Living As Soul: Understanding the True Nature of Reality and Creating

10. Questions and Answers

Channeled by John McCurdy on May 16, 2022

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible.

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Oh, I am that I am!

Master John of Magical Service!

Hmm…

I am joined in this moment by many friends: the one you know as Jeshua, the one you know as Mother Mary, and many others that you call Ascended Masters. They are joining in, and they have been part of this class all along.

Oh, John is sitting out in the woods in Slovenia on a sunny spring day, with birds singing and all the sounds of life all around. Oh, including human life! You might hear machines in the background, cars and tractors and airplanes, and there might even be somebody walking past on a nearby trail.

We are actually out here for two channels today, for we just completed the introduction to our new class entitled, From Mind to Wisdom. Oh, we took John to some new places in this class! Ha! And we will take you there too, if you sign up for it. Some surprising places, and beautiful places!

And, during that channel there were some dogs barking in the near distance, and there may be other sounds as we go through this lesson, through this channel. But we are here today, in this moment, to channel the question-and-answer session for our beautiful class entitled, Living as Soul: Understanding the True Nature of Reality and Creating.

Ahh… We, John and I, his soul, Master John, I thank you so much for subscribing to this class! In particular, I want to thank those of you who signed up immediately, and who submitted your questions for this session. We closed the question form a couple of days ago, and John put all the questions together. We have 15 questions, and we will see if we can get through them all. So, let’s get started!

Oh, this is going to be a new experience for John! And for I, Master John, also. We haven’t done a question-and-answer session like this before. John does private channels where people ask questions and he channels the answers from their souls, and oh, such a beautiful experience! But this is the first time we have taken questions from a group. So, let’s stop talking about it and get on with it!

[Note: Some of the questions were difficult to read aloud, so I am replacing the recorded text with the original question as submitted. Occasionally Master John inserted a comment as I was reading the question, and I will include those in brackets like this note. The questions were presented in the order in which I received them.]

First question:

This question was submitted in Italian, so John used Google Translate to make it so he could read it. We hope it comes through clearly enough:

Since I was a child I have a speech and communication disorder due to stuttering. I am aware that it is a block of my energies, my energies do not flow smoothly. For me so far it has been a reason of great unworthiness. “Thanks to yours John channels and Adamus I’m becoming aware more and more that it is ME and therefore I am integrating it. I would like to know why I chose to enter this life with this disorder. Thank you John.

Ah, indeed! First, we will say that there was a time when John stuttered. Oh, and then he found he had an even deeper problem, because for so much of his life, if someone asked him a question or put him on the spot somehow in front of people, or if for some reason he needed to answer a question under pressure, his words just all went away. He didn’t just stutter, he lost his words entirely!

So, in a way, he is still surprised that that these messages come through him, because he didn’t think he could ever do something like this. But you see, the trick was in letting go of the problem and simply opening, and allowing the words to come without the mind’s judgment.

Stuttering is not so much different. It comes from fear. It comes from fear of saying the wrong thing. It comes from experiences in other lifetimes where you said things, and you were punished for those things you said. Or perhaps the things you said got somebody hurt.

Hmm…

So now there is a part of you that is afraid to let the words come out. And yet, here you are as a human and you need to talk, so there is this conflict between that part of you that is afraid and the part of you that needs to talk. And so you stumble through your words.

So, how to move beyond the fear?

Well, the first thing is to accept it, to allow it to be there. You call stuttering a disorder. No, it is not a disorder at all! It is a way of protecting yourself.

Hmm…

It is not really an effective way of protecting yourself, but it is a way that your mind came up with to protect you. And yes, to continue distracting you from your soul.

“Disorder” is simply a judgment that your mind put on it. When you take that judgment off, when you realize that the stuttering serves you—otherwise, it would not be there. It serves you, so allow it to serve you. Allow it to be there. Let go of the shame around it. You gave it to yourself for a very good reason, and now you can let it go. But what you cannot do is drive it away, and that is what you have been trying to do. How do I get rid of this? How do I get beyond it? It’s such a shame! Such a disorder!

No, let all of that go. You gave this to yourself for a reason. You gave it to yourself to protect yourself from getting hurt, and you can be proud of that!

Oh yes, we mean that. You can be proud of your stuttering, because it serves you. And as you allow yourself to accept, even to welcome, the stuttering, you just might find it fading away.

Because, you see, the fear never was really about what the others did to you, and that is something for all of you to consider when you are looking at your fears and trying to get rid of them. That fear never actually was about the others.

Oh, the others were the ones that acted it out. They did bad things to you, or so you think. The truth is that it was actually you, avatars you created of those others, that did those things to you. But the real fear is not of them. It never was of them.

The real fear is of your own self, that somehow you were letting yourself down, and that is at the heart of every fear you have.

Hm. John is questioning that, but he knows it is true. And yes, it is a profound thing to consider. A thing that will liberate you.

So, you have never let yourself down. You have never let your soul down.

All these experiences you have created and walked through, they are so beautiful from your soul’s perspective. And at some point in the near future, you the human will begin to understand that.

So, take off the judgments. Take off the shame. You don’t need it anymore! Simply allow yourself to be you, just the way you are, stuttering and all. And watch what happens.

Oh, the human is going to go, “Well I’m still stuttering! Nothing happened!”

Ah, step back. That is still your mind trying to hold on to the judgments. Step back and let go of the expectations. You might stutter till the day you die—if you die—or until the day you ascend, or whatever you end up doing. Can you allow that? Can you be proud of that? Can you welcome it as part of you? As a beautiful part of you, even though it doesn’t match what other people think you should be?

It is still a beautiful part of you. Can you welcome it? Can you stop trying to get rid of it?

Let it in. Breathe it in. Let it be part of you! And then watch what happens.

Ah, next question:

Words can never describe the deepest meanings, but since this class is also about “…to help your mind understand what you are doing…” – well, for the mind it is important, explanations help it to become aware of its being a part of it all.

My question: Could you explain more about what Realization is? I’ve had discussions with friends, and there are different “ideas” about it. Does Realization happen in the moment, when one realizes to be more than just the human (“point of no return”), and expand from there, “for evermore”, or is one Realized only when having reached the highest level of Being Aware (whatever that may be)? Or….?

Ahh, dear Mind…

Hmm…

Well, realization is just that. It is realizing that you are realized!

That’s all it is!

It is realizing, perhaps more importantly, that your soul is realized. And then, it is realizing that you are your soul.

Ah, but what does that mean? Well, there are many different attributes of what we would call realization, or enlightenment. Perhaps the most important attribute is that you finally realize that you are more than the human. You realize that it is actually your soul that is in charge of your life, and you lay down your sword.

If you talk to another realized person, the main thing you are going to hear is how they have laid down their sword. Oh, they are probably not going to say that exactly, but you will notice that they are not fighting the battles anymore.

Most humans are fighting. Fighting, fighting, fighting so hard with all these things in life! They are fighting to solve their problems. They are fighting to control themselves. They are fighting to make the world better. Fighting, fighting, fighting! Fighting to fix their bodies!

One of the major signs of a realized person is that they are not fighting anymore. They are enjoying life, even when it hurts! Even when it is messy and ugly. Even when the war is happening all around them, they are not fighting anymore.

So, we could go on and on, but we don’t have time for that. And you, dear one, you know the answer to your own question. Let it in!

Realization is different for every person. There are certain commonalities, like letting go of the battles, and one of those battles is searching for answers. Trying to understand everything.

Well, as you are discovering, there are so many things in life that you will never understand at the level of the mind. And part of enlightenment is realizing that, because then you can let go of all the questions.

The truth is that the answers actually come first, and then the mind comes up with questions to try to explain those answers. So you let go of the questions, and you just have the answers. It’s called knowing.

So let go of the questions. Have your knowing.

Next question:

In Jeshua’s channel, he says about the relationship with others: “…You won’t take their abuse, and at the same time you won’t give it back, because you know it is you… ” – I understand what he’s saying, but: How do I apply this, in every life? Do I “do” anything at all when there is abuse (verbal, for instance), like saying (calmly, if possible [Let that one go. Let go of that “calmly”!] ): “I won’t take that kind of language any longer.” And isn’t that, in fact, already an attempt to change that person? – Or do I write a letter, and send it? Or maybe keep it, because writing it was all the action it took? Or do I “only” love that aspect of mine, but no action whatsoever? Or ….?

Well, yes, first of all, let’s get rid of that whole ‘calmly’, ‘react calmly,’ thing. Get over that! That is a trap!

If you feel angry, be angry! Allow yourself to express your anger when it is there! Oh, you can do it in a way that doesn’t start a battle, perhaps, but what if it does? You walk away. But don’t bottle up that anger, because then it festers inside you and it turns into shame and stuck energy. So, get over the ‘calmly’ part.

Hmm…

What to do when someone is abusing you? Well, sometimes you simply walk away. If you can’t, perhaps you get angry and tell them how you feel. Don’t tell them how they should be or how they should feel—that is trying to change them—but tell them how you feel. “I am so angry at you because…whatever…” Because that is real, dear friend.

Oh, you don’t want to do that because, well, perhaps you don’t want to lose a relationship. But what is this relationship doing for you? It’s making you miserable! Isn’t it time to take the suffering out of it? Isn’t it time to get real with this relationship, and then discover if there is anything left?

So, say what you feel!

Don’t tell them how to be. Don’t tell them they are evil because of whatever they did. Just tell them how you feel and how it affected you. And if you don’t feel calm, don’t say it calmly! Let it out!

BE REAL with the people around you, and that will solve your problems with the other people.

Hmm…

Be real.

You see, humans are so committed to protecting everybody’s feelings. Especially your own, but you do that by trying to protect the feelings of all the people around you. And it is such a trap! You think you don’t want to hurt them. You think you don’t want to push them out of your life. Well, the biggest way you push them out of your life is by protecting them from their own feelings. By not being REAL with them.

So, let yourself be real. Let yourself tell them what you feel. And either your relationship will start to get real—well, no, let’s say that different. When you become real with them your relationship will become real, and then it will be what it needs to be. They might walk out of your life, or you might discover a whole new depth with them. So be real!

Now, there are times when the best thing to do is to simply walk away. You know this person is not going to change and they have their own opinions. Let them have their opinions, and just walk away! You do not have to change their opinions.

The only time to get in their face with what you feel is when it directly affects you. If they do something or say something that hurts, or that gets in your way in your life, well, tell them how you feel about it.

If they are just being obnoxious, if they are just telling you what they think of you, just walk away. You do not have to defend yourself.

Never, never defend yourself, because that gives them all of your power! Every time you defend yourself you give away your power to the other person, so don’t defend yourself. Just walk away. And if they are in your face and stopping you from something in your life, then tell them how you feel. Be real, and watch what happens.

If you feel like writing a letter, write it out and then see if you feel like sending it or not. Most of the time writing it out just helps you get clear, because this is really all about you anyway.

So, don’t let them walk on you. Tell them how you feel, when you need to.

Allow them to be them, when it doesn’t mean they are walking on you. And when it does, tell them. With as much anger as you feel.

But be real. Tell them how you feel, not about what they are doing wrong: When you did that, I felt this. When you do that, I feel this. Or, I feel hurt because…whatever it was. Make sure it is about how you feel, not about how they are wrong.

And remember, the person that you see is you. It is an avatar created by you to reflect that other person, but it is your energy. And whatever it is they are doing would not be affecting you if you were not participating. So that is the thing to look at: How am I participating in this?

One way you participate in it is by trying to avoid it, so be real. Feel into your heart, and be real.

Don’t be calm. Don’t be nice. BE. REAL.

Next question:

For quite some time now I’ve noticed that I’m experiencing rather more unexpected enjoyable encounters with some people. And then there are other encounters (usually with someone who always was rather “difficult” to deal with), which now can turn rather nasty, even. Could it be, that shining my light brings out the best in some, and the worst in others? And of course they are all part of me, aspects – but still… (my mind is quite at a loss – yet – understanding this whole situation ;-)).

Ha! Yes, your mind is quite at a loss, and it will continue to be. So, we strongly recommend that you take our new class, From Mind to Wisdom.

But in the meantime, yes, shining your light. Oh, some people see it and oh, they love it, and they are drawn to it. Other people see it and they are drawn to it, and they want to feed on it. And that is okay, for there is plenty to go around. Other people see it and they fear it. It lights them up. It shows them up, and they don’t like that. They are not ready for that. And that is okay too.

But yes, they will react in different ways, depending on where they are at. Your job is to simply be real!

And realize that yes, your mind is not going to understand this right away. And that is okay, because it is time to stop thinking about it so much and come back into your knowing.

Next question:

Thanks a lot for your support dear John, here is my question: [As Master John I say, you are welcome!] Does everybody has their own İam-space or is there a connection to an overall “one İam-ness”? If the latter, I would understood the “all energy is mine” principal much better.

İt would be also helpful to explain the perceiving of own reality with a short story which describes 2 entities in a situation and how they perceive this situation from there own energy/perspective.

You see, there is no way that we can truly answer this question in a way that the mind can understand. We would ask you, simply, to stop thinking. Stop the words in your head, and feel into your knowing.

Does it matter? No, it does not matter!

If there is some grand oneness out there, or that you came from, it is a way of seeing things. But it does not matter, because what matters right now is that you understand that you are the one and only creator of your experience. You are a sovereign being, no matter your origin. No matter the ultimate nature of reality.

The only nature of reality that matters right now is, you are sovereign, and everything in your experience is your energy.

Oh, the mind wants to know how that works. It wants to understand it. It wants to put all the parts and pieces together. But they do not fit! It is beyond the ability of the mind to comprehend, so stop the words in your mind. Call your mind back. Be the parent to your mind, for it is your creation.

Your mind is your creation, so you can say, Dear mind, let those questions go. Let those words go. Come back. Feel it. Feel my own sovereignty.

“Understanding” is a mind word. Your soul does not understand anything. It simply knows. And you are now living as Soul on Earth, so let go of the need to understand everything.

And this goes for all of you: Let go of the need to understand anything, and then you will start to discover your knowing. It is entirely different, and we go into much greater depth on that in our new class, From Mind to Wisdom.

So, feel it, dear friend.

You, your I Am, is sovereign. Everything that you experience is inside of you, and anything beyond that does not matter in the slightest.

It is all you! It is not somebody else. It is not some grand oneness that includes everybody else. It is YOU, so feel into that.

Next question:

In channel 6 it says “…it’s not clear yet what’s gonna happen, because it has never been done before…”. [We assume you are speaking of, as Soul embodies into human.] – Were Kuthumi’s 20+ years then not quite, what we’re doing now? Because Consciousness was not quite then what it is now (as Jeshua explains in his channel, about him not being able to do what we are doing now)?

Okay, it also says that the answer is (should be) there when a question is asked… – but then again, if we’d take that literally, why have a Q&A session, right ;-)).

Ha! Well, we have a Q&A session because you do not trust your knowing!

The mind is looking to understand, and it does not trust your knowing. And that is okay.

You DO have the answer. The answer is always there before you can even ask the question! You could not ask a question if the answer was not already there, but you do not trust the answer. So that is why we have a Q&A session, in the hope that, little by little, you will come to trust your own answer. And then you won’t have any questions anymore.

Hmm…

As for Kuthumi and others, well, the reference is to the fact that Kuthumi had his realization and stayed on Earth for another twenty years or so. He was one of the rare ascended masters that stayed here for any length of time after their enlightenment, or realization. Most of them just left. Because, well, the energies of Earth made it very difficult to stay, and they did not really have a reason to stay. But Kuthumi stuck it out for more than twenty years.

Did he do what we are doing? Partly, but we are going beyond even that. And the point in that channel is that we are going way beyond it, and we do not know yet how to explain that, or how to define it. And it never will be definable in a way that satisfies the mind, so step back from the mind trying to understand. It cannot.

There are no words that can accurately describe the true nature of life, so let it go! You know the true nature of life. You know the answer to these questions, otherwise you could not even have the questions. But you don’t trust it.

Part of that is because it is not coming in words. It’s coming in feeling, in simple knowing. So come back to that and let go of the need to understand and define life.

Next question:

“The one big thing to get over yet” feels like this: Mind doesn’t seem to quite trust Soul. [Indeed!] Even though it knows that there is no one to blame, that everything is our own creation, it feels “betrayed”, because of all the difficult experiences the human had, and has, to go through. That life does not “improve”, from the human perspective, but to just get more challenging. The (rather scarce) enjoyable experiences (for the human) are no comfort; they feel more like the carrot dangling in front of the donkey’s nose. “Trust your Soul!” – but how?, the mind asks. It cannot be ordered.

Are there any insights, or perspectives which have not been discussed yet, that might help?

Indeed. Ahh…

Well, we think it all comes down to your final statement there: The mind doesn’t trust Soul, and ‘it cannot be ordered.’

Well, who said? Who said that mind cannot be ordered?

That sounds like one of those parents who won’t tell their children what to do, because it might offend them or something, when the children are not old enough yet to know what to do. They end up spoiled and bitter and resentful, and oh, they are usually a lot worse off than the children who get told too much what to do!

Well, when you say your mind cannot be ordered, what you are really saying is, “My mind created me. I did not create my mind!”

Ha! You have it backwards!

YOU are the creator. YOU created your mind, and it is time for you to take ownership of your mind and to tell it what the truth is. Tell it what to do and how to behave.

It is like your child. In a real sense it is your child, because YOU created it.

Oh, and it is not some other being that somehow has freedom from you. No, that is you. That is NOT your mind.

Your mind is your servant. It is a part of you, a creation of you, by you, and it is time to put it back in that place.

When you do, you are going to find your mind relaxing. Just like a child relaxes and thrives when it has proper boundaries. When its parent tells it, lovingly, kindly, but firmly, “This is how life is. This is what you must do.”

Yes, you can order your mind, and it is time to do it. You don’t have to do it in a mean way. Do it kindly and with love, but with passion, with firmness, and you will find that, just like a child with proper boundaries thrives and relaxes, so will your mind.

It will take some time, because this is a really big and really old habit. It will take some time, but you will find your mind relaxing. And as it does, your body will relax too. Some of the pain will begin to fade away, because you, dear Soul, dear human and Soul, dear Master, are taking charge.

Right now your body hurts and your mind is confused, because you have jumped off your own ship! You are the master. You come back, and take your rightful place as the captain of your own ship!

Oh, the captain has to give orders. It must, otherwise the ship will never survive! It will never get where it is going.

So, you need to be the captain of your ship. You need to be the parent of your mind. The kind and loving parent, but the parent who is clear and firm. Who establishes kind and loving, but firm, boundaries. Who says to the mind, “You are no longer allowed to run down all those rabbit holes. You need to come back. You need to let me hold you. And you need to trust Soul.”

You see, it is not about whether your mind trusts Soul or not. It is whether YOU trust Soul or not. It is whether you, dear Soul, trust yourself or not!

And yourself is not your mind. Your mind is a creation of yourself. Your mind will do what you do, and when you trust your own self, then your mind will trust your soul.

Ahh…

Next question:

I don’t see the point in working as a DreamWalker Death Transition Facilitator anymore. I’m aware now that I would be dreamwalking avatars from my own energy. Furthermore the soul beings that they represent are sovereign beings. My contribution to mass-consciousness would be simply benching.

Oh, yes indeed! Yes indeed.

For those who may be taking this class and who are not familiar with these things, the Dreamwalker Death Transitions Facilitator program is something offered by the Crimson Circle organization. It is something we are involved with ourselves, and have been for much longer than the current human organization. But that is not the point.

Check out the Crimson Circle, crimsoncircle.com, if you want to know more about this program. But basically, it is a program of teaching people how to assist people who have died—who have crossed over to the other side, as you call it—and how to help them move on to their next step in life. For oh, life does not end when you die! So it is a beautiful, wonderful program.

And you, dear friend, are absolutely right. Even Adamus Saint-Germain, in a recent update to the class, said that right now it is better not to do so many dreamwalks for others, because you are dreamwalking yourself. You are in your own dreamwalk right now, while you are still in your body, and you need to be focused there.

So yes, benching: Sitting on a metaphorical park bench—it can be anywhere or look any way—sitting on a metaphorical park bench and enjoying life! Or sitting out in the woods, enjoying the birds singing.

What you are really doing is shining your light, and that is the greatest service that you can perform for humanity right now. Because that illuminates the potentials for everyone else, and that is what the world needs more than anything right now. The light of consciousness. The light of conscious people simply enjoying life!

Mmm… Next question:

I can feel my Soul as the player in this virtual reality physical game but I do not feel it as much in my dreams. Most seem to be two or three levels behind in the game. In some cases, I’m not even aware that it’s all my energy. Why?

Well, your dreams are simply your soul—ah, well, your soul exists in all these other realms and dimensions. It is so much more than what the mind is aware of, so sometimes your dreams are simply the experiences your soul is having. And very often right now, your dreams are the process of your soul bringing in the wisdom, bringing in the experiences from all of your lifetimes, and distilling the wisdom from them.

When you sleep, you turn off your mind for a little bit and you become a little bit aware of what your soul is doing, but only a little bit.

[John pauses]

Hmm… John is distracted because there are a few raindrops falling around us. But the sun is still shining, so we will see if we can get through this or not, without having to take a break and get out of the rain. Ha!

So, back to where we were. You become a little bit, a very little bit, aware of what your soul is doing in these other dimensions. And then you come back into the mind as you wake up, sometimes partly and sometimes fully awake, and you bring back what you think you saw. And your mind tries to interpret it, and it doesn’t make a lot of sense, because, well, your mind cannot comprehend what your soul is doing.

So we would say, don’t worry about your dreams and what is happening there. Just consider it as the wisdomizing process of taking all of those experiences and distilling the wisdom. When your mind observes it, it just sees those experiences coming in and it feels some of their energies, and it doesn’t know what to do with that. It doesn’t understand that the soul is taking those, distilling them, and collecting the wisdom. Oh, it’s a beautiful thing! But sometimes all the mind can feel are the old energies of those experiences.

So, we suggest you don’t get too caught up in your dreams right now. Don’t try to figure them out. Sometimes a dream comes in, and the moment you wake up you know exactly what it means. Well, trust that. But if you don’t have that knowing when you wake up, don’t worry about it. Don’t try to figure it out, because that is just the mind running down a rabbit hole.

So let go. Notice what it felt like, but do not take it as meaning anything, unless you simply know the meaning in that moment. Or maybe it will pop in later and you’ll go, “Oh, that’s what that dream was referring to!” But don’t try to make it mean something.

Most of your dreams right now do not have any meaning for your human life.

Well, they do have one meaning, and that is simply that you are closer to your soul. You are more aware of your soul, so you are more aware of what it is doing. But you are never going to understand it. Understanding is of the mind, and you are simply not going to understand it.

So, if there is a knowing in the moment, accept that. But otherwise, don’t worry about your dreams. Don’t get caught up in them. It’s a mind game.

Next question:

From channel 8: “… The mind goes: How can I change it then? (for ex., things in life I don’t like). – Dear mind, you can’t, but what you can do, is to be present in it…” – A few paragraphs earlier, Mother Mary says: “Life becomes whatever it is that your are aware of.” –

Huh?!? To the mind, this does not go together, it seems to be a contradiction.

Is there an explanation to help mind understand how this works in everyday life?

Ha! In this case, we love how you answered your own question! The mind does not understand, and it never will. Or if it does, it will be a while.

Hmm…

But you see, what Mother Mary said is absolutely right: Whatever you are aware of is what exists in your life.

The mind goes, “Oh, so I can change what exists in my life!” Well, your soul can. But you, dear mind, well, let’s say it this way: Have you ever tried to make your mind be aware of something? You can’t!

You say, “Mind, be aware of that new car in the driveway.” And your mind says, “What new car? All I see is that old clunker!”

You say, “Mind, be aware of my healthy new body.” And your mind says, “But this one hurts!”

The mind cannot be aware of something that does not already exist. But something cannot exist unless you are aware of it.

So there you go, again. The mind thinks that it is the big shot, that it is somehow the creator of your life. And it is not. It is a creation.

When you the soul become aware of something, it exists. But the mind can only be aware of what already exists.

So dear mind, let go. Step back.

And dear Soul…

We speak directly to the owner of this mind. And yes indeed, YOU are the owner of this mind, and do not argue with that!

…when you are aware of something, then it exists.

Hmm…

Next question:

If all is well in all of creation, what does it matter what happens with this planet?

Ah, indeed! And our answer is, not a damn thing!

It does not matter!

Oh, and this is a big key to your freedom. It does not matter what happens to this planet! And when you get that, you will be free.

Now, you care about what happens to this planet, because you have had some incredible experiences here. But you see, you are coming to a place where, oh, you can completely rewrite your past experiences. Oh, don’t ask the mind to understand that, for it is not going to.

Hmm…

You think that this earth is something real, that the history of this earth, this planet, is somehow real and set in stone. And it is not.

And more than that, there are billions and billions of earths all in the same space, each one created by one of you. That is how this “computer game” works, that we talked so much about in this class.

So yes, you care, and that is a beautiful thing. But ultimately, it simply does not matter.

None of this matters. It’s a game. It is all a game! It is all a game and the only thing that matters is, how do you choose to experience the end of your game? That is all.

Next question:

Dear John, thank you for the opportunity to ask a question. I hope you can understand my English. I also don’t know if I can ask such a personal question, I’ll just try:

Is there a connection between my not living my creativity and my bone marrow cancer? I feel a kind of trapped creativity inside me that on the one hand pushes and wants to get out (create full of joy, cheer, live), on the other hand is trapped in a constantly repeating circle. This tearing game is “eating” me (or my bones). I do not manage to step out of the circle … all attempts (to accept, to allow, to accept) fail.

Mmm…

Oh, indeed.

We will ask you, instead of trying to step out of this circle, to step into it.

Oh, don’t try to figure that out in your mind. Feel it.

Cancer. Well, you said it yourself. It’s eating you. Something inside of you, an old shame, an old regret, some old stuck energies, they are eating you from the inside out.

Mmm…

You cannot get rid of them. And the harder you try, the more it eats you.

We will ask you to breathe them in, instead.

Breathe in the cancer.

Wrap your arms around it.

Or better yet, wrap your arms around the part of you that feels ashamed, that feels regret, that is so angry. Oh, so angry!

Invite it in.

Wrap your arms around it.

Hold it tight.

It too is your child, your creation.

Wrap your arms around it.

It is part of you. Let it be, let it exist.

Love it.

Mmm…

Ask your mind to stop trying to figure it out.

No, don’t ask your mind. Tell your mind to stop trying to figure it out. It can’t. The mind is not going to understand what is happening.

This cancer, this old stuck energy, is here for a reason. Your mind is not going to understand that reason, but your soul knows the reason.

This is the time to surrender to your soul.

What is the worst that can happen?

Oh, we don’t mean to be flippant or disrespectful here, but the worst that can happen is that you die. And then you are free. Then you are free!

So be free now.

Be free enough to love, to accept—oh, the words are inadequate.

Be free enough to breathe the cancer in.

Do not try to figure out the energies that are underneath it. Don’t try to figure them out, for that is just a mind game that keeps you distracted from you.

Instead, just breathe it in.

Breathe it deep into your heart.

Wrap your arms around it.

Oh, wrap your heart around it!

The human goes, “Oh, won’t that give my heart cancer?”

No. No, it is a metaphor.

It is a metaphor for loving yourself like you have never loved yourself before.

Ask your soul to wrap its heart around this cancer.

Ask it to feel it with you. It already is, but when you ask it, it creates a new opening in you.

Breathe it in.

Allow it to be there.

Surrender it to your soul.

Let your soul manage your life.

Let go of the control.

Cancer is about cells in your body going out of control in a destructive way, and that happens because you are trying so hard to control them.

Let go of the control.

Ask your mind to be still, to let go of the words. To let go of the fixing.

Allow your soul to love you. All of you, including this part of you.

Mmm…

Breathe it in.

Next question:

Shining my light to help humanity access other potentials is great, but what about my own soul fulfillment? Just shining my light while continuing a mundane human life to pay bills without new, more soul-aligned experiences isn’t appealing to me. I feel like I’ve been ready, but in a holding pattern for years now. How/when will I have a transcendental experience so I can actually experience other realms (beyond mere theory) and become aware of my own potentials so I can exercise meaningful choices that will bring me more joy?

Ahh…

Well, we’ll just say it out: You have it backwards. You have it backwards.

Oh, this is something John had to learn in his own life, one of the hardest things he ever had to learn.

You see, you are spending your time waiting for a transcendental experience, so that you can make more meaningful choices. And it does not work that way.

When you make more meaningful choices in your life, then, oh, your job will change—or go away entirely, hopefully—and all the other circumstances in your life will change. And you might even have some transcendental experiences that confirm your choices, but they are not going to happen until you make those meaningful choices!

Hmm…

Oh, there are New Age teachers out there that say, “Oh, you can have it easier than that. You don’t have to choose, because it will all take care of itself!” Yes, well, it doesn’t work. Yes, it all takes care of itself, after you choose!

What experience do you want to have? Choose it, and then go have it, and then watch how your life changes. Yes, you might get fired from your job because you took the day off. Well, thank goodness and good riddance!

You might go bankrupt. You might—well, let’s just say it this way. Those bills that you are spending all of your energy trying to pay, they are not going anywhere until you choose a more meaningful life! You are just going to keep making new bills, and keep running through your life in debt and making up all these excuses to not live, and that is how your life is going to continue.

Until you say, I can’t do this anymore. No more! I choose to live! Maybe this will be the last day of my life. Maybe I’ll die because I’m not paying my bills or whatever, but I choose to live this day from my heart and from my passion!

And then you go and do it. And you do it every single day. And then you watch how life changes and how life supports you.

Oh, it will freak you out at first, because a whole lot of things are going to fall out of your life. Let them! They do not serve you anymore.

Maybe you will be embarrassed because you have to file for bankruptcy or something. It’s time to get over that.

It is time to get over that! Set yourself free, and then live free!

Oh, don’t get more credit cards. Throw them away if you can, because you won’t need them.

Live free! But choose it now, and then your life will change.

Because until you make those “meaningful choices,” your life will not change. It will keep on going down the same boring old path. So make the choices.

Yes, it’s scary. It’s terrifying! It terrified John when he was going through that. But oh, make the choices. And watch what happens.

It will take time. It will take patience. But make the choices and LIVE today, because that is the only way that you can change your reality.

Oh, and if you want joy in your life, make those choices. Those choices you know to make but are terrified of making, make them. Live them today, and you will start to feel that joy.

Hmm…

Next question:

It has been written about human beings without souls, what is really true on that subject or has it been another of many lies.

If true, what can be explained about it?

Thank you so much.

Well, yes indeed, there are human beings who do not have a soul like you have. Because, you see, you are a creator. Your soul is a creator, and you are your soul, so it is entirely possible for you to create—to breathe your consciousness into—a body.

You can do it with a statue. You can do it with anything. You can breathe your consciousness into it and have it literally come alive. It is possible and many have done it, because you are a creator.

Well, it is also possible for a group of beings to get together, and for each to take a bit of their consciousness and breathe it into a human body that is then birthed onto Earth. That is what happened with Jeshua. You call him Jesus.

People call him the Son of God. Well, God is you. He called himself the son of man, because he was literally the creation of a group of humans. And most of you here, if not all, are part of that group that created him.

He is not a souled creator being like you. Well, we are not going to get into the technicalities of this, because that is just a mind game, and the mind is not ever going to fully understand. And it doesn’t need to. Just feel it. Feel into your own knowing.

And yes, there are others. We are not going to get into who and all the details about them. But the answer to your question is yes, there are a few people walking around on Earth that are not souled beings like you are. Or in another sense they are, but they are a group soul, a soul made up of the consciousness of a group of people.

So, next question. Last question:

While I know that I am slowly opening up and allowing the depth of this beautiful, new experience, many times I also feel that I am caught in an infinite loop of reality designed by my anti creator mind. This can be very challenging at times, do you have any advice or words of wisdom that you could share with me about this?

Thank you!!!

Hmm…

Yes indeed, it is the human condition, feeling trapped by this anti-creator mind. We will invite you, once again, to check out our new class, From Mind to Wisdom.

And yes, the human feels trapped in this endless cycle, because in a way, it is. It is how human life works, but you are no longer trapped there. But in order to get out, you have to first be there.

Go into it, but go into it with your soul.

Your soul is you, but you have had this wall up between you and your soul for so long. You are taking that wall down now—you called it a veil—but go into this experience with your soul. And, like we were just saying to the other question, make your choices now.

You keep going through the same old cycle because you are not choosing a new experience. You are saying, “Oh, I can’t stand this experience! I want a new one!” But you never choose the new one.

You’re going, “I can’t stand this job! I want something else, something more fulfilling, in my life!” And yet you keep going to work every day.

Hmm…

Oh, indeed, you are afraid that you can’t pay your bills. What will happen if you can’t pay your bills?

Well, it’s time to find out. It is time to make the choice to do something fulfilling today, without regard for the future. That is how your life begins to change.

The energies of life—they are all you—they see that, and they jump into action to support that!

But you will never see it beforehand. You will never see how, beforehand. You have to take the plunge. You have to make the choice.

If you can’t stand your job, walk away from it. Because until you do, you are being a prostitute. You are prostituting yourself. You are selling yourself, and that is never going to feel fulfilling. Ever.

That doesn’t mean you can’t do something that you get paid for. Not at all! But when you are doing something you don’t like doing just because you have to pay the bills, you are prostituting yourself. So stop it!

If you want your life to change, you have to change it. Literally, physically, change it.

That means, when you wake up in the morning you think, What do I want to do today?

You don’t think, What do I have to do? Or, What should I do?

You think, What do I WANT to do today? If this was the last day of my life, what would I want to do with this day? And then you DO THAT. And then you watch your life change.

At first, it’s going to be terrifying. Because, well, all those things that are no longer compatible with you are going to fall away, and the human is going to freak out. But which is better: to have a few moments of terror, or a lifetime of misery and boredom? You choose. It is up to you.

But when you are ready for your life to change, you get up in the morning and you say, What do I WANT to do with my life today? If this were the last day of my life, how would I want to live it? And then you do that. And then you do that every single day.

Ha! Oh, your life will change. You will no longer be in a rut, and somehow it will all work out. If you let it.

Most people, they try it for a day or two and things start falling apart, and they panic. And they go back into the rut.

Hmm…

The ones who see it through, oh, their life changes. It becomes amazing and wonderful!

That doesn’t mean there aren’t challenges. It doesn’t mean your body won’t hurt sometimes.  It doesn’t mean that it’s all peaches and cream, as they say. But you will discover the joy in your life!

But not until you make the choice, and make it real. Not until you live it.

So, how do you want to spend the rest of this day? Are you going to spend it on the same old path? Or are you going to try something new, maybe take a little detour and see how it feels?

Ahh…

Indeed, life becomes whatever it is that you perceive.

It is not possible to decide in the mind what you are going to perceive, because the mind can only perceive what already exists. That is why it is time to become the parent of your mind. Your mind is trying so hard to figure out, “How do I change my perception and see the things that I want in my life instead of the things that are there?”

Well, it cannot do it. It never will be able to do it, so give it up. Tell your mind to give it up.

Your soul, oh, it can perceive so many different things. But it is not going to bring those things into your life, as long as you are walking down that old, boring path.

You see, it gave you freedom and it respects your choices, and as long as you are putting off your choices until life gets better, well, it respects that choice. And life will never get better that way, ever, ever.

But when you make a choice that says, I don’t see how this can possibly work out, but I am going to do it because it calls to my heart, because it is what I feel and it is what I want to do! And then you go and do it, oh, your soul gets so happy.

The energies of your life get so happy! They say, “Finally, something new! Something for us to engage in, in a whole new way!”

Hmm…

And suddenly there are new things coming into your life, in ways that your mind can perceive.

So, make your choice. If you don’t like your life the way it is, live something different!

Don’t think about it, just do it. Live something different. It doesn’t matter if it is right or wrong, or if you do it right or if you do it wrong. It does not matter!

If your car is parked, you cannot steer it. You have to get it in motion. You have to try something, something new, and then your soul will steer. And your new life will begin.

Ahh…

It has been our pleasure, our honor, and a lot of fun to answer all these questions! Oh, John is getting a little tired, but he is doing fine too. He’s still having fun.

So, we will return soon for our final channel of this class. Oh, John can’t even imagine what we are going to talk about, and it seems to him like this might be a good place to end it. But no. We promised a final wrap-up channel, and we are going to do that. And we will let it be a surprise, even for John!

So, until then, make some choices.

And please, take ownership of your mind. Stop letting it run your life. It belongs to you, you do not belong to it.

It exists to serve you, to follow your orders, so honor it enough to give it some.

Hmm…

And so it is.

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