I Am Divinity

Session 7

Channeled by John McCurdy during a live Zoom session on 3 January 2024

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into what is being said.

Thank you to Chris Vandermeer for managing Zoom during the session, and for helping to prepare this transcript.

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John: Okay, so let’s get started. Go ahead and play the music, Chris.

[Music plays]

Master Anna: I am that I am!

Master Anna, of Sovereign Domain.

Mmm…

Because, I Am Divinity!

Ahh…

Welcome, dear ones, and Happy New Year!

Welcome to this beautiful New Year!

Oh, the human might not think it’s so beautiful yet. Some humans are feeling how beautiful it is, and some are struggling with it a little bit.

So, let’s start with you. How are you feeling, going into this brand new year?

Silvia?

Silvia: Right now I feel nervous. My human is nervous. It’s kind of excited to be here, and at the same time it’s like feeling a lot of emotions, a lot of feelings. And she’s impatient. She wants the changes to be done, because she doesn’t want to go back to last year. Ha! Not that old.

She couldn’t concentrate, doing her normal daily activities at work. She doesn’t want to do it anymore. Nope, no more payments, no more bills, no more… Ha! She just wants to enjoy, and she’s been doing that this couple of weeks.

She’s been enjoying family, holidays, food, and she’s been having a little bit of ache on tooth, infection, and she’s just calm. And she just wants to be like that. That’s why she’s nervous, because she knows that a lot has been changing.

A lot has been happening, but she doesn’t know what it is, and so she’s been looking on the phone. She’s looking on the TikTok, seeing the changes around the world. She’s just impatient. She wants the change to be here right now.

Master Anna: Yes.

Mmm…

Indeed, it sounds a lot like John’s experience lately.

Ahh…

Who else?

Monika?

Unmute.

Monika: [laughing] I have learned something over New Year: that I have to unmute, on all levels!

[more laughter]

That’s why I was waking up two days ago and in me was, “I Am Grand!” And yeah, I’m feeling pulled inside, shy to see people. I don’t want to see people. I would like to be alone.

I had a client this morning. I didn’t like it, really. I feel strange in the work, different than before Christmas.

On a human level a lot of changes are going on, things I don’t want anymore in my life, certain relationships I don’t want anymore, certain situations I don’t want anymore. It’s just not fitting anymore to me. It’s like a dress which is not fitting anymore.

And inherently I feel vibration today, and since lunchtime, totally tired. I could fall asleep immediately! And I created also an inflammation again in my mouth, and I had an inflammation on my right eye.

So I had a kind of a reason to be still, but I’m looking forward that I can take my time without creating inflammations, that can be still.

Here I am, and joyful to be here!

Master Anna: And thank you for being here!

Romana?

You’ll have to unmute yourself.

Romana: I’m also very joyful to be here! I feel so much joy overwhelming my body, sitting here!

It’s a very special place to be among you in this very sacred space. And for me, it’s also that I can relate to what Monika said. I’m feeling so almost… Communicating with some people is almost painful for my body, and I’m realizing how—I mean, that’s kind of a deep realization for me—how many times in my life I was communicating with people that I didn’t necessarily even notice that I don’t have anything in common with them, or that we don’t resonate. And how many things I did because some kind of feeling of pleasing, or feeling that otherwise—kind of trying to fit into certain realities.

And now my whole body, my whole system, is just totally not putting up with any of that. It’s just like when my human tries it’s just like, whew! It’s almost like this coat I’m throwing off of me. And yeah, sometimes it’s really unpleasant, because I need to kind of move away from some friends that I don’t even want to spend time with them anymore. And part of me is just like, “Oh, but I will… I don’t want to hurt anybody or…” You know, things like that. But my whole beingness just cannot stand some things anymore, of people.

On the other hand, I’m feeling so much love in my heart lately. Not all the time, to be clear. Sometimes I feel this love as a lot of love comes in my heart and my soul comes in me, and the next thing is feeling lots of fear or other things. But it’s more and more that I’m feeling so much love in me, and I just hope this will be more and more the reality.

Thank you.

Master Anna: Thank you!

Chris:I’m the same as Romana. I created this situation with a friend of mine where I was helping her with something that, quite frankly, she didn’t need help with. She had money to pay, to buy, to get a site built, and I bought into her poverty consciousness and I said I would assist her, and it just turned into this technical nightmare of her not listening to me, when I know what I’m doing and she doesn’t.

And I had the same thing as what you’re talking about, Romana. Something in me just went, “No!” And it was just slapping against me, “You can’t be in that energy anymore!” Like the imbalances and the misunderstandings. There was something in me that was just erupting, like, I can’t treat myself like that. I can’t be putting myself in those situations long term, you know, it’s almost like being back in Mass Consciousness.

And so yeah, I was feeling really high levels of anxiety and my anger was coming up, more fear of conflict,  and just feeling really drained because I wanted to be working with Master Anna, doing videos and my own stuff as well.

So that was something… That was just an aspect integration, I guess. It was people pleasing.

Yeah, it was people pleasing and not having firm boundaries, I guess, or maybe a little bit of avoidance because I’m supposed to be writing. It would be appropriate for me to be writing now and sharing a little bit, you know, but it’s easier just to go back to the old way of working. I think there was a little bit of that! [laughing]

Yeah, but everything else is lovely. The integration is super intense, like the Light hitting my body is just wild. And I’m still spending a fair bit of time just laying down in bed and letting it all happen, and flowing with that.

And on the grandness, I mean, yeah, wow. Some of the feelings that are returning in terms of just being this grand, majestic being, you know, as God created us, like not above anyone, not below anyone, just with myself and so content and just having this beauty flowing through me. Yeah, that’s the other side of the anxiety, which is lovely and I’m not complaining about that one bit. That can stay. [laughing]

Thank you.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Mmm…

Ahh…

What an amazing time that we are going through!

And even that is such a human way of saying it. But here we are, each one of us, soul and human together.

Mmm…

So, let’s, ahh…

Open your senses.

Open your imagination, your feelings, to this moment…

We’ve been talking about it. The human thinks it’s in the past, but Soul knows it’s right here.

Everything you see as past or future or present, or whatever, is all inside of this moment where each one of us asked the question, Who am I? And each one of us sent a part of our self deep within, to find out.

It seemed like it was going out. Well, from the human perspective, that’s how it seems. But it was actually deep, deep within, into our own imagination.

Mmm…

And we created so many adventures. We created this Mass Consciousness, this connection with other beings, so that we could play together and have some shared experiences.

We created this experience of forgetting our divinity, of forgetting our soul, of forgetting our grandness.

Hmm…

And now here we are, full circle, on the other side of this moment.

It’s still the same moment, we’re just looking at it from a different perspective now.

Mmm…

So, feel.

Feel this divinity.

Call it divinity, call it soul or whatever you want, but feel it.

Look through its eyes, now, at this dear, precious human, who is standing before it once again.

Oh, this human doesn’t look anything like it did when it left, when it began this journey. It has so much experience!

Oh, it’s worn down in many ways, and yet it is so full of beauty and joy!

It’s excited to be standing here, in front of you, right now!

Feel that!

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Be the divinity, the soul, that you are.

Look through Soul’s eyes at this human.

Mmm…

Notice the love that you feel.

See the gifts that it brings.

Feel the gratitude that you feel.

Feel this golden nectar of wisdom that you have distilled from his or her experiences.

Or his AND her experiences, because you’ve been both.

So many lifetimes on Earth. So many incarnations. So many experiences in what you call the ‘other realms.’

Still all inside of you, inside of your own energies.

Mmm…

So feel this precious human of yours, standing before you now.

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Feel the joy of this reunion.

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And feel, also, the fear. The fear of this human.

Mmm…

This human forgot who it was.

It forgot you.

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And that was by design.

It wasn’t its fault, but it didn’t know that until very, very recently.

It didn’t know why it was going through these experiences.

It felt lost and alone, so often.

It felt responsible for these experiences, and it felt like it failed so many times.

So dear Soul, feel…

Feel the fear of this human as it stands before you.

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Feel how much it wants to come home.

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But notice how, so often, it feels like it’s getting even that wrong.

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It knows everything is different now, and it knows, on one level, that it is home, and that it has already reunited with you, dear Soul.

And at another level, it is still struggling with this human life.

Mmm…

At another time it would have just come home. It would have left the human reality, the human mass-consciousness, and just come home. But this time is different.

This time the human is inviting you, dear Soul, to come and join it.

Mmm…

To share this beautiful adventure together and to feel what it’s like to actually be human.

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But feel the fear in that, also.

The fear of getting it wrong, yet again.

The fear of Soul being somehow damaged, or hurt.

The human is terrified of that, even though in its mind it knows it can’t happen.

So dear Soul, feel this precious human as it comes closer.

Open your arms to it.

Hmm…

Feel its fear and its frustration and its confusion, because it is still a human and it has to deal with all these human issues, and with all these other humans who don’t have any idea what’s happening.

Mmm…

Open your arms, dear Soul.

Welcome this human facet of you.

Welcome it home.

Talk to it.

Hold it tight, and talk to it about how much you love it.

About how it can relax now.

Mmm…

It’s not so easy for the human.

It’s so used to feeling responsible for earning enough money, for taking care of its body, or all these other things.

For keeping the love of other people. Who, for the most part, don’t really care that much.

Mmm…

Help this dear human to feel your love.

To feel how it can relax, because you are here now.

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Help it to see its life through your eyes.

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Help it to see the flow of life, of divinity.

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Allow your human to gradually blend back together with you.

Allow your consciousness, your awarenesses, to blend together. To merge.

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And dear human, let this happen.

Let your soul hold you.

Let your soul show you the new life.

And indeed, so many things your life are seemingly not working, because they are changing.

Because indeed, with Soul here, you cannot tolerate all the nonsense of the others. You cannot tolerate the broken boundaries, or the simple foolishness of those who are still asleep, or half asleep.

You simply cannot tolerate that anymore, and so these people are fading out of your life.

Mmm…

And you are having to set up boundaries, clear boundaries, and enforce those boundaries.

Mmm…

You might have to break agreements.

One of the most difficult lessons that John and I had to learn over the years, was that sometimes you simply have to break agreements, and to tell people, “I’m sorry, but I just can’t do that.”

Oh, but that brings up shame.

How can you approach your own Soul when you have broken agreements with people?

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You have to understand that the only agreement that actually matters is the one with your soul. The one that simply says, “I love you, no matter what!”

Everything else was just in your own imagination, anyway.

And the person on the other side, whatever it is they create around this, is just in their imagination.

It is all an illusion.

There are no true broken agreements, because it was all, it is all, inside of you. Every bit of it.

Mmm…

Indeed, the greatest love that you can show to another being is to to be yourself.

To be true to you.

To love yourself enough to put that first. Right now! Not tomorrow, not a week from now, not whenever you finish whatever it is you agreed to do.

Right now, what is loving to you?

What is respectful to you, right now?

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Because if you hold back from being you, from loving and nurturing yourself, until something else falls into place, well, it’s never going to happen.

You will find yourself continuing to hold back, still waiting and waiting and waiting for life to make space for you to be you. And that is not how it works.

You be you, and life will make space for you.

Mmm…

Oh, what a beautiful time!

Yes, things are different this year. So very different!

They are different because you have you.

You are home. Human and divine, blended together.

Hmm…

It’s confusing for the human, because it changes everything. And the human awareness is still limited, because that is the nature of being human. But as you blend together, as you allow this blending to happen, as you open to it and trust it and allow yourself to look through your soul’s eyes…

And dear Soul, allow yourself to look through your human’s eyes and to feel what they’re going through, to see what they see, to understand what they need.

As you go forward it’s going to smooth out, for you.

The rest of the world is going to continue to go crazy for a time, because this is happening for them too, and they are not quite ready for it yet. But you are, so let it happen for you, and that will be a light for the others.

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Mmm…

Give yourself space.

Especially now, in the early times of this year, don’t push yourself to be with people you don’t feel like being with. Take space for yourself, and don’t be ashamed of that.

Nurture yourself, whatever that means to you.

Mmm…

Huge, huge transformations are happening right now, inside of you. Many of them are beyond the awareness of the human. The human looks around and says, “It all looks pretty much the same right now, and oh, why aren’t these things working out?”

Be patient, they will work out.

There are many factors involved, many, indeed, other beings involved, other people. And as the human, you can’t see all of those different factors that are going into what’s happening with you.

You might feel embarrassed because you’re not meeting somebody’s expectations, and it might be because soul knows—because their soul has asked to be pushed, to be prodded, toward their own realization.

The human doesn’t like that very much, being in that position, but can you trust it? Can you allow it to happen?

Hmm…

You are such bright lights, already!

There is nothing you need to do but nurture yourself and trust yourself.

Take space where you need it.

Don’t be afraid to let other people down. Because sometimes that’s the greatest gift you can give them, if it’s coming from you, from being true to you.

Some part of them is watching, because they want to see someone who is able to do that. Because they are not so good at doing it themselves.

So, be you.

Give yourself that gift of being true to you, no matter what. No matter what anyone thinks. No matter what anyone feels, because that is about them. And as they feel themselves, they will begin to feel more of themselves.

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You might feel like you are losing their love. But you have your own love now, and if the love of another depends upon you giving up of yourself, then it is not love. So let it go.

Hmm…

You are divinity, right now.

Not at some point in the future, but right now. You are here. You are home. You are blended.

The human part of you isn’t always aware of that, because that is the nature of being human. But you can feel it now, and you can come back to that knowing.

That is what this year is going to be about for you.

That is what we are going to be talking about as we go forward.

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You are divinity.

Say it to yourself right now: I am divinity.

Say it to yourself often: I AM divinity.

No matter what anything looks like around you, no matter what the world looks like, no matter what your own human life looks like, say it often. Claim it as yours: I AM DIVINITY!

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As you go through this year, as you claim it, as you own it, it is going to become more and more and more real for you. You are going to see it unfolding in your life in ways you can’t even imagine right now.

Allow the discovery of that unfolding.

Don’t worry.

The human looks around at all the things it can’t figure out how to deal with in its life, and I ask you, when you see those things, come back to: I am divinity. I AM home with my soul, with my divine essence. And I don’t have to figure anything out anymore as the human, because divinity is here and it is me. I just have to allow the discovery.

Ahh…

What you discover is not likely to be what you expect, so allow that.

It’s going to be far better.

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Welcome home.

Welcome to the year of mastery.

Hmm…

Welcome to the year of discovering divinity in your life.

Oh, it’s here! And now it’s just a matter of discovering what that means.

Ahh…

And here is another little perspective shift for you: You think of divinity and you think of your soul. Well, what do you suppose your soul thinks of when it thinks of divinity?

Oh, your soul doesn’t really ‘think’ as the human does, but let’s just imagine for a moment.

What does your soul long for, most of all?

It longs for the return of this dear human, this precious experiencer part of itself.

Oh, your soul has also felt the separation, all this time.

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You are divinity.

You the human, from your soul’s perspective, and you, dear soul, from your human’s perspective, you are divinity!

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Allow the reunion.

And allow the discovery of what that means.

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Ahh…

Enjoy this new year, dear friends!

We will see you again in two weeks.

And so it is.

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