I Am Divinity

Session 6

Channeled by John McCurdy during a live Zoom session on 20 December 2023

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into what is being said.

Thank you to Chris Vandermeer for managing Zoom during the session, and for helping to prepare this transcript.

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John: Welcome everybody! And let’s get started, so go ahead Chris.

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Master Anna: I am that I am!

Master Anna, of Magical Service.

Greetings, dear friends! And Merry Christmas, or Happy Holidays, whatever holidays you celebrate, to each one of you.

Greetings to those who will be listening or reading later. Welcome! Welcome everyone!

Ahh…

What a time!

It’s winter, the dark time. The inward time.

I know John has been going very much inward lately, and some of you have too. It’s an intense time, a time like has never been before, ever.

So, let’s begin with you. How are you? How have the past couple of weeks been for you?

Silvia.

Silvia: Master Anna, these past two weeks have been more slow than before, so this human takes time for herself to slow down. She is still doing her activities, her jobs that she has to do, but she’s more slow. More slow, and yesterday she got sick. Today she is sick, but she’s here. She’s doing a big effort to be here. She rest all night to be able to speak. So, here we are.

Master Anna: Ahh…

We’re so glad you made it, that you made the effort to be here.

Ahh…

Allow the sick. Don’t feel like it’s anything wrong. It’s your body rewiring itself, taking advantage of the winter viruses to rearrange your DNA.

Silvia: As a matter of fact, it is for her a resting time, since her child also got sick. So both are in bed.

Master Anna: Indeed.

Silvia: She’s enjoying being in bed.

Master Anna: Yes, good.

Silvia: And my heart is pumping fast, but I’m here.

Master Anna: Yes. Thank you. Welcome!

How about you, Monika?

Monika: I felt physically, totally exhausted the last two weeks, super exhausted. I couldn’t sleep very well, not falling asleep very well. Last week on Thursday, from Thursday to yesterday, I had immense tension in my head, neurologic pain near the crown, extremely.

And I could feel something is going on, something is in the air. I couldn’t say what exactly.

Master Anna: So much. So very much!

Monika: And after this earthquake and volcano bursting, I feel better. The tension is gone. I feel also that I myself, I’m pulling myself inside, as I mentioned last time already. It’s very quiet in both of my businesses, and I felt so exhausted that I just can’t give up the battles, the fights.

I’m still a bit fighting in my relationship. It’s perhaps an old pattern just to have something, a tension in the air.

Master Anna: Yes.

Monika: That something is going on that I feel. Yeah, I can’t explain it to me in another way. Perhaps it’s still this old pattern to feel alive, that a tension, something, is going on. But I’m feeling tired physically, tiredness from this whole year. Tiredness. I don’t know what.

And I could feel, this time and last time before the session, where Eli’s voice came and said, “Why do you want to go to this session? You don’t have to tell something interesting to them. It’s boring. Don’t go to this session.”

Yeah, it’s just a lot going on in me at the moment. But I’m tired to listen to this voice. I’m tired about patterns. Thank you.

Master Anna: You’re welcome, and thank you!

Thank you for being here! And it’s not to bring something entertaining or interesting. You bring YOU here. You bring your light here, your consciousness. Ah, and it’s so appreciated here!

Monika: But yeah, it’s the mind looking for a distraction, and I’m tired of that.

Master Anna: Talk to your mind.

Tell your mind that you are tired of that.

Speak to it from your soul’s perspective.

Give it a hug.

The mind is a little bit like a child that’s feeling neglected. It wants attention, and so it acts out to get attention. Sometimes all it really needs is just a hug and some gentle words.

Monika: Thank you, Master Anna.

I’m feeling grateful to be here with all of you. 

Master Anna: Chris?

Chris: I’m quite well, thank you Master Anna, and it’s lovely to see you guys again. I’ve also had a slower time. I don’t have a whole lot to report. John and I were talking a little bit. I’m still going through some of my usual patterns and imbalances of conflict avoidance and devaluing myself, I guess.

But it’s been a very… I’m just sinking back into myself as well. Even though I’m here in the Southern Hemisphere, I’m very much in that energy as well.

Just waking up, and I’ll open my eyes and I’ll be seeing as a part of myself that I haven’t felt since I was out of a body, perhaps. You know, really remembering myself, and then I go through the usual rebalancing throughout the day. Just being patient with myself and putting one foot in front of the other. Life is very much just one day at a time.

Master Anna: Yes.

Chris: It’s beautiful. Yeah, I love everyone in my life. I love all of my creations at the moment. I’m challenged. I’ve created a perfect situation to overcome the things that I need to, let go of the things that I need to. But life is good. Thank you. 

Master Anna: Good.

Ah, indeed. There is so much going on right now!

John has been finding himself exhausted lately. He did just a little bit of exertion outdoors the other day, carried in some firewood or something, and he just kind of burst into tears and was complaining to Romana about how exhausted he was and how exhausted he gets so quickly these days. And they were both like, “Maybe we need to go see the doctor!”

And I was watching and I said, “You know, there is so much happening. Maybe you just need to be here with yourself for a while. You can go to the doctor later if you need to, if you really think you need to, but there is something else going on.

Hmm…

Last night he woke up from a dream where he was working on some kind of little handheld device—that’s the best way his mind could picture what was happening—that if you pushed a button on it, it healed people, or him. The mind didn’t bring it back in very clearly, but the point of it was that I was trying to show him that reality is changing.

And indeed, we are bringing in new—not devices that heal people, but you could call it technologies. We don’t really like that word so much, but new consciousness that indeed does bring balance. That bring balance to whatever you choose to put your attention on, to observe. It brings balance. Your light brings balance, and you are going to find that happening in new ways, going forward.

Hmm…

We are coming to the end of your year, 2023. Seven.

Seven has always been a special number for me, and for John. It has been called the number of Divinity. Oh, in many different ways, and it’s not the number itself that has any meaning. It is the meanings that people give to it. 2023 is a seven year, and indeed it has been the year of bringing in your divinity.

And not just yours. Not just those of you here.

You have been so instrumental in bringing in humanity’s divinity and making it available for anyone who chooses it. And many are choosing it, even though they have no idea that’s what it is.

It is available now, and it is coming in. And each of you have had a part in that.

Everyone in this class. Everyone who… Oh, so many! You have had a part in bringing that in for yourselves, and for the whole world.

Mmm…

You are coming into a new year, 2024, an eight.

Eight is the year of mastery. It’s the number of mastery. And indeed, you are going to find so much mastery showing up in your life in the coming year, and leading up into the next year, nine, the completion, 2025.

Indeed, it’s going to be such a beautiful completion, in so many ways! It doesn’t mean you are leaving, but coming into a whole new level of completion of your journey. You can stay and play as long as you want to, but it’s going to be in new ways.

Mmm…

I invite you, in this moment to remember—we’re not going to say ‘in the past,’ because it’s right here—remember this moment where you became aware of yourself and you asked, “Who am I?”

Mmm…

Don’t look in the past, it’s right here. You are still in it.

This part of you said, “I am going to go out and show you who we are, who I am, who you are, who we are together!”

Hmm…

You created, you imagined, all these adventures. All these connections with others.

You played, you imagined, you went so deep into your imagination that it didn’t feel like imagination anymore.

It felt so real, especially when you came to Earth. You created this planet. You infused it with life.

We did, I was right there with you.

Mmm…

We infused it with life. We dove into it and embodied ourselves in these things you call animals.

We eventually settled on a particular kind, shaped it the way we wanted it, and dove even deeper as humans.

And we replayed so many things that had happened in the past.

The past only exists in human reality, in human experience. It’s just a part of your imagination, and that’s why we can say that we are still in that moment.

Ahh…

It’s been called the Wall of Fire. You were shredded, in a sense, into all these different experiences, and now it is all coming back together.

You created this thing called time so that you could spread it out and have the experiences individually, but it is still all part of this moment. You asking the question, “Who am I?” And now, you receive the answer.

Ahh…

You the human, the experiencer, feel yourself now standing before your soul, the part that stayed behind to receive, bearing the greatest… Indeed, the greatest Christmas present ever! The knowledge of you. The experience of you.

Oh, and your soul, she brings gifts also to you:

The gift of knowing.

Oh, we call it wisdom, and it comes in the form of knowing. You don’t have to figure anything out anymore, because when you open up to it, you just know. And that is the gift of your soul.

That, and this incredible love!

Oh, your soul learned it from you, and then she took it. She took it inside, and she made it her own.

It seemed for a time that she was gone, like you had lost her, but that was only because she had turned inward to feel the thing of love and to make it her own. And now she is here, and she brings to you this incredible gift of self-love.

Mmm…

You thought you had to figure that out as the human, didn’t you?

There again, it was for your soul to learn, to become aware of, and to bring back to you.

Ahh…

Feel that love now.

Standing here in front of—for lack of better words we’ll say, this other half of you.

Feel her love.

Feel as she opens her arms to you.

Oh, you can also imagine it as a “he,” or however feels right to you.

This other part of you that brings the knowing and brings the self-love, as you bring the experience.

Ahh…

Feel, as this being that you are opens its arms to you, and wraps them around you.

And you wrap yours around her.

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She says, “Welcome home!”

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Feel that hug.

That hug you have longed for, for so long.

You have looked for it for so long.

You have looked for it in other people, and that was wonderful.

But it never quite fulfilled that longing.

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Now feel this hug from your own self, your own soul.

Feel the love.

Feel the gratitude.

Feel the blending, for you are no longer two.

You are blending together.

You are one.

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Feel your soul’s knowing, and your experience.

Feel your love, all blending together.

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Feel the welcome.

Feel the joy, the reunion.

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Part of you is afraid that this is going to end.

Part of you wants to run away and get the pain over with.

You can do that, or you can let this be real.

You can let this continue.

It’s you.

Your soul isn’t going anywhere.

She can’t, she is you.

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You are home.

Allow yourself to be home.

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Now, bring your awareness back to this human body.

You are still here, but notice the difference.

Look out through your eyes.

Feel out through your senses.

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Notice your soul feeling with you.

She is here now.

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Look out through your eyes, and see through her perspective.

You can observe, and instead of just processing what you see through your mind, you can bring it into your soul’s consciousness and feel it the way she does.

Oh, it’s confusing for the human, because your soul’s awareness is so much broader and grander and bigger than yours. You are feeling through all of her senses, and you’re human, your body and your mind don’t know what to do with all of that. But, that’s okay, your soul does.

You can allow her, now, to manage your life.

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Talk to your mind. Tell it that it can go back to its original function of simply interfacing between Soul and biology.

Ahh…

This thing you call the veil came later. We added it to your mind’s job, to have your mind distract you from Soul, because otherwise you couldn’t really have this experience fully. It was too easy to pop out, to go back to your soul, so we gave your mind the job of distracting you.

It was a huge, difficult gift that your mind gave us! And it no longer needs to.

So talk to your mind, and allow it to be your soul’s voice talking to it.

How do you do that? Just imagine it.

You choose it. You feel the perspective of your soul, and you start talking to your mind gently, tenderly: “Dear mind, you’ve done such a beautiful job, and now you can rest. We don’t need that veil anymore. Soul is here. Soul is joining into this life, this human life.”

Oh, she is still so much more than this human. She exists in all the realms, and now she is present here in this human realm with you, as you.

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Give your mind a hug in your imagination.

Come back to this hug between you and your soul, this blending together, and bring your mind into that. Allow it to blend back into Soul.

Allow your body to blend back into your soul.

That doesn’t mean that it goes away. It means also that your soul blends into it, but it changes it.

That’s why you’ve been feeling so tired lately. Some of you have been feeling so exhausted, and it is because of this blending that is happening. Your body doesn’t know what to do with it.

It does know to just let it happen, but sometimes it just needs a lot of rest so that it can happen.

This winter time, this dark inward time of your year, is the perfect time, so allow the exhaustion. Don’t fight it, don’t try to fix it or get over it. Just allow it.

Allow yourself to rest.

Mmm…

Indeed, there is so much new coming into your reality in the coming year.

Oh, that’s not even the right way to say it, but we don’t have better words right now.

Ahh…

The year of mastery!

Indeed, you are going to be discovering so many new things about yourself, as you and your soul together bring in this wisdom, this knowing, and bring it into your human life.

So many beautiful experiences coming!

It’s so important to allow them. They are scary sometimes for the human.

Hmm…

The human runs away, and sometimes you can’t stop it from running away. That is the time to simply love it, to open up to your soul’s love and shine that love on the scared human.

Let it come back when it is ready. Don’t punish it, don’t try to scare it into staying.

Just invite it. Just love it.

Love your own human self, because that’s what Soul does.

Mmm…

That’s what this new love is about.

You shine it on yourself just the way you are, with all of what you call your foibles, your failures, and all these things you feel so much shame about.

It’s time to let that shame go, and love these things about you.

Love even the fear, even what you think of as failures, even the things you think you should have done different. They are what they are. Love them!

You did the best you could, and that’s a fact! A fact you need to let in.

You always did the best you could, and your soul distilled so much wisdom from every bit of it! And that is here now, for you.

So love those parts of you.

Accept those parts of you.

Give them a hug!

Mmm…

Yes, you’ll do it different next time. It may or may not work out the way you think it should, but you will do it different. And you will gain wisdom from that.

The more you trust that inner knowing from Soul, the more you allow her love to shine on every part of you, oh, the more magical and beautiful your life will become! Until it is just this incredible flow, and you don’t have to struggle with anything, because it just all flows.

And, the more you will learn not to fight the things that seem like they need to be fought, not to fix the things that seem broken, because it is all part of the flow.

It is all taking you along this beautiful path of creation and discovery, hand in hand with your soul. Oh, much more than hand in hand. Blended together with Soul!

Can you trust that? Can you let that happen? Can you let that unfold in your life?

Can you trust this river?

It’s such a beautiful, warm river. Oh, it’s wild and crazy in places, but it still carries you safely through. If you let it. Can you trust it enough to let it?

Can you trust it enough to stop trying to stay alive?

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Ahh…

That’s such a big one for the human!

The human is programmed, at so many levels, to stay alive at all costs. And now it is time to let go of that, because it’s based on a lie. It’s based on the lie that you can actually die.

There is no death. There is, at times, the dissolution of the body, so that you can start over and have some new experiences. But you don’t die. And this time around it’s different, if you let it be.

Right now, it’s a transformation. Your body is changing. Parts of it have to die, as parts of it are, at the same time, being born again.

Mmm…

Oh, the followers of Yeshua, when he talked about being born again, most of them had no idea what he was talking about. They made up all these strange things that Christians talk about.

What he talked about was actually far more real than anything they’ve ever imagined. This ability to allow your body to die and be rebirthed, not from a mother, from a woman, but from your own energies. To be rebirthed in a new way.

That’s what John was dreaming about last night. His mind couldn’t conceive of it, so it imagined it as some kind of device. In truth it is simply the rebirth, into a new kind of body. A body that is fluid and flexible, with all the energy it needs, and can come and go at will.

That’s what it means to be born again. And that is what is happening in your body, in your biology, right now.

It’s taking time, because oh, there are so many beliefs, so many habits of thought, that shape your reality. And we are having to break those down a little at a time, because you don’t let go of them easily.

And that’s by design. That’s how you created it, because it was the only way to stay here on Earth.

But now it is time to gently, gradually, let those things go. To let those beliefs go.

Mmm…

You look at the table in front of you, and it looks hard and rigid. You touch it with your hand and it’s very solid, and that is because that’s how you believe it to be. It’s how you are used to thinking of it, and so that’s what it is.

It’s very difficult to let go of those beliefs, but that’s what we are doing right now. It is exactly what we are doing.

A time will come when you can touch the table and put your fingers right through it, if you choose, or you can touch it and allow it to be solid. It’s going to take a little bit to get there, but that’s what you are doing.

That’s why your body is confused right now, because the very nature and structure of its reality is changing. Everything it thought was real is changing and transforming.

So, your job right now is to simply let it happen.

You cannot change those things from the human perspective, but you can allow them to change.

Hmm…

The human gets scared when Soul tries to bring in some new ideas, some new ways of seeing things. The human gets scared, and it grabs on and tries to hold on to those old beliefs.

So your soul backs off a little bit, and waits—it’s very patient!—until the time comes that you the human say, “Okay, I can’t stand the way it is anymore, so I am going to allow some change even though that’s scary,” and you let it happen.

And as you do, more and more you are going to see how beautiful the change is, and you are going to let in more and more.

Hmm…

Until at some point you realize that you are not a human walking on the earth anymore, and you are something much grander, much more fluid.

Then you can have whatever kind of experience you want to have, and not be stuck in it. Because, you see, your divinity is here now.

You the human, and you the divine, are blended back together, right now.

This is not something in the future. This is something you have done this year, in 2023.

[Note: the year that came out of my mouth was 2025, but we were talking about this year, 2023. —John]

It is done!

You are still walking through the experience of what that means, through the process of discovering what that means, but it is done!

So now, as you go into the new year, go into it as the Master.

Hmm…

Oh, your human is still going to feel confused about what that means, and that’s okay. Do it anyway!

Simply walk into the new year knowing that you are the Divine Master now. You are home.

Your divinity is here, now, blended together with you.

Oh, you the human, you’ll forget. And that’s okay. That’s part of being human. But you will come back very quickly. You will remember.

You’ll come back to this divinity, to this home right here inside of you in this now moment, whenever that happens to be. You will come back, and you will feel the incredible love of your own soul.

Mmm…

A love that you taught it, and that is so expanded and so available now for you.

Mmm…

Many of you are longing for relationships, or struggling with relationships.

Come now to your soul, and allow that to be your primary relationship.

It doesn’t mean you have to send anybody away, unless the knowing comes that you do.

But when you make your relationship with Divinity your primary relationship, you will discover the relationship that you have always been longing for.

Let it in.

And then, if you choose it, you will find yourself able to be in a human relationship in a whole new way. And then, if you choose, you will attract new relationships into your life, or maybe even old ones that are transformed. That’s up to you and your soul.

But come home, now.

Come to this relationship, the one you have spent so many eons of time searching for, longing for, looking for outside of you in others, and never, ever finding it there.

It’s right here. It’s inside of you.

Hmm…

And as John can tell you, when you find that, it just might open the door to a relationship with someone else that will amaze you, as it continues to amaze John in his relationship with Romana.

But first, he had to come into that relationship with me.

That doesn’t mean he has to get it perfect, or that he has to always be thinking about me, or any of that. But he had to let me in. He had to recognize that I was the one he was actually looking for, for so long.

Mmm…

And then we could let in this other person and have this celebration of life.

Oh, we are still working on the blending.

No, that’s not the right way to say it. We are still allowing the blending.

We are allowing the confusion, and yes, the pain in the body. Because the body is transforming and we are allowing that to happen.

Things pop up sometimes.

Ha! We might have to go to the dentist in a couple of days! We’ll see.

But allow it to happen.

Trust the knowing.

Trust what you know to do in each moment.

Not what you think you should do, but trust what comes from the still small voice deep inside of you that simply knows.

Oh, it’s not even a voice, usually. It’s just a knowing. Your mind translates it into a voice like, “Do this! Look over there!” but you feel it deep inside of you.

That is your divinity!

And IT IS HERE NOW for each one of you, each one of you hearing this message, for each one of you who was attracted to the name of this class enough to sign up.

I Am Divinity, and so you are.

Trust that!

It’s not something off in the future. It’s not something that is going to happen sometime in the future. It is here, now!

It has been here at least since March of this year.

It’s here!

Now it’s just the blending, the experience of the blending, that you are feeling.

You can’t get it wrong!

It’s a done deal, so trust it.

Let it happen.

Mmm…

And as you go forward into this new year, allow the blending to continue.

It’s not something that needs to get done, it’s just what is happening.

It’s not something you need to do, it’s just something to allow.

It IS happening!

And you are going to discover more and more of your divinity, your own divinity, as you move into this new year.

Hmm…

Welcome home!

Allow yourself to be home.

Allow yourself to feel what that means.

Allow yourself to feel that warm cozy place within your own beingness.

Allow yourself to snuggle up with your own soul, your own divinity.

Oh, you are ONE now, but you can still play the game of being two, or ten, or however many you like!

And you can allow yourself to feel yourself as two, and snuggle up together!

Can you allow that?

Allow yourself to imagine that.

As you allow the imagination, you will begin to feel it more and more.

Mmm…

Trust your body. Your soul is in charge of your body now, not the mind. Allow your soul to take care of it.

Trust the knowing of when and how to nurture yourself.

Instead of trying to fix yourself, which comes from the mind, just nurture yourself. Do what feels comforting for your body, and trust it.

Trust your own divinity to take care of it in a new way.

Ahh…

Welcome home!

As you come to the end of your year and celebrate your holidays, remember to be home.

Wherever you happen to be, whoever you are with, be home within yourself. And carry that home with you into the New Year.

And we will see you again then.

Hmm…

John can’t quite remember what our next date is, but it’s two weeks from today.

So Merry Christmas, or Hanukkah, or whatever you celebrate, and Happy New Year!

And welcome home dear master, dear human-divine!

Mmm…

And so it is.

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Chris:Thank you so much John, that was huge. Wow! Yeah.

Silvia: Thank you.

Monika: Thank you Master John, it knocked me out and my mobile was totally overheated the first time!

John: Ahh…

Monika: Thank you for this grand Christmas gift!

Chris: Yeah, thank you. I don’t have too many words for that. I felt that as soon as you opened your mouth, as soon as Master Anna came in, my whole energy just went radiating! It was actually really difficult to listen to the words because the energy was so clear in the presence of me, of everyone. Wow. Outstanding. Thank you so much John.

John: Thank you to each of you for being here, for being part of it and helping to bring it in.

Mmm…

I believe our next session, two weeks from now, is in the New Year. Is it not?

Chris: It should be the third.

John: The third, yeah. Whenever it is!

So, happy holidays, happy New Year!

I’ve been feeling, she’s been like showing me, I want to say talking to me but it’s not the right words, just showing me for the last day or two this thing of… Well, actually it was this morning. I woke up thinking, “I need to look up the numbers. What do they mean? Because oh yeah, this is a seven year. The next one is an eight year. And a nine year. Hmm…”

Chris: Yeah, it’s a nice touch.

John: Yeah, whatever. It only means what we make it mean but, yeah…

Chris: All right, thank you everyone!

Thank you again John!

Participants: [lots of overlapping chatter, goodbyes and holiday wishes]

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