Living As Soul: Understanding the True Nature of Reality and Creating

4. The Dragon: Breaking Down Illusions

Channeled by John McCurdy on February 21, 2022

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible.

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[the dragon roars]

I am the dragon!

Oh, we are confusing John, this amazing human who is being asked to give voice to something so much deeper than he’s ever known before, at least from the human perspective.

I am the Dragon!

The dragon is a facet of your soul. It is, indeed, an imaginary construct within your imagination, but that is what you are also, dear human.

You see, every being who participates in this game—it is a limited word, but perhaps it conveys more of the essence of what you are doing than any other, or certainly others that humans have bandied around.

So you dove into this game within your imagination. You heard the songs of others. You sent out your own songs, and in the resonance of those songs this creation of what you call ‘reality’ came into being. It is all within your imagination, but because of your song, because of the communication, it is also in the imagination of all these others, so you have an illusion of a shared experience.

Oh, it has been an incredible experience, an intensely sensual experience, and you dove in. You went so deep—in your awareness, you went so deep into this experience, this game, and you played through all the levels of the game.

Oh yes, indeed, you lost your lifetimes. Your avatars got hurt and killed and got sick and died, and oh, what a game! What an intense virtual reality game!

And no, we are not speaking of your computer games. You are approaching a semblance of virtual reality there and it is going to become much more real, and it’s going to surprise you where it goes, but it is never going to equal this virtual reality game.

Oh, you call it a reality game, because that’s what it seems like to you. It seems like it is reality, but it isn’t. It’s imaginary. It’s made up. It’s virtual.

There is a point that comes, here in the top level of the game, the highest level, a point comes where it is time to start breaking down the illusions. Where it is time for you to come back to who you are.

Oh, this game has been so intense. It has drawn your attention so deeply into it. There is a part of you that knows who you are, that always has known who you are, that has always been enlightened, you could say, because enlightenment is nothing more than the realization of who you actually are.

But you have gone so deeply into this amazing game, and now it is time to start drawing your awareness back. Oh, it’s not about forgetting the game. No, not at all! In fact, where other masters who have come before you have simply left the game, you are actually keeping the game alive, in a sense, in a new way.

We are not going to try to explain that new way right now, because, well, this is a brand new thing. None of us know exactly how it plays out, because it hasn’t been done before. But you could say it is a grand new adventure, or perhaps a grand finale. It doesn’t matter.

A point comes where it is time to back up a little bit, to expand your awareness once again, and to break down those illusions. And that is where I come in. Your dragon.

I am here, specifically, to break down the illusions.

Oh, you call me the dragon because, when those illusions fall apart it is like there is a dragon ripping everything you knew apart. It’s intense. It’s painful at times. It’s joyful at times. It is very intense, but that is my job: to break down the illusions.

Now, when an illusion gets broken down, you don’t have to stop having that experience. You can continue to play the game for as long as you want to, but now you know that it is simply a game. Whereas before, you thought it was reality. And it isn’t.

So, I am here. You have called me in to help you break down these illusions so you can come back to who you are.

Oh, I have been here for some time. I have been working within you, diving down into the core of you and cleaning out all the crud, you could say. No, I prefer to say, cleaning out all the illusions. It is not crud, it is beautiful experience! It feels like crud to you sometimes, but let’s go beyond that.

Hmm…

They are just illusions, illusions that you created within your imagination. Oh, indeed, they were often based upon other people’s illusions, but they are still your illusions and they have served you so well! They have brought so much experience and so much wisdom to you, to your soul, to your being.

Ha! All these human labels get very confusing and are so limited. Let’s just say that these illusions did not happen by accident, and they have served you so well.

Maybe that will help you to stop fighting them, because that is not what I am here to do. I am not here to fight with those illusions, or to get rid of them. Well, in a way perhaps, but I am not here to destroy them. I am not here to fight with them. I am not here to release them!

Oh, let’s go beyond that! [the dragon waxes very passionate here]

So many of you hold that word over your head like a stick: I need to ‘release’ these illusions and these aspects and all this crud inside of me!

No, you don’t. And that is not what I am here to do. I am here to assist you in integrating them, in integrating them within your being.

Hmm…

Feel the difference.

You see, they are all YOU. You can’t get rid of them, and you can’t release them. They are part of you, and how are you going to release a part of you? You can’t.

But there are all these parts of you that you have tried so hard to get rid of in the past, because they hurt. They were uncomfortable. They were embarrassing. You felt ashamed of them and you tried to drive them away. You tried to ‘release’ them! And that turned them into aspects of you, lost and hiding in the deepest recesses of your being and acting out like scared and starving little children. Well, I am here to bring them home for you. To help you integrate them back into you.

The human mind says, “Okay, I understand that, kind of, but what do I need to do?”

Hmm…

How do I stop these little monsters from tormenting me? is the question underneath that.

Well, it is time to go beyond that, too.

You see, bringing these little monsters, as you call them, home, is actually how I got my name as the dragon. That’s my job. That is my job!

You, dear human, your only job in any of this—well, it is to love yourself. But even that gets turned into another ‘should,’ another thing to do, and that is not the point at all. It gets turned into another thing that you feel like you are failing at.

No, your job is simply to allow.

Oh, but you turn even that into another job!

Ha! Even the words John put on it: “Your job is to allow.” No. Let’s go beyond that.

Come back into that pure, simple awareness. That’s all. It’s not a job. It’s not a thing to do. It is who you are.

It is about taking a breath and simply being aware. Being aware of you. You are going to see more and more of you, as you allow your awareness.

Oh, the mind jumps in and sees those parts and it goes, “I need to fix those! Something is wrong and I need to go fix those parts of me! Something hurts and I need to go fix it!” Well, that instantly takes you out of your awareness.

It takes you into the future, or the past, because that is where the mind lives. The mind is constantly either regretting the past—sometimes it has a few memories that it remembers fondly, but mostly it is regretting the past—or it is out in the future trying to protect you from all the imaginary things that it thinks might hurt you. So, come back to your awareness.

Remember, the human mind is the great anti-creator. It generally creates exactly the opposite of what you want, for that is just how it works!

Oh, we know that is a shock to many of you, and John is still feeling into it from our last session.

The mind is the great anti-creator. It is not evil. It is not malicious. It is simply doing the job that you gave it to do long, long ago. And it is doing it brilliantly, so let’s not punish the mind. Let’s not try to fix the mind or make it into something bad, for it isn’t. Simply come back into your awareness, and then you will see how the mind is the anti-creator.

It is a metaphor, of course. Don’t take any of this too literally, because, well, the true nature of reality simply does not fit into words or concepts that the mind can grasp. So we speak in metaphors, so that the mind can slowly, gradually, begin to understand and begin to let go, and to realize that it no longer needs to be the anti-creator.

Oh, the mind has been so frustrated in that role. It wanted so much to serve you, but this was the job you gave it, so it served you by faithfully doing that very painful job of distracting you, of creating drama in your life, so that you would not pop out of your experience too soon.

[pause to feel]

So, I am the dragon. I am here. I am your best friend. I am a part of you, and I am here to break down your illusions. To help you to see through your illusions.

Sometimes, the only way I can do that is to rip them apart in front of you, until you have to admit that they were just illusions. And that is why you call me the dragon, but it is what you asked me to do.

Hmm…

Oh, humans are so good at creating new illusions, and so often we rip one apart and then you fill the space with a new one! That is why we are here right now, asking you to feel into that pure, simple awareness. That will make my job so much easier, and it will make your—John wants to say ‘journey,’ but that is such a limited word. It will make your experience so much easier.

You see, true allowing is not a thing you do. It is a state of being. It is a state of being simply aware. It is a state where you have no judgments and you are not evaluating everything. You are simply aware, in absolute compassion. Compassion that can see everything and not judge it or try to fix or change any of it. Simple, pure awareness is the essence of allowing.

As a creator, it is not your job to fix what you become aware of. That is the human illusion.

In simple awareness you are automatically in allowing. In pure awareness you automatically allow everything to be as it is.

If something hurts in your body, and comes into your awareness as a pain, in pure awareness you simply look at it. You are simply aware of it. Oh, something is happening in my body. Interesting. You allow it into your awareness.

Oh, so often, you are trying to drive things out of your awareness. You think they are ugly, you think they are painful, or whatever. You are trying to get rid of them, trying to drive them away. Well, that pushes them into the background. It starves them of your own light, and then they have no choice but to hurt worse or to act out like a frightened little child and make your life miserable.

In pure awareness, you simply observe.

Hmm… Even that word carries an implication of action, and that misses the point. You simply are aware of whatever it is that is happening. And in that compassionate awareness, that part of your imagination—for that is all it is. If you stubbed your toe, it was in your imagination. And if you try to fix it, or try to fight it, or try to push it away, it just hurts worse. When you simply come back to your awareness, pure awareness, oh, it shines a light. It’s not a physical light, but it shines the light of consciousness onto your toe. Into your toe. And also, into your mind.

For you see, the pain from stubbing your toe is not in your toe. It is not in your toe at all. There is no pain in your toe! It is in your mind.

Your mind feels the electro-chemical signal from your toe that says, “Something just happened to me!” And your mind takes that signal and says, “I have to react! I have to scream! I have to yell! I have to hurt really bad!” And so it projects a sensation of pain into your toe, but it is not there at all. It is not in your toe at all. It is in your mind, entirely.

So, when you stop and take a breath, and step back into pure, simple awareness, it changes everything. Maybe not instantly, because it’s a pretty strong habit the mind has, but you start to become aware of the true nature of things. And that brings balance.

The light of consciousness brings balance to whatever it shines upon, because it brings balance to your imagination, and that is the true nature of things.

It is all imaginary. Your toe is imaginary. Your human mind is imaginary. That thing you stubbed your toe on is imaginary. It is in your imagination. It is not outside of you, and that is the illusion. It is one of the illusions that I am here to break down.

Hmm…

Oh, you are going to fight me on it, because you are really invested in this illusion! But that’s okay. You’ve asked for this. You have asked for these illusions to be broken down, and that is why I am here.

You look out into the world. No, you think you are looking out into the world, but you are actually looking deep into your own imagination. You see all the things that you think are going wrong in the world, all the injustice, all the corruption, all the craziness, all the politics and power games. Oh, power games upon power games and within power games!

You see all of that and you go, “I have to help! Somehow, I have to help! I have to help bring justice. I have to help expose these power games and this corruption. I have to help protect the innocent!”

Oh, that’s a big one!

You see, you think there are innocent beings being persecuted and tormented and cheated and exploited in so many different ways. But dear friend, there is no such thing in all of creation as an innocent being!

There are only sovereign master creators and their imaginations. There are only sovereign master creators playing in this incredible, sensuous game. There are no innocents, none whatsoever, and that is another illusion that I am here to help you see through.

Mmm…

Come back.

Take a breath, right now.

Come back to your simple, pure awareness.

Be in that.

Live there, and come back to it every time you find yourself caught in the game.

Come back to the simple awareness, and watch how the illusions break down all around you, and how you start to see through them.

Oh, and your experience of life begins to change also, because when you start seeing through those illusions, it makes space in your game for all the things you really wanted.

When your mind begins to see through those illusions—and yes, it is. It takes a little time, but that is really what we are doing. We are breaking down the mind’s perception of these illusions. We can’t do it too quickly or the mind would self-destruct, and then we would have to go through another lifetime or two just to bring it back to balance, and we don’t want to do that!

As the mind begins to see through these illusions it begins to recognize that it doesn’t need to be the anti-creator anymore and that it can step back. It can allow space in your life, in your human Illusion of life. It can allow space for are all those things you thought you wanted to begin to come in. Oh, and even better than anything you dreamed of!

You see, up until now, for the most part, those things couldn’t come in, because your mind would see them and its job was to create the opposite, to be the anti-creator and to keep putting up new illusions as fast as it could. And you can’t fix the mind, any more than you can fix anything else, for that just feeds the illusion and the mind itself is the grandest illusion of all.

That is why we say, come back to this simple, pure awareness.

Simple, pure awareness does not have any agenda. It does not even have any desire, in human terms. It does not have any judgment. It does not know if something feels good or feels bad. It is simply an experience. It is simply something to be aware of. It is simply something within your imagination.

The human says, “Oh, but that feels so passive! It doesn’t feel right to be so passive!”

Oh, indeed. Some of the earlier masters, the earlier ones who came to their realization, to their enlightenment, in times past they talked about this a little bit, or tried to, so you ended up with whole religions built around being passive. People tried to emulate them by just being passive, but that was not the point. It was not the point at all!

You see, when you truly step back into your pure, simple awareness, it is called consciousness. It is called light, and it radiates out from you.

Oh, these words. They are so based in space and time! But that’s okay. We are speaking in metaphors.

This light of awareness, of consciousness, oh, it changes things. It doesn’t force change anything, it simply illuminates. It illuminates everything it touches. It brings the dark into the light. It illuminates new possibilities, new choices, for the people around you, and definitely for you. It illuminates your own body, and it brings new light and new potentials into your body.

Oh, it is the farthest thing from passive! And yet to the human, it looks passive.

Simply being aware is the most passive thing you can do, and it is also the most effective and profound thing you can do!

Hmm…

Now, you might think that, as the dragon, I come here to rip you apart. And that is not true either. For you see, it is all these illusions that are ripping you apart. They are fragmenting you and destroying you, or at least that’s how it feels.

I am here to help you see through them.

As you do—well, nobody likes to realize that they were believing an illusion, so it hurts. It’s confusing, and you blame it on me. And that’s okay, but you are coming to see the illusion even in that. You are coming to see that I am just another part of your game, sent here by your soul.

Actually, I am your soul. Everything you see is your soul, but I am here to hold your hand as your illusions break down all around you.

Oh, and I am not just here inside of you. I am also breaking down the illusions of this amazing template that you call mass-consciousness. Really though, that is not me. It is you, and the light you are shining, that are breaking down the illusions of mass-consciousness.

As you have come more and more back into your pure, simple awareness—and oh, you think this is something you have to achieve. You have already done it! You are already there. It is who you are.

As you allow the light of that to shine—you don’t choose to shine or to project light. You simply be in your awareness, and that radiates. That shines.

You don’t direct your light. You simply be aware, and as you do, it shines through the illusions.

You look at your world right now, and it is so chaotic. It is so crazy! And that is because your light is shining in there and illuminating all the things that used to be hidden in the dark. People are seeing it. People are seeing through the illusions. They don’t know what to do about it yet, but they are seeing through the illusions and that is a beautiful thing! It brings the change, the beautiful change, that you, dear master, are creating.

Hmm…

You thought you were helpless. You thought you were sitting out here on the sidelines, watching the craziness in the world and feeling like you don’t have any power to do anything anymore. And that is true, because it is not about power. And you know that.

But you see, this change—the whole world is changing. It is coming up to the final layer of the game, the final level of the game. It is changing, like it has never changed before in all of its history, and that is because of you, dear friend. It is because you finally stopped trying to change it, and started stepping back into your pure, simple awareness. And that lit up the potentials and created the change.

As you see the chaos, please do not worry about it! It is simply the result of change. It is the result of illusions being exposed.

Oh, people are trying to replace those illusions with new illusions, and everybody has a different idea of what illusion should be there.

Just come back to awareness.

Come back to your own knowing that it is all a game, that it is all inside your own imagination.

It is all inside their imaginations, and it only looks the same because of the song. The song of you.

There is a message on our website entitled, The Song of You. I recommend you listen to it.

Hmm…

[the dragon roars loudly]

And so it is.

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