I Am Divinity

Session 8

Channeled by John McCurdy during a live Zoom session on 17 January 2024

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into what is being said.

Thank you to Chris Vandermeer for managing Zoom during the session, and for helping to prepare this transcript.

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John: So let’s go ahead and get started. I have a feeling this is going to be an interesting session, so play the music Chris, and let’s see where we go.

Chris: All right, off we go.

[Music plays]

Master Anna: I am that I am!

Master Anna, of Magical Service.

Ahh…

Indeed, we’ve been having to keep John a little bit still for the last few days, to let in the energy for this message. And as usual, he’s afraid he won’t be able to let it through! But we’ll do just fine.

Hmm…

Greetings everyone!

It’s so wonderful to see you here, each of you who are here with us on Zoom, and each of you who will be joining us through the recordings and the transcript later.

Chris, let’s get started with that question that was sent in, because it’s kind of the perfect starting place for today.

Chris: Lovely, okay:

“Hello Master Anna,

“First of all, greetings to everyone here!

“I have a question about gravity. Adamus has recently spoken about gravity and that gravity is the main reason why many Shaumbra have problems letting go of old issues for good. Shouldn’t it be that the amount of “new light” already established since Heavens Cross should support overcoming gravity?

“My personal experience is that some of the old habits and patterns are still holding in place and even as I deepen my relationship with my soul over time not much seems to have changed in terms of some patterns.

“I think this is also an effect of the existing gravity….in a channel a few months ago you said that with growing consciousness the old patterns gradually dissolve. But at least from my human perspective, not much seems to have happened.

“Thank you for your insights on this topic Master Anna.”

Master Anna: Ahh…

So, let’s get right to the heart of it. And I want you to hear us clearly on this:

Gravity is not something that can be overcome.

It simply isn’t. You can work with it, you can battle with it, but eventually it always wins.

Just ask any rocket scientist. They spend huge amounts of resources and fuel to get a small device into space, and eventually it all comes back down to the ground. Because gravity is not something that can be overcome.

And patterns. Indeed, they are a form of gravity, and they cannot be overcome either. It simply won’t work.

You can battle with them, you can change them, but they are still going to be there. Maybe in a different form, but they will still be there. Because they cannot be overcome. They are gravity.

Gravity is, well, you call it a law of your physical universe.

Now, it is possible—the words are challenging here, but it is possible to go beyond gravity and patterns.

But before we get into that, let’s talk a little bit about how the gravity has been in your life lately.

For John, it has been intense! After the Crimson Circle shoud he was like, “Wow, I get it about gravity. It feels—I feel—so heavy!” And we know some of you have been feeling that way too, so let’s talk a little bit. How has the gravity been for you in the last couple of weeks?

Silvia.

Silvia: The gravity for the human is going to be the same. However, this human has been manifesting her dreams. One after another one.

She was wishing for a car, and she got two. Last week she wants to keep her mind busy, and she had the experience of canning food, just for preparedness, in case of shortages and chaos around in the world. She wants to be prepared for her family.

Everything was smooth, and the experience was wonderful. She just enjoys it. She just enjoys life! And that’s what we need to do: Enjoy life, and everything else will arrive.

She’s starting—this week, before she finished the other project, she started another project. She wants to build her basement, and she’s working on the design.

So every desire that she has, she is manifesting it! I will say gravity is working for her! But she’s not fighting it. She enjoys…

Master Anna:She’s moving beyond it.

Silvia: Flowing it. She is okay.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Who else?

Chris:Personally, I don’t feel—I mean, I’m still very slow a lot of the time, but if we’re to talk about patterns, I don’t feel that there is a tremendous amount of gravity at all. I feel like I’m moving through spaces as fast as my body and my system can handle it.

I don’t feel… Nothing feels stuck to me, at all, and I’m acutely aware of when I’m going through a challenging situation, once I’ve seen it all and once I’ve brought awareness to it all, there’s nothing to fight. I will just release it and allow other potentials to come through.

I don’t feel, in that regard, that gravity is really affecting me like it used to. I just put one foot in front of the other and I watch things shift, you know, and I can feel when my timelines are about to rearrange and potentials are going to come through.

I didn’t listen to the shoud though, so I don’t have details on what he was talking about.

Master Anna: But you already know.

Chris: Perhaps (laughing), perhaps. The heaviness inside is—that’s okay, that’s all just part of the rebirth process, I think. Yeah.

Master Anna: Anybody else?

Monika?

Monika: I’m not experiencing my challenges with such ease and grace like Chris. [laughter] For me, it’s a bit more… I can feel my soul says, “All is well.” And the human says, “Not everything is well!” [laughter]

There is still… It’s probably ‘accepting what is’ is still a challenge for the human.

It started the day after the last session with you, that it came to the surface that I have to give up the project.

Master Anna: Mmm…

Monika: All is well.

The human is crying, and says, “Yeah, but I have put all my passion in it and it seems to crumble away,” and it feels very existential for the human. And with a part I know it’s all well. It’s making space for my divinity.

It’s just something else wants to come to the surface more, but the human is still falling in the old gravity, in old patterns. Feeling sad, feeling depressed. A part wants to play the victim still, that this is happening, and doesn’t want to see the bigger picture.

Yeah, I can see it all at the moment, and it seems like a big part is crumbling away.

Master Anna: Indeed.

Monika: Thank you.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Romana:For me, it’s like a little bit of both. I feel like, partly, things are opening for me that that I had envisioned, but kind of are just happening. And sometimes I just get overwhelmed with good things that happen, like finally I feel seen as an author and as a poet, and also kind of more recognized in this land of Slovenia. And it feels good, feels like this is opening, and also some other things are opening.

But sometimes I feel for my body, it’s just so difficult. It just feels like, especially when I don’t have lots of time to just be with myself, with my soul, I just feel like my body is so sensitive that it just kind of… Yeah, that it feels gravity. It’s kind of that part of me is floating, and part of me is just kind of catching up, or something like that.

And also what I notice is that, as Silvia said, gravity is when I kind of get caught in this human perspective, in the mass-consciousness. But when my consciousness expands, then there is no gravity.

It’s just sometimes for me as human, this feels like so many things that… It feels like I don’t have time to truly allow this expansion. But I can feel it’s possible, and more and more manifesting. And I’m feeling my grandness, even though sometimes the circumstances don’t feel grand.

But despite the circumstances, I just feel like this presence, my soul and grandness inside, is just what it is regardless of confirmations from outside that I was previously maybe waiting or searching for. But no, everything is now me.

It’s me who allows it and who cherishes it, and it’s not like I am referring to anything else or anybody else, but just really realizing it’s me. And it’s good. And yeah, it’s kind of that all the gods and divinities and all that I have put outside, is now coming in my space.

So, that’s it.

Master Anna: Thank you!

Mmm…

And, you had a dream the other night that you shared with John, about how you saw him, and if you are willing to share that with the rest of us, it’s so appropriate for everybody here.

Romana: So, I had this—it’s a very short excerpt from the dream.

I saw John, how he was sitting and how he was more and more fading out. Like this balloon that is full of air and somebody starts slowly to let the air out, and this just goes… Like kind of slowly it just goes, and he couldn’t even sit anymore. He was just like going down.

And then I was like, what’s happening? Is he disappearing from this planet? Part of me was having this thought.

And then a knew him appeared in the same place where he was sitting, and this new him was so present, so alive, so real, much more than this balloon that felt like it was still full of this ancestral sadness and worries and all that.

So yeah, that was the dream.

Master Anna: Indeed.

And yes, when you shared that with John he felt it so much. It’s so much what he’s feeling inside, and it is so much what we are all going through right now.

The old, the human stuff that we are used to, is falling away. We are fading out, in a sense, but being…

This is what Yeshua meant when he first talked about being born again two thousand years ago. The Christians made it into something entirely different, but this is what he was talking about.

We are being born again, here on Earth.

Mmm…

So, we invite you to come home. Right now. We’ve been talking about this for several sessions.

Come back to the… We don’t have the right words for it. We want to say “the moment,” and that’s about as close as we can get, but it is so far beyond that.

When you first asked that question, “Who am I?”

Let’s feel back in experience to just before that.

Feel yourself.

Mmm…

At this point there was no gravity. None at all.

There wasn’t anything.

It was just you. Just awareness.

No gravity.

Nothing pushing or pulling anything else.

Just you.

Just your awareness.

Feel that for a moment.

Just float there.

Even that is not the right concept, but it’s what we have.

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Mmm…

You’re floating there.

Ahh…

You exist.

You have no beginning, no end. You just exist.

But you feel something inside you.

Again, not the right words, but it’s what we have.

You asked yourself, Who am I?

And suddenly, there was gravity.

A question.

A question needs an answer.

Suddenly there was a tension between the question and the answer.

They were both there, and a part of you went to explore the answer.

And it is all right there.

You are still in that moment.

This answer, and the question, are all contained inside of you. But in the experience there is this tension, and this gravity. And you dove into that experience.

It was a grand experience!

So many different things you’ve experienced, and for a time it seemed that you got lost in the gravity. It sucked you in. It weighed you down, and you felt like you couldn’t get out of it.

Mmm…

But now, here you are.

Now, come back to this moment.

Oh, it’s the same moment. But you are on the other side of that experience, and there is no gravity.

It’s just you. And all of this…

John is seeing it a little bit like a ball, a ball of experience, and holding it in his hand. A beautiful ball of experience. So many experiences!

Mmm…

Part of you is still walking around inside that ball, exploring those experiences, and that part of you feels gravity.

And part of you is out here looking at the ball, and there is no gravity at all. It’s just a lot of experience. There is nothing pulling on you, nothing that needs to happen or to change.

You see the beauty of who you are.

And oh, you see the patterns. And how beautiful they are!

The human goes, “Well, I like those patterns over there, but I don’t like these over here so much. How do I change them?”

Hmm…

But from this other perspective, they are all so beautiful! So exquisite! They are all part of who you are, part of the answer to that question.

And now, you have brought it all back together.

Hmm…

Here you are, looking at this ball of experience. Absorbing it back into yourself.

And suddenly, there is no more gravity.

It’s just you.

Mmm…

The human goes, “But why do I feel so heavy then?”

Well, the human is still walking around in that ball of experience and saying to itself, “I really want to know what it feels like to be here without gravity!”

Mmm…

Ah, the human words still don’t work the way we would like, or convey everything we wish we could say, but feel it. Feel it!

You cannot overcome gravity, because it is part of the experience.

You cannot overcome patterns, because they are gravity. They are part of the experience, and the act of overcoming something is itself gravity. Dense, deep gravity.

Hmm…

John and I listened to the Crimson Circle shoud, to Adamus, the other day. It was a really good discussion about gravity and how it affects people. Then Adamus did his bit of drama and talked about how he’d been talking with the other masters about, “How can we get through to them? How can we say this?”

And John was getting all excited. What new insight is Adamus going to have?

Then he came to the big reveal: Music.

Music.

And John went, “Adamus, really?”

But he knew there was something to it, and over the next few days I’ve been showing him how there is something to it. Because, just like that question was the beginning of gravity, so it is that the mind is what perpetuates the gravity.

You could say that the mind is what generates the gravity. You see a pattern in your life and you want to drive it away, and that only sucks it in closer, bigger.

But indeed, music. Especially, well, any music that makes you feel lighter.

It makes you feel lighter because it stops your mind. It gets you out of your mind. It carries you away, in a sense, into the melodies. It stops all that chatter in your mind about how to fix your problems, which only ever makes the problems worse. Oh, it seems to fix some of them, but it brings in others. It never does actually solve them.

So indeed, music can help to stop the mind. But we wanted to also show you this other alternative to go with it.

Mmm…

Come back.

Come back home, to this home we’ve been talking about. You and your soul together, blending together.

In this moment outside of your grand experience, of your grand question and answer, there is no gravity here. There are no patterns here.

When you look from here into that beautiful ball of experience, you see that even those patterns you have so despised in yourself are so beautiful.

And then they can release.

In that place of self-love, of self-appreciation just the way you are, those patterns can begin to transform into wisdom.

Oh, you might not see them leave your life immediately, but can you be okay with that?

Can you see their beauty and just let them be?

That is how you go beyond gravity.

You don’t overcome it, you allow it.

You love it.

You accept it.

Not like a victim, not like giving in to it.

You shift your perspective, and you look for the beauty in it. You look for the wisdom that is coming from it. There is so much!

And the human has a little bit of trouble with that, because its job has always been to look around at the immediate life and go, “How do I fix this? How do I get where I think I need to go? How do I pay my bills? How do I fix my body?” and all these things. And those just keep you in the gravity.

Instead, from this place you can see that human identity that is fading away.

Oh, that creates a lot of confusion in the human life at times. But it has to fade away, in order that the real you can come forth and shine out.

Mmm…

In the past, you’ve done that by dropping the body. But then you came right back into another body, because of gravity. Now we are doing it different. Now, in this acceptance, you can be outside of the gravity and in it at the same time, and it is a whole different experience.

Our words are still not perfect, so don’t take them too literally. Feel it. Feel into what we are trying to say here.

Feel yourself as the soul who has no gravity. And also as the human who, up until now, has been deeply locked into the gravity.

Now you are blending together.

Hmm…

Now you are hearing the music of your own beingness.

You are in this place where you have no more gravity. And at the same time you have gravity, but you are not bound to it anymore.

Can you feel that?

Can you feel how this is what is playing out in your life?

Oh, some of you are really starting to feel it, really starting to feel what it’s like to live in grace.

The ultimate grace is when you are in this environment of gravity, but you are not bound to it anymore. You are not controlled by it anymore. Where you see the patterns, and you see how incredibly beautiful they all are! And you just let it flow.

Mmm…

This is why we’ve been talking so much about the flow, about being in the flow. About holding yourself in love and appreciation. It has all been helping you come to this place of seeing, through Soul’s eyes, the beauty of these patterns.

Oh, you don’t need to overcome them. And you definitely don’t need to overcome gravity, or anything else.

That’s just another sword, another battle.

Let that word ‘overcome’ leave your vocabulary. It’s a battle word!

Oh, you see these patterns, and some of them you don’t like. Some of them are even painful.

Find the beauty in them.

Ask your soul to show you the beauty in them.

And then you just might find them shifting and transforming.

Mmm…

Don’t have expectations of what that should look like. It’ll be different. Just love them.

And indeed, play some good music. Music that makes you feel lighter.

The other day John was going through some music that he has, putting together a mix that he liked, and he realized that some of the songs he used to like feel heavy now, and others feel light. Enjoy them!

Don’t turn it into a process, or something you ‘should’ do. Just enjoy.

Enjoy life!

That is what you are here for, and that is the way out of gravity.

You can’t fight your way out.

And indeed, the light… The light is so bright now! But even the light doesn’t battle with gravity.

Gravity is the greatest invention you ever had! And the light doesn’t get rid of it. The light just illuminates you, and everything around you. Or, everything within you.

Yes indeed, the light is brighter than ever. But it is not a light that overcomes anything.

It is a light that, you could say, blesses everything. And in that, you have an opportunity to release the gravity. Not by fighting it, not by trying to get rid of it, but by simply allowing it. Simply letting it be.

Mmm…

John thinks we’ve told this story before, but we’re going to tell it again here anyway, because it’s important.

Many years ago, John was becoming aware of himself. He was becoming aware of all these patterns within himself, patterns that he felt were self-defeating, or not the kind of patterns he wanted to have.

Well, some of them felt really big, and he didn’t know what to do about them. Others… He thought, “Well, maybe I can fix that one, and that one over there. Maybe I can do something about those, and maybe by then I’ll know what to do about these others. But I have to just let them be for right now, because I don’t know what to do with them.” And so he went through his life, working hard to overcome some of these patterns that he felt maybe he could overcome.

Well, a few years later he was writing an email in a discussion group, and I whispered in his ear and said, “John, remember those patterns? What happened to those?”

And he looked at that. He felt back to that time where there were all those patterns that he didn’t like about himself, and he suddenly had this incredible realization: “Wow, the patterns that I took on, that I tried so hard to fix, are still here. I’m still working on them. But the patterns that seemed too big, that I didn’t know what to do with, are mostly gone! They are not in my life anymore!”

He realized, in that, that you don’t solve the pattern by trying to fix it, by trying to get rid of it. You solve it by seeing it, and letting it be. By loving yourself. And that is the important thing that John did.

One of the patterns he recognized was how he talked with himself. One day he realized that if he talked to his friends the way he talked to himself, he wouldn’t have any friends anymore. It was too harsh. So he made a choice right then—not to try to destroy that pattern, which usually meant talking worse to himself—but to start appreciating himself.

Whenever he found himself calling himself stupid, or an idiot, or whatever it was, he would say, “Stop! No, I’m okay. I love me!”

And he started turning that around. He started simply loving himself, consciously making an effort, not to battle the bad stuff, but simply to come back to, “I’m okay. I am okay with me, just the way I am.”

And that is when his life really started to change. So many things opened up.

Oh, there are still plenty of challenges, because, well, that gravity is heavy! But more and more we are coming back to this place of looking at the gravity from the outside and going, “Wow, what an incredible, beautiful experience!”

And from here, there is no need to overcome the gravity, or the patterns, or anything else. There is just the beauty.

Mmm…

The more you let that beauty into your awareness, the more you hold yourself in gratitude, the more that beauty manifests in your human life. And the more that real you begins to show up.

Oh, we still have to let that old you go, but it’s only to make room for the real you.

Mmm…

So, let’s let go of the whole concept of overcoming anything. That concept has more gravity in it than almost anything else!

Instead, look through your soul’s eyes and feel your soul’s appreciation for you, and gratitude for you, and love for you, just the way you are!

And then you will start to feel the true nature of gravity, and how it works, and how beautiful it is.

Mmm…

Are there any questions at this point? Or comments, or feelings?

Silvia.

Silvia: Yes, of course I want to comment and share that I, as a human, I had a big realization. A huge realization! This human was placing the love in another person, and then she realized that that person is herself. And that changed everything! Everything!

It’s like a big explosion of love for herself.

Master Anna: Indeed.

Silvia: And then, after that, this week, she is feeling me more. She is more aware of myself. She is loving me. She is distracted, but at the same time had awareness come back to me, and it feels me, and then she plays music and the music… She loves the music, and then she’s like, feeling like flying! Because that is what is considered… The gravity is not working on herself. But music and loving herself is big, big, big realization in her life!

And thank you, Master Anna and everyone here, because you are part of this. Every week, every week, every two weeks. She is realizing that she is grand. She is accepting herself as a human.

Sometimes she doesn’t know what to do with the things around her, but it doesn’t matter anymore for her. She’s just enjoying life. We’re getting there.

Master Anna: Yeah, you are there! It’s just getting more and more in your awareness.

Silvia:That’s right. I just want to share that with you, because it’s a big, big, huge realization for her!

Master Anna: Indeed. Thank you!

Hmm…

[pause to see if anyone else wants to speak]

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Welcome home, dear friends!

Welcome home to where there is no gravity. And, there is beautiful, beautiful gravity! Beautiful patterns!

Even when they seem ugly, there has to be contrast to have beauty.

Ahh…

We think we’ve shared enough words about this.

We ask you, over the next couple of weeks, to feel. Feel the beauty of the gravity.

As has been said by others and by us, the only way out of something you don’t like is to go into it. To breathe it in.

When you feel the gravity, just take a breath and breathe it in.

Ask your soul to show you the incredible beauty of it, and then let the impressions come. Let the feelings come.

Yes, sometimes it hurts. But there is beauty even in that. And when you let that in, everything begins to change.

Ahh…

So, over the next two weeks, feel into what we’ve been talking about. Feel into this gravity, and into this place of no gravity.

You are already there.

All you have to do is let yourself feel it.

Mmm…

And so it is.

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Chris:Thank you Master Anna, thank you John, and to everyone.

John: Ah, thank you all!

Chris: I’m going to go for a walk and see if I can levitate. That was the message, right? [laughter]

Silvia: Don’t forget the music.

Chris: Ah, yes, yes. I’ll chuck on some Bach or something like that.

Monika: Thank you very much, Master Anna and Master John.

John: Thank you all for being here!

Silvia: Indeed, this was a really big, huge session! Thank you, John. Thank you.

John: Thank you, and you’re welcome!

Okay, well, I’m certainly out of words at the moment, so have a great couple of weeks!

Goodbye’s from everyone.

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