Living As Soul: Understanding the True Nature of Reality and Creating

3. Simple Awareness

Channeled by John McCurdy on February 20, 2022

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible.

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I am that I am!

I am Master John!

Hm, a very limited label, but also a very expansive label.

I am.

I am simply awareness.

Oh, you look around, and you see all these people around you. You hear John’s voice, maybe you’ve even met John or seen his pictures, and it looks like some ‘thing’ is there other than just awareness.

That is the beautiful, wonderful game that you are playing, and that is all it is. It is no more real than the games you play in your computers and across your internet, and it is all happening within your imagination.

Oh, there is a beautiful—the words don’t really work, but we will call it a song. It’s the closest word you have. A song that you sing, a song that every creator being sings, and these songs go out. You hear the songs of the others and they hear the songs of you, and based on those songs you have created this beautiful template, this beautiful game called Mass Consciousness, where you can interact. Where you can touch each other in a way that simply is not possible anywhere else. And now, you and others in this game are developing technology to simulate this incredible game!

Hmm…

What a time this is!

No, what an experience this is! Because time is simply part of the illusion, part of the game. It isn’t real, and neither is space.

Hmm… Let that in. There is no space and there is no time.

So what is there? Just you.

Just you!

That is all that truly exists: YOU.

And what are you? Simple, pure awareness.

Hmm…

Take a moment, dear friend. Feel into this simple awareness.

It doesn’t exist in the future. It doesn’t exist in the past. It simply IS. Right here, right now. And that is who you are: pure awareness.

You look around you, and you are aware of all these things and all these other beings. And because you are aware of them, they exist within your imaginary reality. And that is all it is. An imaginary reality.

Feel into that.

Feel into you, your own essence: pure awareness.

You are not a body. You are not even a light-body! You are not a ‘thing’ of any kind or any shape or any form. Those are all illusions, created within your imagination.

You are simply awareness.

You are simply aware.

Oh, the words are so limited, but you know what we mean. It is who you are, and you can feel it.

Tell the mind to be still for a moment, and just feel it.

Pure awareness.

Oh, your mind thinks there has to be something for you to be aware of.

Well, take a moment and imagine a beautiful scene, a beautiful place.

It could be out in the forest. It could be in a garden or a park. Whatever, it doesn’t matter.

Just imagine a place that feels good to you.

See yourself there.

Feel yourself there.

Smell the flowers.

Hear the birds singing.

Hmm…

Now, does that place exist in your physical reality?

Maybe, maybe not. Maybe you simply imagined it. That’s what we asked you to do, and you felt it. You created it in your mind’s eye, and then you felt it. You became aware of it.

Even as we told the story of it, you became aware of it and you filled it in, in your awareness, with your own details. You imagined the flowers and the birds, the smells, the sunshine, and all the different parts of it. You simply became aware of them, and they don’t exist in your reality. Yet.

So, dear mind, you can step back now. You can take a rest.

Because, you see, you can be aware of things that don’t exist. Or, to be more accurate, that your physical senses can’t perceive yet.

For you see, dear friend, you are a creator. And that is how creation works.

Oh, you thought that the act of creating was somehow about projecting power, that you speak these magic words and the force goes out and manifests your creation into physical reality! That’s how you were told the great creator you call God created Earth and everything on it, but it doesn’t work that way at all.

The way creation works is that you become aware of something, and that something has no choice but to appear in your reality.

Now, your reality is much, much, MUCH bigger than this little physical universe, or this little physical human reality that is a very focused, very limited part of your reality. Because, you see, your imagination is much, much bigger than this little finite, limited, human world!

So, you imagine something. You become aware of something. Oh, that awareness might come as an idea from the song of someone else, or it might simply be your own imagination making it up. It doesn’t matter. It truly does not matter!

And oh, John’s mind is suddenly going, “Well, you say I’m making up everything in my reality. What about that song from that other being? Am I making that up too?” Absolutely!

This is not something the mind is ever going to figure out, so stop trying. There is so much to life, so much to who you are, that simply cannot fit into words or into mental concepts. It simply doesn’t fit! It can’t even be known to the mind, at least not yet. Someday, maybe. And yet, you are so expansive that—well, let’s not get caught up in the mind games, trying to figure it all out. You can’t, dear mind. Let it go. Open up.

Open up to what you feel.

Open up to your simple, pure awareness, because that is all that matters.

Yes, there are those other creators, and you do hear their songs. And, everything in your reality is your own imagination.

This vast, vast universe that you think you live within, is all your imagination. It is all inside of you!

Oh, through this communication network—a very limited metaphor that just barely takes you in the right direction, but it’s the best we have right now­—through this communication network you have created this truly incredible shared reality, but it is still all yours! It is all running in the software within the computer that is your mind.

Oh, it reaches out over the ‘internet,’ that communications network, and shares pictures with others. It shares your song with others, and they share theirs with you, so you perceive similar things. And it allows you to play together and to have this incredible sensual experience.

So, why are we talking about all this? Well, it’s because you have woken up. If you are here, you have woken up.

You see, most humans are sleepwalking. They came here to Earth—ahh, let’s find a better way to say that. Their souls created, imagined, a version of Earth—it looks a lot like yours—and they projected this onto the screen in their mind, in their ‘computer system.’

Hm. John’s mind is having trouble keeping up with us. That’s okay.

So, those people came here, and they stepped onto this Earth. They were born here. They grew up. They go through their life, and for the most part they are sound asleep. They have no idea who they are. They truly think that they are this little human being living on this little planet in the middle of this grand universe, and they don’t even care. They hardly even think about it. All they know is that they have a life to live, they have people to please, they have a job to perform so they have money to eat, and they’re just walking through life sound asleep.

Oh, it makes you feel a little envious when you are awake! You remember when you could just walk through life asleep and you didn’t have all these worries and fears. Oh, you had some, but they were the same ones everybody else had and you knew to just go through your life. And you didn’t have all these questions, and your life kind of just worked.

Hmm…

Now you’ve woken up, and you have realized that you are a grand being! You are not just a little human walking around on Earth. You have a soul! You are a grand magnificent creator being!

Ha! You keep trying to figure out how that works at the same time that you keep trying to live like a sleeping human, and it doesn’t work.

We’ve used the beautiful metaphor of the caterpillar and the butterfly. Most humans are like the caterpillars, crawling along a very linear existence. Crawling along the branch, eating a leaf here and another leaf there, and that is their life. That’s it, and they are happy like that. Until one day they are not.

A sudden crazy urge comes over the caterpillar, and it starts spinning a cocoon around itself. It disappears into this cocoon, or chrysalis, and then it dissolves into goo. Literally. The caterpillar dissolves into a puddle of goo. And then, through some mysterious process, it re-forms into something new and crawls, painfully, out of the cocoon.

And it sits there and looks at itself, and it doesn’t recognize itself. It’s got these big things on its back! It tries to eat the leaf that’s in front of it, and it can’t. Instead of teeth in its mouth, it has as this big long thing that just reaches out and bumps into the leaf. It can’t bite it. It can’t do anything with it.

And then, suddenly, those big things on its back start to flap, and suddenly it’s in the air. At first it panics. What do I do now? What’s keeping me from crashing into those rocks down there?

But the wings know what to do. They don’t need the mind to tell them what to do, they know!

Suddenly the butterfly finds itself landing on this most beautiful thing, this flower. It’s so beautiful! It has this amazing scent to it! And suddenly this long thing comes out of the butterfly’s mouth and reaches down into the flower, and discovers this incredible, sweet nectar. And it drinks the nectar.

Hmm…

So, here you are. You have woken up. Some of you that are hearing or reading this are still in the cocoon. Some of you are just spinning the cocoon, and some of you are in it.

Oh, we forgot to mention that, as humans, you don’t really get the luxury of having a cocoon. You get to dissolve into goo out in the open, in front of everybody, and somehow try to function as a puddle of goo! And then you wonder why everything in your life is falling apart.

Just be with it, because it’s falling apart so that it can re-form into something incredible.

Some of you who are hearing or reading this, have already emerged as the butterfly. You have had your realization, your enlightenment, and you are the equal of any Ascended Master you have ever heard of. And yet you are sitting here, kind of stunned and not quite sure what just happened to you or what to do with this strange thing you find yourself to be.

Others of you have already lifted off, and you are already sampling that incredible nectar.

And all of you, if you are here, will be there, in exactly the right time for you.

Hmm…

So here you are, in various stages of waking up and coming into your enlightenment and your completion, and this is what we mean by the highest level of the game. You have completed all the levels, and here you are. And now you are wondering, how does this work?

Everything has suddenly become so crazy. You feel crazy. Nothing works the way you expect it to, because you still expect it to be like it worked for the caterpillar. It just doesn’t work that way anymore.

So many of you who are going through this process, you find that your mind doesn’t work the way it used to. You find you can’t remember so many things.

John is an American, and he lives in Slovenia now. Oh, he has tried so hard to learn the language, and his mind just won’t take it in. He understands the pronunciation and some of the things about it, but he’ll learn a word and five minutes later it’s just gone out of his mind. It seems like his memory isn’t worth anything anymore!

And yet, he always has what he needs and he always remembers the things that are important, in the moment that they are important. Sometimes he forgets the name of people he knows really well. Ha! He struggles and struggles, and sometimes he has to ask somebody else, “What is their name?” And then it comes back. It’s always there when he actually needs it.

Oh, for so many of you, your bodies don’t work right. They have all these aches and pains. They are weak, they are tired, and you wonder if you are going to die.

Well, at some point you will, in some way or another. But you are not dying right now.

A part of you is. The caterpillar is dying. It is literally dying, or is already dead, depending on where you are at. But you are becoming, or already are, the butterfly!

Hmm…

So, as the butterfly, you are finally able to allow into your awareness the fact that that is what you are: Simple, pure awareness, and everything that you perceive is within your own awareness.

If you were not aware of it, it would not exist. It might exist for someone else, but it would not exist in your reality. It is your imagination, and if you are not aware of it, it will not be there.

You say, “But, you know, I haven’t been to the other side of the world, so I’m not aware of exactly what is there. Does that mean it doesn’t exist?” Well, certainly. For you, it does not exist.

Well, except that it is in your awareness, because you hear about it from others. And in that communication it comes into your awareness, so you are aware of the other side of the world. You are not aware of all the details of it, although these days, with your technology, you are aware of much more of it than you ever have been before. And that brings it into your reality.

But you can also bring entirely different things into your reality than anyone else has. You can literally re-create your world to your own liking. You can create it any way you want it, simply by imagining it. And when you do, it has to be.

You say, “Oh, but I’ve imagined so many things in my life that I wanted, and they’re not here!”

Well, yes, actually, they are. That new home you wanted, the new car you wanted, the lover you wanted, they are all here. Right here, inside of you!

They didn’t manifest into your 3D human reality, because you did not believe in them. You couldn’t see them with your eyes, so you didn’t think they were real. And so they never became real in that way.

But you see, your eyes are the greatest deceivers ever. Your eyes are designed—oh, how to say this?

Your eyes can only perceive what your mind, your human mind, expects them to perceive. And that is all.

Your eyes have no imagination. Your human mind—oh, it plays around with trying to imagine sometimes, but it is mostly a distraction. A mind game, you call it. It doesn’t believe it, so it cannot ever be real. And your eyes will never see it, because your eyes can only perceive what your mind thinks is there. That’s all!

That’s why we are not the first to say that the eyes are the greatest deceivers that have ever existed. They work in conjunction with your mind. They perceive what your mind thinks is there, and that is what you experience as real.

The same thing goes for the senses in your body. These five physical senses are all designed to work with your mind, and to present to you an experience of what your mind thinks is present. Of what your mind thinks is outside of itself.

Now the truth is, your mind knows better, because it is part of the bigger mind that actually helped to create this shared environment that you call Earth. But you see, long ago when you wanted to embody on Earth, when you wanted to have this experience—this illusion—of embodying on Earth, you found you had a hard time staying here. It was so intense that all you had to do was think of Soul, of the rest of you, and you would be back on the other side and out of the body.

So, you gave the mind a very specific job. Besides being the interface, even the projector of reality, you gave it the job of keeping you distracted, of keeping you focused. So you gave this body eyes and senses and tied them all into the mind, and you said, “Dear mind, keep me distracted long enough to have some experiences.” So, your mind took that job on in the greatest of service to you, and that is what it has been doing. And it has become very, very good at it!

Oh, but now you have remembered your soul again. It had to happen sooner or later, for you cannot hide from it forever, no matter how much fun you are having. So here you are.

Ha! You are tempted to curse your mind, because it keeps trying to do its job! It keeps showing you the illusions perceived by your physical senses. But it is just doing its job, and it has served you so well, so don’t curse your mind. Don’t try to get rid of it. Just step back a little and tell your mind that it can rest now.

This human part of your mind, you could almost call it the anti-creator. It thinks it wants something, and now that it is aware of who you are and that you are a creator, the mind goes, “Oh, I’ve longed for so long for a nice car, or a nice house, or a beautiful lover, so maybe if I think about it hard enough it will come in and manifest in this physical reality.”

Well, usually what happens is that you get the opposite. Sometimes, if you really focus hard, you get a little taste of it. An amazing person comes into your life and you have an amazing relationship, for a brief moment. And then it blows up and they are gone. Or the new car gets repossessed.

Because, you see, your mind is the anti-creator, and that is its job.

Hmm… This is a new way of thinking about it, for John.

That was part of your minds job: to literally—okay, we’re taking this a little too far, perhaps—but it is almost like your mind’s job was literally to create the opposite of what you wanted!

Why would you do that?

Well, it kept you focused here in the human environment. It kept you from remembering your soul until it was time, and it created a lot of drama. And drama—oh, drama is a beautiful thing! Drama is experience. Drama is sensuality taken to extreme!

Oh, you’re a little tired of that extreme at this point, and for good reason. You don’t need it anymore. But don’t knock it, because it has served you really, really well. It created some very extreme experiences. Amazing, sensual experiences like you can’t have anywhere else in all of reality!

But here you are, and you don’t need drama anymore. You need to come back to this simple awareness.

There is no drama there. There is simply the observer.

And the cool part is, that you get to observe whatever you can imagine. You are not limited simply to observing what others have imagined. You thought you were limited to that, and you wondered how they could imagine all these crazy things!

Well, all those crazy things are actually in your imagination. Oh, you might have picked it up from them, but it is still yours. It is all yours.

You look out at the world and at all the crazy things going on in it, and it is all inside your imagination. You do not have to imagine those things!

The mind goes, “Oh good, let me push it out and drive it away! Stop imagining that! Stop! Stop!” And it just gets bigger, because that is not how it works. Your mind is the anti-creator.

So, come back to the simple awareness.

Oh, you’ve heard so many teachers these days talking about allowing, and that is the key.

Someone recently asked a question: “I’ve been allowing for so long, but all these situations in my life never resolve! I allow and I allow and nothing gets changed!” Well, that is not allowing. It is absolutely not allowing. It is the opposite of allowing.

You see, allowing is simply being aware.

Allowing in order to bring resolution to something, or in order to fix something or change something, is not allowing. That is power. It is a power game, pure and simple. It is just a power game.

Allowing is stepping back into your own simple, pure awareness. You are aware, nothing more. You are not fixing anything. You are not changing anything. You are not trying to get anything. You are not in the future. You are not in the past. You are simply aware.

That is allowing.

You observe life, your own imagination, as it is. You are not trying to change or fix anything. You are simply aware, and that is all.

And that is when you begin to taste that incredible nectar, the wisdom of your soul collected and distilled from every experience that your soul, your being, has ever had, all distilled down into this incredible sweet nectar. That, now, is your nourishment. That is your abundance. That is your joy.

Mmm…

Come back into the simple, pure awareness.

Take some time now to simply BE in your awareness. Nothing else, simply observe.

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Oh, even that, the mind tries to turn it into an action. Go beyond that.

Simply BE aware. That’s all.

Be aware!

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Ha! The mind jumps in with, “What am I being aware of? I see that, I see that over there, I see this here. What am I supposed to be aware of?”

Be still, mind.

Just. Be. Aware.

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We will return in our next session. But before you move on to that, take some time. You’ll know how much, but take some time—at least a few hours—and keep coming back to simple awareness. To just being aware.

And so it is.

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