Living As Soul: Understanding the True Nature of Reality and Creating

5. Jeshua: The Answer to Your Question

Channeled by John McCurdy on February 21, 2022

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible.

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Greetings, dear friend!

It is I, Jeshua, the one so many of you knew in that lifetime two thousand years ago. The one known to the world today as Jesus, though that wasn’t actually my name.

Oh, what an honor! What a beautiful honor to get to channel, to speak, through a true grand master!

Hmm…

Oh, what an incredible time to live, to be alive on Earth!

Yes, we will use the metaphors of time and space for right now, because that is what this human experience is all about. Especially now that you know the truth, that it is all an illusion.

And yet, what a beautiful, sensual experience! Oh, if only I had known when I was there! Ha!

Yes indeed, you have come beyond where I was two thousand years ago. Oh, so many of you think I was such a grand amazing master. In a way I was, but I too was limited to the available consciousness of that time. Not only that, I was a part of so many of you!

I was not—oh, the words are challenging, but I was not a souled being like you. I was a very special being. I called myself “The Son of Man,” because that is exactly what I was.

A group of you came together in the other dimensions of this thing you call mass-consciousness. Oh, it is far bigger than Planet Earth!

A bunch of you came together and said, “It is time to plant a seed. We are beginning to feel what’s coming, and we need to plant a seed. We need to begin the awakening of humanity.”

So, each one of you took a portion of your own essence, and you put it all together. You birthed it into a human on Earth, and that was me. So, you see, I truly was The Son of Man, the creation of humanity.

Mmm…

Oh, if only I had known then what you know now! But how could I? Because so much of what you know now is what you have only now discovered: the true nature of reality, of what you call divinity.

You always thought of it as something outside of you. Even I so often thought of it as something outside of me, even though I had an inkling that it was actually inside, and I tried to teach that. But I had even fewer words to work with than you do. And the people, oh, the people couldn’t even hear it.

So, we did the best we could. We planted a seed of consciousness, of awareness, and then I did my thing. I left in a very dramatic fashion and left so many of you feeling like it was all for nothing, but it wasn’t.

It can be debated whether I needed to go so dramatically, but let’s not go there. It doesn’t matter.

Here we are. Here you are. Oh, I’m just watching, because this is your game, dear friend. This is your reality, and it is not at all what you thought it was, or even what I thought it was.

Let that in.

You look around at your life and part of you asks, “What does it matter? This is what I’m experiencing right now, this messy and often yucky and painful human life. Well, sometimes it has its joys and pleasures, but so much of it is so difficult! So what does it matter if it’s all a game? If it’s all an illusion? It sure feels real, and I don’t know how to get out of it.”

Well, there is a way out, and—ha!—it is definitely not the way that I took. I allowed myself to get angry. I allowed myself to try to save the world, or at least a little piece of it, and in the process I pissed off the rulers and the priests. Well, then they had to do something about me.

Hmm…

That is not your way out, dear friends. Please don’t do that!

You don’t need to save anybody. As the dragon said earlier, there are no innocents on this planet or anywhere else. There are just creators, playing a game.

You don’t need to save anybody. And you definitely do not need to make any points. You don’t need to make a point about being free or being sovereign. You don’t need to make a point about corruption or any of the other things that pissed me off in that lifetime, just as they do you in this lifetime. There is no need for that anymore, because now you know that it is just a game. A beautiful, incredible, sensual game!

Oh, and indeed, it is much more than that. You could call it a learning experience. I don’t like that too much, but you have learned so much from it! You have gained so much experience!

“But what is the purpose?” you ask.

Well, there actually isn’t any purpose. Or there is, but that purpose is simply to have fun, you could say. That’s how John likes to say it. Your purpose is simply to have the experience!

Oh, you began this experience with that fateful question, “Who am I?” Your awareness, your essence—oh, let’s keep this straight: awareness is who you are. And at some point you became aware of this question, “Who am I?”

Well, you are a creator, and the nature of creation is that when you ask a question, it must be answered. It cannot be any other way. And that is an important thing for you to remember, even as a human. If you ask a question it must be answered, and it will be.

Well, in fact, you can’t even ask a question unless the answer is already present. That is just the nature of being a creator.

Now, the question is, especially as the human, are you willing to hear the answer? So many times you are not, so you don’t see it. You don’t hear it. Or you just ignore it.

So, you asked that grand question: Who am I?

And because the question was in your awareness, so too, was the answer.

Now, don’t get stuck in a mind game here, because there aren’t any words or concepts that can truly describe what we are talking about. Do not take any of this as concrete fact, but as a metaphor, nothing more. A brilliant metaphor, a very true metaphor, but only a metaphor. A very limited metaphor.

So, as the awareness, the consciousness, that you are—not that you were, but as you are—you asked the question, Who am I? You are actually asking it right now, and the answer is here, right now. And within that answer, oh, you created this beautiful, elaborate—ah, we don’t even know how to describe it—this game, this experience, so that you could dive in and experience who you are in so very many different ways.

Because, you see, you think your words are limited? They are limited, and there is no way that you could understand the answer without diving in and feeling it in so very many different ways. So you created this illusion of time and space, and you dove into it, and you felt the answer. Every single experience you have ever had is part of the answer to, Who am I?

Yes indeed, every being you have ever been is part of the answer to, Who am I? It is part of who you are.

Every being that you have ever observed, as you already know, was a facet of you, an avatar in your own game. It was modeled after the song of some other being, but it was still reflecting you back to you.

So, yes indeed, the most horrible, evil people in your experience, in any of your experiences, are indeed a part of the answer to the question, Who am I?

Hmm…

That is difficult for the human to let in, but I ask you to let it in.

Because it is true, and until you let that in, until you allow those parts of you to come home too, to integrate within you, you cannot be whole.

Well, we’ll say that a little different, because you will be whole, one way or another. You have the opportunity, in this lifetime, to bring it all together. To allow all of your darkness, all of your evil, all of your failures and all of your shame, to blend together, to integrate together with all of your goodness. To be whole. To be complete.

Oh, if you can’t do that in this lifetime, another of your human incarnations will do it. But if you are here, if you are listening to this or reading this, this is your opportunity. And we don’t think you are going to pass it by.

Yes, it is difficult to love yourself so much, to accept yourself so much, that all of those aspects you see—not just your other lifetimes, but all of those other people too—can come home within you.

Oh, it’s not about those other beings. They are going through the same process themselves in their own way and it doesn’t have anything to do with you, just as your process doesn’t have anything to do with them.

Hmm…

When you look at those others, you feel so frustrated with them. You feel so angry at them. But they are you. What you see of them is you. It is your own energy. It is your own imagination, your own reflection of you. And each one of them is reflecting a part of the answer to that question of, Who am I? And yes indeed, that is you.

And yes, that includes the most evil tyrant that you can imagine in your world, and it also includes the most kind and loving saint. They are ALL reflecting an aspect of you!

You thought your aspects were simply your other lifetimes, your other incarnations on this planet, and maybe some little aspects that you create from traumas in your various lifetimes. And indeed, those are all aspects. But for every one of those avatars, every one of those people you have ever interacted with, the part of them that you perceived and that you interacted with is also an aspect of you. And they, too, are ready to come home.

Oh, they are not going to come home by that person coming into you. No, they are sovereign beings and they are doing their own integration. But what you perceive of them is a reflection of you.

Hmm…

We will ask you not to allow your mind to try too hard to figure that out. It can’t. We are going beyond the confines of the game, of the reality that your mind understands, or thinks it understands. We are talking about things that we don’t really have any good words for, so feel it. Don’t try to figure it out in your mind. Just feel it.

[pause to feel]

So, you thought that integration was just about your lifetimes, and your own personal traumas within those lifetimes. But it is about everyone else too.

That doesn’t mean you have to fix anybody else, but it does mean that you have to see those others as part of you.

When you get angry with them and battle with them, when you try to fix them or punish them, or all these things that humans do to each other, you are only fighting a battle with yourself. That is all you are doing! You are fighting a battle with yourself, and oh, as I told you two thousand years ago, a house divided against itself cannot stand.

As Master John has told you so many times in his messages, it is time to let go of the battles. Not because you need to be passive. Not because there is anything wrong with your causes and your fighting for things that feel like they matter. Not because there is anything wrong with that, but simply because now you understand that you can only ever fight with yourself. You can only ever be angry at yourself.

And that, dear friend, is what makes life so painful, because you are constantly beating up on yourself. You think you are beating up on somebody else, but they are a reflection of you. And the truth is, you are beating up on yourself.

Now, this certainly does not mean to stand by and allow them to beat up on you. But it does mean to remember that, that is YOU trying to beat up on you.

And when you remember that, you will have a whole new perspective in dealing with them. You will discover what compassion really means. You won’t take their abuse, and at the same time you won’t give it back, because you know it is you.

It is a part of you that is in pain, that is hurting. And you will love yourself, and in that love for yourself that aspect will be able to come home, and then your relationship with that person will be entirely different. You won’t need to change them anymore, and this avatar of them that you have created will either change and begin to serve you in beautiful new ways, or it will fade away and disappear from your life.

Ahh…

Just before John began this message, he ran across a video that somebody posted on Facebook. It was a beautiful song called All Is Well. It went something like, “I dove into the darkness and I almost drowned, and then I saw the stars, and I realized that all is well. That no matter what happens, no matter whether I am in the dark or in the light, all is well with my soul. All is well with me.”

John doesn’t remember the exact words, but that’s an approximation. It is a beautiful song and it made him cry, because it is so true, and he knows it. Within the very heart of his being, he knows how true it is.

Oh, at the human level he sometimes still forgets and gets caught up in the human issues. And that’s okay, because underneath it all he KNOWS now that all is well in all of existence! And in particular, in all of his existence. For you see, he has found that place of pure, simple awareness.

Dear friend, it might sound like a boring place. But some of you are shaking your heads, because you know that it is not boring at all! It is the most incredible place there is!

This place of no judgment, of no agenda, of simple, pure awareness, oh, it is indescribable! It truly is indescribable! There are no words that we can possibly find to convey what it is like. It is not boring. It is the most beautiful place there is!

And if you are hearing or reading this, you are already feeling it. Maybe your mind doesn’t yet understand that that is what you are feeling, but it will.

It is in your heart, dear friend. It is not in your mind.

You see, this is the part that even I never got to, in my lifetime two thousand years ago. Oh, if I had, perhaps things would have been different! Or perhaps not, because it wasn’t time. It wasn’t available yet. This consciousness, this awareness, simply was not available yet to humans on Earth.

Oh, your soul knew. Your essence knew, at its core. But even it got so engrossed in this game, this game that extends so far beyond this planet that you call Earth, or this series of incarnations that you call human. Oh, you were playing this game—in terms of time, which of course is an illusion, but in terms of time or even in terms of your own progression of experience, you began this game long, long before Earth was ever even thought of.

In a sense, your soul is the game. Or maybe, it is the computer within which the game runs. Oh, now we are getting way too much into human metaphors and the limitations of them!

You see, your soul was the answer to the question, Who am I?

All of the energies that make up your soul are not who you are. They are simply the answer to the question, Who am I? Or perhaps another way to say it is, they are the means by which you could experience the answer.

So, there has always been that essence of you, the pure, simple awareness that is your core. Another human term that doesn’t really work, but you know what we mean. Feel it.

You have always been that. And all of this, oh, you asked the question and the answer was already there. It is already done. And it happened in an instant!

Ha! This moment, right now in your experience, is an instant within that instant. It is already done. Your essence already knows the answer. Your essence has already completed this game. It’s all done!

That does not mean it’s all set in stone, though, for the final results, the way it finally plays out in your imagination, is up to you.

Hmm…

And here you are. You have come to such a new place, such a new awareness.

The mind as the great anti-creator. Oh, we are going to be talking about that one in the other realms for a while to come! We hadn’t seen it quite like that before, but it is a beautiful metaphor. Like any metaphor it has its limitations, and you can’t take it too literally, but it is a brilliant metaphor!

You’ve been so frustrated, because you try to create—you learned that you are a creator. You got that, and you try to make it work, and it blows up in your face almost every time. You’ve been trying to figure that one out, and, well, now we all know! The human mind is the anti-creator, specifically designed to create the opposite of what you thought you wanted.

Because that kept you in the game. It kept you in the experience. It added drama to the experience. And more than anything, it added sensuality to the experience. And it helped you discover the answer to Who am I?

That grand answer, I am that I am.

Oh, the mind balks a little bit at that answer, as it doesn’t quite fit together. So often, people add in a word: I am all that I am. Well, that’s kind of true, but even that is a limitation.

I Am that I Am. That includes all that I am, and it even includes all that I am not!

Oh, translators are going to be trying to figure this one out. And we understand that the English language works a little different than other languages.

Hmm…

I Am that I Am.

I am all that I am, and I am all that I am not!

I am.

I simply am, and everything that I perceive is inside of me. It is an aspect. Or better yet, it is a facet of me.

You make a distinction between facets and aspects. You think of aspects as those unintegrated parts of you, and when they integrate they become facets. Well, that’s a good way of saying it, but in truth the very idea that they are not integrated is an illusion. They are just a game you are playing with yourself!

They are facets of you, faces of you, in this beautiful, amazing, sensual game!

And yes indeed, dear friend, one of the first things you learn, or that you realize, when you take a breath and come back into that pure, simple awareness, is that:

All truly is so well in all of existence!

Oh, such a beautiful game! Such a beautiful time within your game!

Ahh, I almost wish I was here with you right now! But I am. I am. I am here within your heart, every one of you! I am here in your heart, and walking beside you.

Don’t look to me for the answers or the solutions. That is not my place. I am just your friend, your dear, dear friend. And I love you so much!

And oh, from my perspective, you are doing such an amazing job!

The words fail us yet again, but let that in, dear friend.

And yes, perhaps John will post a link to that song along with this message.

For yes indeed, ALL is well!

No matter what happens, no matter how dark it might feel or how brilliant the light, ALL is well with you. Even if you don’t believe it.

Ahh…

And so it is.

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