

That doesn’t mean that you’re not connected with yourself. It just means, really, that one of those other facets of you is coming home and integrating.

Participant 2: Wow! When is it going to finish?

Master John: (laughing) Well, there are a couple thousand of them out there.

Participant 2: Still?

Master John: Well, they’ve been in process. But we can’t do it too fast, because it would blow you out.

But that’s a lasting process, and there are many layers of it and levels of it. You just have to trust that your soul is handling this. It’s not for you to do anything about it, except just allow it.

Being in human life is messy. It always will be messy, and have feelings. Some will be beautiful and amazing, and some will be yucky and uncomfortable. It’s just part of being human, even for a master.

But when you have your soul’s perspective, it feels a lot different.

Participant 2: So that is normal then.

Master John: Yeah.

Participant 2: Having all these me’s feeling every day is normal. It’s part of the process.

Master John: It’s…

Ahh…

It’s you, coming home.

“You are the designated ascendee,” to quote Adamus. You are the one.

It is because of you that all of these other parts of you can come home now, and you are feeling that. You are feeling each one as they come home.

You don’t know their stories. You don’t need to know their stories, but you feel their essence. And that changes your mood, just because that’s how it works for the human. But it will change it a lot less as you simply allow your soul’s perspective.

Realize that this isn’t anything for you to manage, or to fix or to change. Your soul is taking care of it all.

Participant 2: No, but it put my life on pause. I want to do a lot of things. I am so excited. My mind is so excited. I want to do it and move here and move there and, you know. Very active energy that I need to be moving, moving.

Master John: Indeed.

Participant 2: And it’s good to know when I have the intuition, and when it is my mind and what is the intuition.

Master John: Mmm…

And that really brings us to the other topic we wanted to address today. And that is that one of the biggest blocks to intuition is the human’s agenda.

The human has all these ideas about what it wants to do and what it thinks it needs to do, and they don’t always match up with what Soul sees as the best way to get you to what you want.

We did a whole class on that a few months ago. It’s called How To Change Your Life, and it’s on the website.

But the bottom line is, if you want magic and grace in your life, it’s all about the flow. And that’s where you find your intuition, too. It’s like a river,

A river carries you, your soul carries you, and your soul knows exactly what you really want. It knows why you are here. It knows what makes you happy. It knows…

Mmm…

And it knows how to get you to those things, a lot better than your mind does.

So you see these things and it’s like, I want that! I want to do this! I want to do that!

And that’s great. But then you have to step back a little and go, But where is the flow right now?

Because the only way to get there with any grace at all, is to be in that river, in that flow of your own consciousness, of your own soul, and let it take you.

And sometimes your soul says, “No, we need to pause here. You need to slow down a little bit, or we’re going to run off the track.”

So, so much of opening the intuition is about letting go of the agenda.

Oh, notice the things that turn you on. Notice the things you like and go, “Oh, I like that!” But the minute you get into, How do I make that happen? How do I get there? then you are doing your soul’s job. And it’s going to be really uncomfortable.

Then you step back and say, “Oh, I really like that! I wonder how soul is going to bring me to that, or bring that to me?” and go about your life.

Do what is here now to do, instead of chasing after that agenda, and you’ll find your intuition showing up in a whole new way. Because now you are open to it, whereas before you were so busy with that agenda that you couldn’t feel it. Or you didn’t recognize it when you did.

Does that make sense?

Participant 2: Yes, it does make sense. That’s a perspective that you let me just see. But it’s also confusing because if me is the soul and the mind is me, it’s me!

Master John: Indeed!

Indeed. But you see, when we set up this whole ‘game,’ we created this illusion of separation. We created this—oh you call it the veil, and it was for a good reason. It’s what the headbands were about, and it was to allow the human to go fully into this experience and to follow its agendas, and to do all of this human stuff that, well, some of it was a lot of fun and some of it was really horrible. But it was part of the experience, part of answering that question, Who am I?

But now, we’re in a different place. Now that’s over. The journey is complete. And so now we are taking down that veil, and yes, now the mind and the soul and the human and the body and all of you is integrating together. Including all of those other lifetimes. It’s all integrating together.

But there is still a tendency, because it’s a very, very old habit, for the mind to try to take it over. To try to say, “Oh, I have to go do it this way, the human way.” And the mind can’t see what the soul sees, because the mind is only a little corner of you.

It can’t see. It was designed specifically to forget, to not be able to see beyond the human five senses. And so when that part of you still thinks it’s in charge, and still tries to take over the job of running your life, then it gets in the way.

So then it’s time to come back, to take a deep breath, and, “Let’s bring in the rest of me.”

Oh, it’s not really bringing it in. It’s simply allowing the rest of you to come in and bring its perspective, which is a lot bigger than the mind’s perspective.

So, it is you, and it is all beginning to integrate together. But there is still the two, the mind and the soul, and the mind is still trying to take charge, still trying to be in charge. And it simply doesn’t have the view, the perspective, that your soul has. So it’s about allowing that perspective to shift.

Hmm…

What else?

Participant 2: I’m going to keep that, that perspective of my mind that you said, that it’s my mind that thinks that I’m disconnected. That’s a huge step.

Master John: Yes! And that’s the job we gave it, to make us think that we were disconnected from Soul. Oh, it kept us in this human experience, but now we don’t need that anymore. Let it go.

Ask the mind to be still. Ask mind to relax and to rest. Give it a hug, it needs it. It has served you really, really well.

Participant 2: And it is really, really tired, also.

Master John: It is. So tired! So tired. So give it a hug.

Participant 2:So if the mind is really, really tired, where is this energy coming from? My soul, obviously!

Master John: So just feel it. And let your soul, that still small voice of your soul, guide it.

Breathe it in.

Feel yourself in the river.

Let the river carry you.

Mmm…

Participant 2: That reminds me of a video of Adamus about the river. That we are peaceful in the river, and then suddenly we are sunk in the reality because we have to pay bills, we have to do this, we have to do that… So that’s what it is, a combination of both.

Master John: Yeah.

Just open up to it. It’s not your job to figure it out. Just open to it.

Open to all of the feelings, the good ones and the bad ones.

The darkness is your divinity, and that includes those feelings that are uncomfortable.

Once you open to those, your divinity lights up. The darkness lights up.

Hmm…

All that empty space between the particles that make up your body, all that empty space starts lighting up. Because that is your divinity. It is your intuition, but it’s gentle and calm.

Sometimes that energy, that excitement energy, sometimes that actually comes from fear. Not always, but sometimes. From the fear of not doing something, or of missing out on something. Or of, “Oh, I’ve got to get this done before….something else.”

So just feel into it. Open up to it. You’ll know.

Feel for that knowing that’s underneath any reasons that your mind can possibly come up with. It loves reasons. Reasons for everything. Reasons against everything.

The knowing is underneath all of that. It doesn’t have any reasons, and it doesn’t need any reasons.

It just knows.

Participant 2: Yes, I’ve felt that also.

Master John: Indeed, all of you have.

What else?

Anybody else?

Participant 3: Hello, can I speak? Can you hear me?

Master John: Yes.

Participant 3: Oh, great. I was just always curious about your views on integration. I know that, you know, with the allowing, I’ve noticed though that there are some Shaumbra that more consciously engage in that integration, and they seem more integrated to me. I mean, this might be just my mind perceiving this over the internet and Facebook.

But then I’m trying to balance this idea of allowing, versus having an active engagement in choosing to consciously integrate aspects. I would love your view on that. You know, what’s the balance between just allowing the flow, letting the soul do it, and then consciously choosing to be a part of that. You know what I’m saying? Like sitting down in a… [recording garbled] 

Master John: Indeed, and it is a balance.

We’ve noticed a lot of Shaumbra on the internet and other places that choose to focus so much on the integration, that all they’re really doing is processing.

Participant 3: Yeah, that too!

Master John: And, you know, there’s everything in between. So…

Ahh…

First off, watch for this new channel we’re going to post on the website in a day or two. It’s called something like, The Grand Integration, and it’s kind of all about that.

But the thing to remember is that, integration is not something that the human does. It’s not up to the human to figure out what the story of that particular lifetime or event is, and somehow come to terms with it. That’s the soul’s job. It’s up to the human to simply allow the feelings to show up when that aspect is being integrated.

You might notice an aspect coming in. You feel its feelings.

Just offer it a hug. That’s all you need to do.

You don’t even need to consciously do that. Just allow yourself to have whatever feelings you’re having, without taking them on.

Most of them are not about you. They are about those other aspects coming home. So just let them.

You don’t have to figure it out. That’s where it turns into processing, is trying to figure out, “Oh, what’s the story of that lifetime? And how do I let go of that shame of those people I hurt? or whatever.

Well, that’s a mind game and it blocks your intuition.

Just let it happen. Let the feelings come and go. Be the observer rather than the one who’s trying to do it, and the integration happens naturally. Without any processing and without any figuring it out.

Participant 3: Yeah, I’ve been having this really weird experience, but I feel like it’s a safe space to have it. So, this is probably an aspect of myself doing this, right? But something in me gave me the suggestion, kind of using the “and,” right? Because we can go timeless as Merlins, we don’t really need to be in linear time if we choose.

And so, sometimes when I’m feeling aspects wanting to come home, something in me was kind of suggesting this idea of going beyond time and allowing those aspects to connect with the moment—like the frequency that would help them to feel safe to come home.

And then I found in that experience of doing that—and it is just my own illusion, because it’s my energy, right? That I could feel the illusion that it was working, because I could feel these aspects kind of flow more easily with that consciousness. But I was curious, like, was I just bullshitting myself? Or was that actually something that was… I was curious.

Master John: Does it matter?

Participant 3: No, not really. It felt like it worked.

Master John: Whatever you feel!

Whatever you feel. You can’t get it wrong. You can even decide to go process a bunch of them if you want to and see how that goes.

Participant 3: No, that’s not it. (Laughter)

Master John: It’s what you feel! If it felt good to you, then trust that.

Participant 3: Yeah… It just felt like somehow just placing my consciousness there just helps the flow. But I wasn’t trying to manage it. (Maybe I was, a bit.)

Master John: Indeed.

Romana, I’m feeling you wanting to jump in here.

Romana: Can you hear me?

Master John: Yes.

Romana: I’m having a little bit of trouble with internet connection, so I hope you can hear me.

So, I don’t know if I understand right, but I feel like maybe that’s like when we… This frequency that you are talking about is probably this loving embrace you gave to yourself and to your aspects, right?

Participant 3: Yes

Romana:  And that feels to me so much smoother and easier to just welcome this aspect into this consciousness, into the loving place. It’s like giving this compassionate, conscious space to everything that is me, everything that comes to inside, or inside of my conscious place.

So that’s what I maybe wanted to add. You know, that’s beautiful to me and that’s also how I feel that integration happens in this way, very gracefully.

Participant 3: Yeah, beautiful. I agree. It’s all kind different, like John was saying. It’s funny how we use different semantics within ourselves, our self-talk, to kind of get us to the same place. But yeah.

Master John: Mmm…

I’ll invite you once more to watch for that new channel when it comes out, because this is what it’s all about. And oh, it surprised John. It’s some things John hadn’t ever thought about before.

Participant 3: Oh, wow! Great! I can’t wait!

Master John: So, anything more before we wrap up?

Participant 4: Can you hear me?

Master John: Yes.

Participant 4: I would like to thank you for giving and opening this safe place, and for making me realize that it’s safe and welcome to have this light side of human aspects, of human feelings, and that there’s also space and it’s safe to have this dark side of a human.

Master John: Indeed!

Participant 4: And it’s a great relief for me, so thank you for giving that space. Thank you.

Master John: You’re welcome.

And yes, it’s allowing the dark. Allowing the uncomfortable parts of life, and of self. It’s so liberating!

Mmm…

So, we thank you all for being here and being part of this beautiful experience!

Ahh…

Feel, during the coming week.

There are going to be a lot of parts of you showing up, and feeling unsafe.

That’s when you give them a hug, and remind them…

Make a conscious choice to remind those parts of you that they are safe, that they truly are, and welcome them home.

You are safe if you choose to be. It’s that simple.

I am safe. I am safe to be who I am. No matter what, no matter what anybody thinks. No matter…

Oh, some people will go out and hurt themselves because of it. Let them. They’ll blame you for hurting them, but the real truth is, no being has the power to hurt another being.

You can create an illusion of it, if you both agree to it, and in mass-consciousness that happens all the time. But it’s only an illusion.

No being, no conscious being, ever has the power to hurt another conscious being.

So, take a breath and step back.

Let you be you.

Let you be safe in your own beingness.

Mmm…

And we’ll see you next week!

And so it is.

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