I Am Divinity

Session 11

Channeled by John McCurdy during a live Zoom session on 28 February 2024

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into what is being said.

Thank you to Chris Vandermeer for managing Zoom during the session, and for helping to prepare this transcript.

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John: Ok, well, shall we find out what’s going to happen today? Because I don’t know!

Welcome everybody! And let’s get started.

Chris, if you would play the music.

[music plays]

Master Anna: Mmm…

I am that I am!

And I am divinity.

Mmm…

Welcome everyone! Those of you here, and those who will join us later.

Hmm…

John felt me in a little bit different way as he was opening up to me. He was opening up to what it felt like in our recent gatherings and channels, and suddenly he saw this picture of this bright glowing being that he is, that I am, that we have been exploring in our last several sessions.

This being that is outside of—for lack of better words—outside of all of this experience.

This being that is the essence of who you are.

Well, each of you have your own divinity, your own consciousness. It felt itself at one point and asked, who am I? And then it sent a part of itself into experience, to explore who you are.

And now… Now you have returned. Now you have blended back together with this incredible being that you are. And oh, we don’t say that metaphorically.

Oh, we have to use words so it’s all metaphors, but that’s not how we mean it. This is real!

In our experience two weeks ago, of all of these aspects and facets of you coming home. They are home now! They have actually been home for a while.

Oh, the human keeps going through its experiences, and it keeps blaming it all on these aspects and going, “Why? When am I going to be done with all this integration?”

Well, I want you to hear this: You are done. The integration is done.

You are still getting used to that, but it is done.

Now it is just the getting used to it, and the discovery of who you are as a human-divine being.

And it isn’t at all what the human expected, and that’s where some of the challenges are. The human had a lot of expectations about what this would be like, and very few of them are anywhere close to the reality.

So you are discovering a whole new you, and you are learning how to be with that whole new you.

And yes, memories from the past come up, but don’t call them aspects anymore. They are just memories.

See them, acknowledge them, and let them go.

The value that comes from them is already inside of you. It’s already here, and you don’t have to focus on it. That’s just a mental game that keeps your mind busy.

Notice the memories, and come back to now.

What is here now?

Hmm…

So, let’s pause here for a little bit and hear from you. How has your life been for the past couple of weeks?

Oh, for John it’s been one of the most intense times ever. He got sick, caught a flu, and felt absolutely useless for most of two weeks!

Ahh…

He has no idea what we are doing together in the other realms, as you call them. It’s not useless at all! And neither is what you are doing, dear friends.

Even when the human feels so useless and so confused, when it hurts, when it thinks it’s getting everything wrong, and when it doubts all this stuff, that doesn’t mean that you actually are useless, because you are not. So much is happening, on so many layers!

We’ll talk more about that today. But first, how are you?

How are you today? How has been your last two weeks?

Silvia.

Silvia: Let’s not break the order. [laughter]

Master Anna: Indeed! We’re grateful that somebody is willing to break the ice and get the conversation started.

Silvia: Yeah, that’s me. Always me! [laughter]

Ok, the past two weeks was quite in a way that I was doing my fasting, the food fasting, and I did it. I did it for 20 days. But I was very light. I didn’t feel the need to eat even though I was cooking and I was looking for videos, food videos, to have new ideas how to change my diet.

And at the same time I was working on my bookkeeping, taxes. I’m done!

And at the same time working with my trip that I was planning. I really want to go to Mexico, and I’m going this weekend. I’m planning to go this weekend.

I’m being ok. I’m being ok. And the human part doesn’t have any idea why I did the 20 days of cleaning, but I did. That’s what matters to me, that I did it. And I wanted to keep going, because it was like every day… I felt like every day, normal. No need to eat.

But my family here around, they were scared for me not to eat it, so that’s why I broke it. But I feel light. I feel light, and I feel that it really has… I needed to have a lot of willingness to prepare my mind, because I was cooking and dealing with food and everything, and I was ok.

So, everything in order here. All is fine. Done with my taxes for this year. I’ve just got to submit them, that’s it.

Go ahead.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Silvia: Sorry, one more thing.

Master Anna: That’s ok.

Silvia: Very important. Very important!

About 10 days of my fasting, I was having a phone call with another Shaumbra and we were talking about me, how was everything going in my life and everything?

And then this Shaumbra, this other Shaumbra, do channelings with Kuthumi, and I felt the need to speak with Kuthumi. And then I experience my being speaking for me. It was totally different because I felt it from here, from my heart.

In the past, I’ve been feeling just channeling somebody else from here [Sylvia points to her head]. So that’s a beautiful experience that I had! That’s something that I just wanted to share.

Master Anna: Thank you!

Who else?

Monika?

Monika: If we don’t break the rule, then I’m speaking now. [laughter]

Yeah, I was in bed again also, after the last session. Two days later I suddenly received an inflammation by a tooth.

This has put me, on a human level, in panic. And the day, already in the evening I was in bed again. Again with [?]and stomach flu, headache, and this took another week.

And I’m also… I can feel on a human level that I’m physically in a total change. Since these two flus I don’t know what to eat. I don’t fancy a lot of food. Yeah, I did not find now what I really want to eat.

So, whether I can feel that I’m home. I remembered all the time this blending. Also, it came to me again and again. I had a lot of dreams. This inflammation in my mouth has activated a trauma, and on the human level I’m still in it. I have wet hands when I tell it. And I have later a question too, Master Anna, if there is a space for that.

Master Anna: Indeed, you can ask right now if you wish.

Monika: Ok.

When it is about teeth, then it’s panic. Then I feel panic on a human level. Last year, my dentist suggested me to extract a tooth and do another surgery. And I moved this appointment to this spring from last year. And I thought, “Yeah, until this spring. I’ll know then if I really want to do this or not.” And I just can’t feel it.

It’s coming closer. These appointments are in beginning, in the first part, of March, and this inflammation then activated this trauma. And since two weeks I’m, on a human level, in this.

My question is, you said integration is done, and the human mind is telling me, but there is a trauma. I’m still not done with it. I’m shaking. I can’t feel, should I do this or not? Is it the fear that keeps me away from it, or is it really that there’s no need to do it because the suggestion came from the dentist, not from my heart?

I’m there between. I can’t find an answer for me. When I ask my soul, I just have not the clear answer.

I’m shaking, totally. So, I had already sleepless nights about that in the last two weeks. I really can’t find… Yeah, is it fear or is it not the moment to do it? I’m in the air somehow.

Master Anna: When you think about doing it, how do you feel in your body?

Monika: Shaking.

Master Anna: if you think about not doing it, how does your body feel?

Monika: Starting relaxing.

Master Anna: Mmm…

We’re not going to give you advice on this situation, on what to choose, other than to pay really good attention to that. To, how does your body respond to the different options right now?

Hmm…

John has been asking himself the same question. He has some issues going on with his teeth and he feels like he ‘should’ go to the dentist and get it taken care of, and another part of him is like, “Something just doesn’t feel right about that right now.”

And his mind goes, “But these things have to be dealt with! What are you going to do?”

And all he knows right now is that it doesn’t feel right, right now. And he’s learned to trust that.

Monika: It’s still like a pattern from my mind, but I have the idea I have to go beyond this trauma. I’m kind of forcing myself to, perhaps, heal it, integrate it, get rid of it, have it done in this lifetime.

Master Anna: We would say, any time you feel like you are forcing yourself, that’s the time to step back. Take a breath, and instead of calling it a trauma, just call it a memory.

It’s a little bit lighter. It’s a memory. It’s from the past.

Things that happened back then are not present anymore, unless you make them present.

So, call it a memory and see where that takes you. It’s not something to fight, it’s something to just be with, to allow. And we are going to go further into this today.

Monika: And the dentist says, “This is dead tooth. It is heavy on the body, on other organs. You have to extract it. It has to go.” But, in a way, this tooth is so strong in my mouth. It doesn’t want to go out. But then comes the fear, “Oh, and when it is heavy on my body…” Yeah, it’s just a turmoil in my mind. A human drama.

Master Anna: The thing is, even things as hard and solid and heavy as a tooth, is still just energy. It’s your energy. It’s serving you in some way.

Don’t try to figure it out. Don’t try to figure out how it is serving you. If that is important, it will come to you. But just know that it is serving you, and it is you, and it can transform in a moment.

Again, we’re going to go deeper into this whole topic of embodiment.

Monika: Thank you that I could share it. It’s really a gift. Thank you very much.

Master Anna: Thank you!

So, what else before we dive deeper?

Chris?

Chris: I didn’t have too many updates. Just tax stuff is still being sorted for me. Residency is still being sorted for me, but I feel ok about it, all the stories have dropped off anyway. I just had so many fears coming up, and levels of self delusion as well.

Ok, let me share a little bit about this with you guys because my senses have been opening up a fair bit more in the past few months. But basically, I’ve been in this relationship and I had actually a lot of fears coming up, fears of commitment and old beliefs in, old spiritual beliefs like Yogic, Buddhist, sort of, you know, you’re supposed to be abstinent, you’re not supposed to have relationships, you’ve got a mission.

I had something deep in my subconscious of having a spiritual mission that I need to achieve in this life, you know, to serve humanity or whatever. It was just running a little bit and I could feel this argument going on with myself: Well, what about me? What’s actually authentic with me? And then this other nudging coming through.

But basically, as my senses are opening, I’m generating crazy amounts of visions every day. I’m waking up when I’m going through my integrations. I’m placing my awareness in my heart, but I’m at this next level of discernment with myself and self-awareness. Because before I left for Peru, the synchronicity and the guidance was pretty binary: You’re going here now, you’re not supposed to be doing that, and the synchronicities flow through. If I need some visual confirmation, I have it. I have a dream, and so on.

But now I’m finding that I’m actually stepping into a place where choice is coming back a little bit more. I haven’t felt like I’ve had free will for the past three years, four years, because I’ve just been ripped out of situation after situation, relationship after relationship. If it’s not serving me, it’s gone.

And I had this thing, “No, I’ve got to move on. I’ve got somewhere to go. I’ve got somewhere to go.”

And so I had vision after vision that I need to get out of this relationship and that there was something better coming on, and I realized I was deep in this space of self-delusion, which was so freeing and so amazing to see that I still have these beliefs, these spiritual beliefs and perceptions going through that I’m not allowed to be happy in a relationship. That I need to… I have something to achieve.

And it was more just experiencing that level of confusion within myself, where I’m generating synchronicities like that, you know. I’m generating visions, I’m generating dreams, and to see that I was doing that was so amazing! Because then I’m free from it. I can see myself in that space and realize that I’m actually free to choose a lot more.

Yeah, just a much higher level of discernment in terms of what was going on. Because I had a funny one. So the theme was basically—my partner’s name is Karel—and I would wake up in the morning and one example is, I saw a vision of a lavender plant and a cactus growing side by side.

And my fears and my ego interpreted that as two different species not supposed to be growing next to one another. “Shit. I’m in the wrong, doing the wrong thing again. Fuck, I just moved from this group in Urubamba. I need to move again.”

No, it was a symbol of love and harshness, softness and harshness. And so that day I had that vision I went to go to her art studio in Pisac, and I walked past a man selling lavender for the first time ever.

He was selling it, and it was actually my higher levels, my divinity and the guides and everything saying, “No, you can choose softness here. You don’t have to be like the old Yogi you were living with.”

And yeah, it was just, it was good, because as I said, I was misinterpreting this communication and sometimes you’ve just got to go into those spaces of yourself to see it. So, I feel a lot freer in that sense.

Yeah, I have a lot of gratitude for all of those experiences. There was more. I won’t share them all, but that was the theme where I was that confused within myself that I was able to create all sorts of stories.

Other than that, just fears of conflict, fears of authority. That’s a theme coming up in my dream space as well, is working for authorities. Working for people who don’t give a shit about me, who just want power, and standing up to that and saying, “No more, no more!” to a range of things.

So, I stood up to my friend a little bit who I was doing the website with. I said, “Look, I need at least another $100 for the other website” that I’m going to do for her. And I’m also not interested in any management services. I’m not going to be doing updates or whatever. I need to be creating. I need to be expressing myself. And it was enough, because she sent me a voice message afterwards, and I could feel her tone changing because she’s deep in denial of her own self-centeredness.

And that felt good. As soon as I sent that message and I had my energy clear in it, a lot released from my body. My lower self stopped grumbling, and I was happy about that.

So that was a good step in the right direction, and yeah, those are a couple of the main themes.

Thank you.

Master Anna: Mmm…

Romana?

Romana: Ok, quickly from me.

Hello! I don’t even know what to say, honestly. So much is happening and it’s one of these periods that I have lately that I feel like I’m so overwhelmed with busyness and work that is lots of fun at moments, and at other moments just feels like I’m burning out.

And I’m doubting my decisions because, you know, you asked before how my body feels, you know, how the body feels. And I took two decisions lately, connecting with some people in this project, and right now it just feels so heavy. Why did I do that? My soul wants to go toward lightness and simplicity, and I’m complicating my life even more? And my body feels like all this nerve system is overwhelmed. I can hardly find time in between, in the day, to relax.

It’s a beautiful creation coming up and I’m really looking forward for them, a new workshop in Mykonos and a new book, but the timing of it just feels like it’s so much, and it feels like I’m on this roller coaster that I can hardly manage…

I had this idea, this crazy idea to connect my relatives for the presentation of the book. And it’s like going back into all these old energies that I was avoiding before, and I was really kind of liberating from them, and now I bring all of them into my life again!

Which feels like there is some deeper meaning in that. It feels like I’m really bringing this embodiment in these levels of my deepest fears, and not like… It feels like this, you know, there’s this journey of a hero, or of a mystic, that you come to this mountain and you are free of all this self-doubt and all these ancestral and mass-consciousness connections. And then somehow this mystic has this idea, “Why wouldn’t I go back and share that with all these people that I was running away from?”

And so that’s how I feel right now, and part of me feels like, “Are you crazy? What are you doing?”

And part of me is just having so much fun with that! And yeah, it’s kind of lots of… Yeah, maybe that’s a good point not to call those parts of me aspects, but memories. And memories definitely have been a lot, for me, like lots of judgment from people, lots of…

Because I was always kind of… In many lifetimes and also this lifetime, many times I was different. I was standing out, and lots of people had comments on that. Or, you know, like gossip behind my back. And the more I’m getting sensitive the more I can feel it, almost like a layer on me is full of this judgment, “Oh, what do you think you are? What do you think you’re doing? All this nonsense about this enlightenment and soul, do you think that’s real?” You know, things like that, and that you should be this humble hidden person somewhere.

And I was. Many times in my life I chose to be hidden, because it was so much easier. But now I feel like I’m kicked to these places of being seen, and part of me is really freaking out with that. And of course my soul is laughing and having a lot of fun!

So, yeah, but my human right now is really tired, exhausted, so that’s… Any insights would be really appreciated.

Master Anna: So, for clarity, is it really the other people that are judging you? Or is it you, these memories?

Romana: Yeah, I think that’s… You know, my inner critic is tremendously big. I’ve been fighting it lots of my life, then I kind of accepted it, and it’s really, it’s almost like… This criticism within, it’s so heavy in me. Criticism of everything that is feminine, and specifically with this divine feminine that was kind of pushed out of this consciousness, of mass-consciousness, a lot.

And it’s not just me. It’s not just my inner critic. I can feel that also in the reactions of people, you know, like especially these old academic or artistic circles. They really get nervous when somebody starts to speak about soul or art or any of the soft gentleness or…

All these things, I feel like they were judged on so many layers. And part of me, of course, feels like I’m judging it. Like it’s not just that, I feel it’s both. And in this lifetime I don’t really… You know, who cares?

But still, I’m kind of having something going on with this. I cannot say I’m walking my path and I’m just enjoying my life and I don’t care. I would like to be in this place, but I’m not really. Yeah, I hope I will be beyond it.

Master Anna: Indeed. Thank you!

Ahh…

So, let’s breathe for a moment.

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Come back now to this place, we call it home, this place of you.

All that you are, all that you have ever been, all that you have ever experienced. It’s all here. It’s all blended together.

Mmm…

But you are doing something new.

In the past, when someone came to this place, they let their body go.

In a sense they left Earth. They couldn’t really, because it’s inside of them, and they finally came to know that. But they disconnected from this framework, this mass-consciousness.

It’s really just a communications network, kind of like your internet, and they pulled the plug. They disconnected.

The humans called it ‘ascending.’ Kind of a funny name but… You are doing something different.

Oh, you and your soul, at some point you will disconnect, in a way. But for now, you have come back to this home, AND you still have a body walking around on Earth.

All the others have come home.  In a way this one has too, but in a way it’s still walking around being human.

Oh, the human had a lot of ideas about what this would be like. Oh, so many dreams it’s had, for so many lifetimes, of creating its life in all these beautiful ways. A few of them worked out, occasionally. Most of them didn’t. Or sometimes a dream would receive its fulfillment for a short time, and then it seemed like it was taken away.

Hmm…

But that’s just part of this human experience.

You came here this time and you said, Dear soul, this time is different. I know that. I know we’re going to do it different, so don’t let me get too far off track.

You came, you were born, you grew up. You had all these dreams, many of them left over from other lifetimes that you still wanted to fulfill.

But they were human dreams. Many of them didn’t really fit with what you were actually here to do, which was to come home.

Mmm…

You see, when you are home you can actually have any of those dreams. You can live them out within your imagination. But here on Earth, well, there isn’t time to live them all out.

John was thinking about it earlier today, about some of his dreams that he had when he was younger. He’s so glad that they didn’t get fulfilled!

He didn’t get married when he was twenty years old and have at least three kids like he expected to. And now he’s so grateful, because it would have been a very different lifetime!

Instead, he found himself. He found the New Love, the love for himself.

He found his enlightenment, his realization of himself.

Oh, and then, when he no longer needed it, one of his dearest dreams came true: spending time with this beautiful dear friend in Romana.

But if that had happened back when he was so lonely, so desperate to find her—he could feel her since he was a child, but if they had gotten together back then it would have changed the whole course of this lifetime.

That’s not a bad thing, but it would have been very different. It could have meant another lifetime or two to come to where he has come to in himself.

He’s had so many ideas along the way of how things should be, and of what he should do with his life. Mostly it was questions, because none of the answers he knew about made any sense at all. None of them worked out very well.

He tried several different career choices, and very quickly found that they weren’t fulfilling at all.

Hmm…

But he came home. He came home to me, his soul, his divinity, and that is what this lifetime was for.

Mmm…

But that’s difficult for the human. It doesn’t have the perception that the soul has, the sensitivity, the wisdom, the knowing.

Even now, the human looks around and tries to figure things out. It sees all these things that need to get done. It tries to figure out how to do it all and stresses itself out.

It feels the changes happening in the body. It feels the body breaking down. It wonders what it’s getting wrong. And the truth is, nothing is wrong.

This is all just part of this lifetime, of the soul-plan for this lifetime. Because when you first came here you said to your soul, “This is your lifetime. This is when we come home to each other, and we do it different. This lifetime is about finding the New Love.”

And oh, it is new. The love of self. The love for self.

Mmm…

The human tries to figure it out, but it doesn’t really figure out in the mind. But it’s so beautiful! And so deep!

And the more you give it to yourself, the more you allow it into your life, oh, it changes all the other loves in your life. It enhances them. It clarifies them.

It brings you to this place where you just can’t do things for other people like you used to. You can’t do things that aren’t loving to you. And when you try, it really hurts.

When you come back to this love, this love for you, this love between you and your soul, oh, it changes everything. It clarifies everything. It brings peace. It helps you relax.

It helps you release the fear, because that love shines into those old memories. And it soothes them. Because there is a part of you telling them—because they are home now—there is a part of you telling them:

What you did might have felt like a disaster. The things that happened to you might have felt horrible. But you brought so much wisdom to Soul, to us!

You did not fail. And what you did was so beautiful!

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This is the New Love.

And this love is coming to you now and saying:

Dear human, everything you are going through right now is so beautiful! But you are not here to accomplish these things.

Oh, they are beautiful things! But that is not why you are doing them. It is not why you are here.

You are here to love you.

To nurture you.

And to shine that love into every part of you, and into every one of those memories when it comes up.

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You’ve heard it said that, “The only way out is in.”

Because that’s how this mass-consciousness, so-called reality, was set up. In particular, the Earth part of it. It was set up so that if… It’s a safety feature, partly. And partly, it was set up to ensure that you found the answer to your question.

So this human reality was set up in a way that if you ever came close to it—and many curious angels have come a little too close, and before they knew it, they were caught.

And, oh, they fought and they fought and they fought to get out! And most of them are still fighting to get out. Even you.

Your natural tendency is to try to get out of the things that don’t feel good, to fight your way out.

To fight your way through your projects, because maybe when they’re done you can get out.

To try to fix everything in your body, because maybe then it’ll feel better and you’ll be able to… Hm, to feel better.

So the human, well, it was kind of set up this way on purpose, because of the experience, but the human has been fighting. For all of these lifetimes, fighting to find its way out. To find its way back home.

But there is only one way out, and that is in.

Go into it.

Stop fighting.

Stop trying to fix it all.

Stop trying to get it all right.

Instead, just be with what is right now, and do what you feel with that in the moment.

That is the only way out of it. To be with it in the moment. To bring that love to that part of you.

It is all part of you.

It is all inside of you.

Bring that new love to your teeth, and to all the other things in your body.

Oh, we’re not going to say that you shouldn’t get your teeth fixed. But if that is your path you will wake up one morning and go, “It’s time to fix my teeth!” And you will know. And it will feel good. Because until it feels good in your heart, until you feel at peace with the choice, then you are just fighting a battle with yourself.

So, step back. Whatever it is in your body, take a breath. Breathe it in. Don’t breathe healing into it, or light into it, or anything else. Breathe it into you.

The aches and the pains, breathe them into you. And then just be with them.

You will know if, and when, it’s time to do something different.

Or, let’s say that over again: You will know, in your heart, if and when it comes time to do something traditional with them, like see a dentist or the doctor or whatever. You will know! IF that’s your path.

But you are doing something different. You are transforming. You are no longer just a human.

You are a human-divine.

Feel that blending.

Feel that love, the love for you.

Bring that love to these parts of you that hurt.

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One of the attributes of that love is acceptance. Bring that to these parts of you that hurt.

As you do that, you will find… Oh, you may wake up one day and go, “It’s time to see the dentist! And then you’ll feel good about it.

Or you may not. You just might wake up one morning and find that it doesn’t hurt anymore.

Mmm…

For that’s where we are going.

Oh, the human gets all impatient and goes, “Why isn’t it there? Why am I not there now? Why does this still hurt? I must be doing something wrong!”

No, you are going through a process. A very specific process, a very careful process, and you are doing it in human time. Partly because you want to be really clear about this experience. You want to understand it, because what you are really doing…

You have come to the answer to that grand question of, Who am I? And there were other questions within that, like the question of, How does energy work?

You have come to the answer, and what you are going through right now is the process of making that answer real.

You are doing it in slowed down human time, so that you can truly understand when you come out the other side, how it works.

How this transformation works.

How you can take energy and turn it into matter in any way you like, and then dissolve it again.

How you can create these incredible realities, but not get caught in them like you always have before.

This is what you are doing.

It’s an incredible process.

It’s an incredible thing you are doing!

And you are not getting it wrong.

But you are having to do it different than you have ever done it before in the human experience.

Hmm…

It takes a lot of faith, a lot of faith in you.

Not in some external being, but in you. In your soul.

It takes a lot of love.

It takes a whole new kind of love. A love that is willing to shine on itself, to shine deep within self.

To take all of these old memories and simply love them.

To take all of the fears that come with them and breathe them in, and hold them tight like scared little children, and love them.

This is what you are doing now.

Ahh…

You thought life should be all better by now.

Well, but then you wouldn’t have the experience.

Then you wouldn’t have a chance to ground this new knowing of how energies work.

Oh, it’s not a mental understanding. It’s far, far deeper than that!

It’s a feeling. It’s a knowing. And you have it!

And now, despite all the seeming evidence to the contrary, you have it. And you are grounding it.

You are making the answer real for you.

Mmm…

You look at your life, John looks at his life and goes, “What am I doing? I feel like I’m getting it all wrong, like I’m not living what I teach.” Oh, that’s a big fear that he has.

But what he’s learning in all of this is that he is living what he teaches. But that doesn’t mean that the human life is all peaches and cream, like a dreamy fantasy.

No, it’s real. It’s visceral. It’s gritty. It’s messy. And that is the beauty of it.

Hmm…

So, it’s such an incredible thing that you are doing right now!

The mind doesn’t understand. The mind… It’s trying really hard to understand, but it really can’t.

But can you let it in?

You know.

You do know, in the core of your being, what an incredible thing you are doing right now.

Can you let that in?

Can you allow your own New Love to fill you?

Hmm…

You will find that things smooth out in your life when you do.

Oh, there will still be plenty of things to panic about, if that [the panic] is what you choose. But you will also find that when you bring this love and this acceptance to life just the way it is, you will find that everything works out. So often, in ways you couldn’t possibly have imagined.

It just works out. Things that you thought you had to do but were too tired to do, they just… Somehow, they get done. Or they become unimportant.

Ha! Life becomes completely unpredictable from the human perspective!

But it becomes so beautiful. It becomes an easy flow.

It’s scary from the human perspective, from the mind perspective, because it’s so unpredictable.

But when you take the time to love yourself first, in every moment; to BE with what is present right now, just the way it is, without trying to fix it. You just be with it, and then you do what inspires you in the moment with what is.

Oh, it’s such a different way to live!

Some people will accuse you of being irresponsible, but you will find that it is the most responsible way you have ever lived!

And it is so much easier, so much more graceful.

You will find yourself in the right place at the right time.

Ha! You won’t always know why, until you ask your soul and your soul says, “There’s something really amazing happening here, because you are here right now. I can’t really describe it to the human, but it’s really amazing! So just be with it.”

Hmm…

Be with yourself.

Bring this New Love to everything in your life, without agenda.

The human has so many agendas! We’ve talked about them before.

Are you ready to let those go?

The human says, “Oh, but these things were so inspiring when I started them!” Well, that’s because they came from your soul.

Now, can you let your soul complete them, instead of bringing all your agendas to them and all your ideas about what you have to do to see them through?

Your soul knows what really needs to happen, and if you come back to yourself, to this love and acceptance for you in the moment, your soul will guide you in new ways. And it will all get done, the way it needs to get done.

Mmm…

The human thought that becoming enlightened, becoming an embodied master, was going to bring all the power of divinity into the human experience.

Mmm…

No, there is no power in divinity.

Instead it brings the consciousness, the awareness, of divinity into the human experience, in a way that has never happened before.

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The humans says, “Oh goodie! Now I’ll be able to fulfill all of these agendas I have!”

No.

Instead, now you’ll be able to allow them. To allow your life just the way it is. And in that you will begin to see through it, and to feel something so much deeper happening.

Mmm…

And then you will be on your soul’s path.

And then you will discover a new life, a life that is so much easier.

It’s not perfect from the human standpoint, but it’s so much easier.

Ha! And pretty soon you will start to see how incredibly perfect it is, even though it’s still messy and gritty and hurts sometimes. And sometimes even confusing.

But there will be a lot less confusion when you drop those agendas and bring in that New Love for you, right here, right now, just the way you are in this moment.

Bring it to every part of you.

That is the new life, and it is incredible!

Mmm…

So, over the next couple of weeks, feel into this new love. This love that absolutely accepts everything about you just the way you are in this moment, and that absolutely accepts everything in your life just the way it is in this moment.

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Oh, that doesn’t mean that you roll over and let people walk all over you.

But you won’t, because you are loving yourself! And someone who loves themselves doesn’t let anybody walk over them.

But you will find yourself responding in a whole new way from that place, from the strength of love.

Hmm…

The human is so tired of fighting, and so many stories have been made up about how, to love someone else you have to give in to what they want. You have to please them. You have to make them feel better.

But that is not love. That is brutality.

Mmm…

Let in this love, this New Love, for you, and watch how it shines into every part of your life.

And hold on to that over the next two weeks.

Mmm…

And so it is.

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Chris: Thank you so much, Master Anna. Thank you John. Incredible! Wow. That was a lot of clarity! Amazing!

Silvia: Lots of love! Thank you!

Chris: Yes, so much love, so grounded.

Monika: And so much wisdom, Master Anna!

Romana:I feel so much better now!

John: [slowly coming back from the channel, and noticing that everyone had shifted around on the Zoom screen]

Mmm…

It’s a strange thing. Every single one of you are in a different place on my screen since the last time I looked! [laughter]

Chris: Interesting! Because mine haven’t moved.

Mine haven’t moved. I’ve still got everyone in the same spot, so John has just shifted us all around. That’s beautiful!

John: Ahh…

I don’t have any more words right now…

Romana:So much grace and ease flowing in my body now. It’s just so clear. Yeah, that’s it. And coming back to this love and accepting all this mess makes everything so much easier.

John: Yeah, it really does.

Silvia: Wow, we are speechless! [much laughter]

What I felt is that I just need to be human. Be doing what I want to do. Experience and be alive.

John: Yeah.

Silvia: I’m going to Mexico! Yay!

John: Cool. Have fun!

Silvia: I’m gonna enjoy that! Twenty days of not eating, and then in Mexico I’m gonna eat, eat, eat!

[laughter]

John: Eat some for me. I love Mexican food! 

Silvia: Yeah, yeah.

In reality, what I felt, I did it because my body, it was swelling. I started… Ah, my creation. I understand now. Ha ha ha! Just to have the experience. That was fun! Pretty nice experience, right?

John: Hmm…

We are answering the question of, How does energy work? And we are grounding it now. Because we have the answers. So we are grounding it.

Monika: Thank you so much dear John, Master Anna.

Silvia: Yeah, even if the human doesn’t have any clue what is happening, right? It’s more than that.

[a pause]

And again, we are speechless!

John: Hmm…

Ok, well, thank you all for being part of this!

[thanks and goodbyes]

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