Divinity In Experience

Session 5

Channeled by John McCurdy during a live Zoom session on September 13, 2023

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into what is being said.

Thank you to Chris Vandermeer for preparing this transcript!

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John: Let’s go ahead and start.

And I always lose my words right at this point, so I guess let’s go with the music, Chris, and see what Master Anna has to say.

[music plays]

Master Anna: Mmm…

I am that I am!

Master Anna, of Magical Service.

Oh, John was freaking out there for a minute and asking, “Where are you, Soul?”

And I said, “I’m right here. It just feels a little different today, and that’s a good thing.”

So, here we are!

Welcome, each of you. Welcome, all of you who will be listening in or reading this later. You are all here in one way or another. Your energies are felt. Your consciousness is adding to this.

So, how was your three weeks since our last gathering? How was your Divinity in Experience?

Chris: Well, I’m going to share. In the last three weeks I definitely had some of my deepest, deepest fears coming to the surface in really intense ways. Fears of conflict, fears of being violated, like boundary violations. So there’s no more playing small. That came up in the last three weeks, and it was extremely intense and freeing. And then, on the other side of that, I can feel the angelic energy system sort of crystallizing, solidifying around the spine, so it’s a lot easier to feel into other realms as well. That happened after the fears. I mean, it’s always been happening, but it’s in a much more tangible way at the moment.

I’ve been feeling into the whole receiving thing, which is funny because when I first started feeling into receiving it felt like I was receiving something from someone else or something from outside of myself. Like I’m supposed to receive a gift from Adamus, or I’m supposed to receive, like, this… Do you know what I mean?

I was just still looking for energy outside of myself a little bit and then I lay there and I realized that yeah, there’s no more playing small and there’s no more pretending that it’s outside of ourselves, at the moment, and to receive it is just to admit to yourself that it’s all within you.

Yeah, and that you have to be worthy. It’s really a worthiness issue for me, I would say, the difference between receiving and not receiving is just worthiness. If I don’t believe that I’m worthy, the energies and my own presence doesn’t come through. And then I think I need to do something, I need to stuff around with yoga, or whatever, you know? It’s much simpler than that at the moment.

Yeah, that’s been a brief summary of the last three weeks.

Master Anna: Thank you!

Lisa.

Lisa:So, my three weeks, in the waking state, has been pretty uneventful, you know, boring actually, in fact. You know, just going to work and dealing with work, and I guess I’m grateful there’s been no upheavals on that front.

But in my dream state, lots of stuff happening. I’m experiencing a lot of unsettledness and disturbances in dreams, and I wake up in the morning sometimes or in the middle of the night from a dream and I shake my head and I’m like yelling at Adamus, like why am I still going through this? You know?

But then I heard a video the other day by the Kryon, and he sort of mentioned that right now you may be experiencing a lot of activity in your dream state, and the reason is because these issues are surfacing and it’s the last time you’re going to deal with it.

So you have to revisit those experiences again, feel them, even if it’s for a few seconds or two minutes in your dreams, and then you’re done with them.

So, you know, this has just been my question all along. I mean, how do we know when we are ever at the end of that process? Because there could be thousands of lifetimes that we’re clearing, and we don’t have any scorecard on any of this, so it could go on indefinitely! And so that’s been sort of my three weeks, but I will pepper it with this:

Just in the last couple of days I’ve been getting glimpses of complete mastery, you know, feeling like the complete master. And even just yesterday, sitting in my office, looking around at everybody and thinking, I created all of this. I own It, and I’m fully owning everything that I’m experiencing now, and I’m really feeling like the master. I’m stepping really into that.

Oh, and by the way, because my office is down at the World Trade Center, this week has been crazy with the 9/11 memorial services, so I’ve been sort of surrounded by that kind of energy as well.

But yeah, so it’s been kind of up and down, but the dreams have been pretty intense. Like scary stuff, you know, happening, like disturbing things, and I’m pissed off at somebody or somebody’s chasing me or somebody’s killing me or it’s not, you know, peaceful dreams.

But anyway, that’s been my three weeks.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Silvia?

Silvia: Hi everyone. My three weeks were very intense, very intense. I experienced everything.

You don’t mind if I close my eyes, right?

Master Anna: Whatever makes you comfortable.

Silvia:I feel like more deeply with myself, so that’s why I’m closing my eyes.

So, the three weeks were very intense. I experienced everything. It’s like going in the roller coaster, going up and then down, up and down. I experience bliss. I experience despair. But also, what I noticed is that I am more aware of my energy, my surroundings, as owning that everything is my creation. It makes a big difference.

I’m aware of my feelings, and I’m aware of my thoughts more, and that allows me not to fight it. I allow them to be present just by being aware.

And what I noticed also is the energy. Energy around me is more flowing.

When I am on the top, everything is flowing without me doing anything. But there is a part that I need to do stuff, and everything is flowing and I am able to finish a lot during the day.

So it’s incredible how, even in my ups and my downs, energy is serving me.

Master Anna: Indeed.

Silvia: And I just integrated some aspects. Or even if I don’t integrate them, I feel them. I notice them now.

Master Anna: And that’s all it takes.

Silvia: Even my accent when I’m speaking, I have a different accent, like, wow accent from England! Oh!

That’s all that I know. I don’t need to know more.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Monica?

Monica: Yeah, I can say to everything what you already have mentioned, yes, I have experienced everything too, and also ups and downs, a lot of dreams, very deep fears. I was also confronted again with my deepest fears and what has [garbled] changed. Clearly in the last few days, also the receiving, and more and more I’m aware that this is not coming from outside. And even if it’s something uncomfortable, that it is a gift and I gift myself with this.

I had yesterday an unexpected visit by the dentist, and this is horror for me on a human level. And this is confronting me with totally deep fears. And at the end I could recognize that this was a gift to myself, that I could feel that all, go through everything. And yeah, it feels even joyful to have experienced that I have gifted me with this. But I can’t tell you how it is the next time!

And also, I had some experiences on a personal level or business level. This started like a drama. For example, I ordered something and thought afterwards, Oh, was this really good that I have ordered that? And I had to pay it already in advance. And then this parcel got lost, was not delivered for three weeks now. Nobody knew where this parcel is, and everything has dissolved together with my order. In one hour it came out that this parcel was damaged and the company, the delivery company, has refunded me the money.

So, all was wonderfully well created! And like this, I had several experiences what looked first like I have done something wrong, and then I did not involve myself into the drama too much. I tried to stay outside and just observe what is happening, and at the end it was something totally positive for me. And this was very special the last three weeks.

So, divinity is in inaction!

Master Anna: Ahh… Divinity in experience is not the rose garden we dreamed of, but it’s amazing!

Monica: Yeah, it’s amazing.

Master Anna: Anything you would like to add Romana?

Romana: Yeah. Hello everybody!

For me these last few weeks were about, like, it felt for several months, or even half a year, like everything is kind of standing still and things are mostly happening inside, but now it just feels like everything started.

Like, I can hardly breathe of all these beautiful projects that are coming in and beautiful ideas.

And last time when you had your session here three weeks ago I wanted to join, but I went to the mountain and my soul told me, “Just get ready, because you will really have to open up to all this energy, because it’s going to be so much to receive!”

And so she wanted, my soul wanted, to make sure I’m not going to freak out or become afraid, but to really be courageous enough to show up for all these beautiful opportunities that are coming in.

And so, yeah, for me it was, of course, this is terribly scary! But on the other hand, it just feels… It’s who I am. And finally I have to come out in who I am also in public, in creativity, in this new workshop we have with John together.

So I’m kind of thrilled in a way, but I’m saying yes. I’m saying yes to all of that, and sometime I realized that receiving is about being courageous to say yes, because it’s always there. But so many times we are pushing on the breaks. And so this is receiving, and sometimes it’s so intense that my body cannot handle it. And that’s going to be a question for later: how to deal with it, how the nervous system can easier deal with all this flow of receiving that is happening.

Master Anna: Mmm… Thank you.

Thank you, each of you!

Chris, did you get a chance to find the questions that John put in the folder for you?

Chris: Sure did.

Master Anna: Okay, we will come back to those. But John was just remembering that he didn’t tell Chris that there were questions in his folder. So, we will come back to those.

Mmm…

Ahh, indeed, it’s been a wild and crazy ride!

Some people have blamed it on the seven planets that have been in retrograde. Maybe it’s down to six now, we’re not sure. We don’t track those too much. But it’s an intense time, no matter how you look at it!

Oh, John has been feeling it, and of course Romana.

Oh, and I’m so excited because we’re going to have this workshop together! An in-person workshop with myself and Master Aniya, dear Romana’s soul.

And oh, Romana and I have worked together many times before, in many different ways, and we are going to have an incredible time! And it does bring up the fears in both of them, but we are going to have a great time!

Ahh…

And indeed, receiving. Receiving divinity!

Somebody asked a question a couple sessions back about, shouldn’t this divinity be light?

But divinity is everything. It includes the dark. It includes the chaos. It includes what the human sees as challenges or failures. It includes all of that. And here we are, living it. Experiencing it all in a whole new way.

And no, it’s not always light and airy. It’s not always easy.

Well, it is if you let it be, but to the human who tries to take responsibility for the problems and the challenges, then it gets hard. Because they are not the human’s responsibility.

The human’s responsibility is simply to have the experience to do what’s in front of you to do it right now, and sometimes it hurts. But always, always, when you let it, it always serves you. It always integrates something. It takes you to a deeper place. It brings in new clarity. It brings in a deeper connection with your own soul, with your own divinity.

Mmm…

So, for those of you present here, are there any questions right now? Anything you would like to bring into the conversation?

Lisa, then Sylvia.

Lisa: So, new energy. How do we experience that?

If our energy serves us based on our awareness, our consciousness level and expectations, how can we expect something we’ve never experienced before?

So, I wrestle with that a little bit and, you know, wake up, go about my day, everything seems the same, nothing really feels different, but yet it does feel eerily different, but yet nothing I can sink my teeth into. And I wonder if that’s the best it’s going to get? Like, all of these subtle shifts that really don’t culminate in any different experience that we can actually say, “Yeah, this was worth it. This is what, you know, we worked so hard for.”

I’d like to understand, if you are able to elaborate a little bit on that, to speak to that a little bit.

Master Anna: It’s a good question. It’s a question John has been asking himself a lot, asking me a lot.

How do we—because so much of our life, so much of the human life is, is just a continuation of what came before, because that’s what you are used to.

It’s one of the reasons we built death into the system, so you could have a chance for a reset. A chance to forget. A chance to come in and try it a different way. Because all those habits, in this lifetime they are so ingrained. Habits of patterns, of expectations. We’ve talked about this in several of our last sessions, and it’s a question that we’re still finding our way through, even at the soul level. How do we help the human make this shift?

Mmm…

One thing that is always a good idea is to pay attention if there is anything in your life that you are wanting to change, that isn’t feeling good anymore, or something that’s calling you that you just don’t have time for, and to actually make those shifts.

John calls it stepping off the cliff, because that’s what it’s felt like quite a lot of times in his life. And we know all of you have experienced that, where you come to this place where you can’t quite see what’s next, but you know that something has to change and you just can’t keep doing what you’ve been doing. And it is so important to trust those moments.

You look ahead of you and it’s like, “But if I do that, all I can see is all those rocks down there at the bottom below the cliff!”

Romana, was there something you were wanting to say?

Romana: Yeah. I didn’t really have something I want to say, but yeah, I actually was feeling that in my experience I can feel so much beauty, so much magic coming in. And I feel it’s as you said, being really, really, really sensitive on what doesn’t feel good.

And being honest with that, like we talked last time, about your question, Lisa, that you had last time about, What’s the difference between when you are resisting some change or when you are not having clarity because the clarity is not there yet?

And I feel, being honest in this question with myself in the last years, or maybe, I don’t know, it’s even more, and it’s more and more subtle. It’s about really listening to my body, what doesn’t feel good and what feels good, and following the joy. That’s, for me, such an important thing, to really follow the joy and to trust the joy, and even if it feels totally irrational, it brings so much magic in life.

And there is more. I believe that our life—and this is my experience—our life is to be magical and to be joyful, and to me, this is about honoring my heart. It’s about honoring what I really want, questioning this myself, “What do I really feel? What really feels good. And talking with my heart: What can I do for you?”

When I feel like my heart is just in this gray area, how can I open myself more?

And if I would be asked this question that you asked I would say: Yeah, there is much more, and we are opening to it.

And it’s this feeling of magic and expansion, and allowing ourselves to be like children, like joyful and not asking if it’s allowed, if this is clever, if this is responsible.

I’m so much allowing myself to lay down the responsibility. I feel like I was so much, in so many lifetimes, so burdened with this responsibility. For the world, for humanity, for my family. Or even now, so many times I find that when I allow myself to just come in this place of worrylessness, there’s just so much opens and so much new sense of divinity comes in.

It’s just kind of stepping out of this role of adult, and what is spiritual and what is not, and what is conscious, and all this bullshit. Yeah, I feel so much lightness comes in when I just think in that way.

Lisa: Can I just respond? I just want to say that what I’m distinctly noticing is that I cannot allow myself to suffer anymore. There’s a barometer, there’s a bottom line where I’ve hit, where I won’t go beneath it anymore. So, even if somebody’s doing something that would ordinarily piss me off, or something happens, I immediately go into, “Nope, not hitting my bubble!”

And I don’t let myself go to any ugly place as a result of it, and I know that’s my choice. So that’s a really distinctive thing I’ve noticed shifting in myself, that I can’t, I won’t, even experience suffering anymore. I can’t go there anymore.

I recognize that there are people that are going to do things. I’m just going to have to deal with human stuff that, on the outside, is going to look like, you know, how did you not get pissed about that? It rolls off my back. So I’m better because of that. I’m better at responding to the energy.

I could see myself responding to negativity in a way that brings the other person up. And I can see and feel the magic of that, sometimes, when the person that I’m interacting with feels something, but they don’t know what. I can almost see that happening.

So it’s an interesting, you know, weaving in and out of these experiences, and how you are with other people, and how you’re dealing with life.

You know, I go back to Chris’s brilliant metaphor from the last session about the dam of divinity behind us that’s waiting to just rush in, and my chief frustration is that I have no inspiration to do anything yet. Yet I know that dam is there.

So I’m still continuing to exist as a lawyer in New York City. There’s no reason for me to quit my job because there’s no nothing I’m dying to do, there’s no opportunity that’s presented yet. But I’m ready for it when it shows up. I know that for sure.

So, yeah, I mean, as long as this job, as a matter of fact, is easy, like I’m sitting here right now in a fish bowl with coworkers out there looking at me thinking I’m on a work call, and you know, as long as this job is easy and they want to pay me, I’m fine. I have no reason to just up and go, even though this doesn’t bring me a lot of joy to continue to pretend I like lawyering. But I do know that I have to be out there in the world. It gets me up, otherwise I just sit in my apartment and drink wine.

So, until I’m inspired… But I’m definitely noticing my interactions with people and how I cannot allow myself to suffer. Like the minute this job gets—if somehow somebody comes to me and says, “We want you to take on all this other responsibility,” nope, not happening. I’m not going there. As long as this job remains easy I’m good with it, because I won’t suffer. I won’t play those games anymore.

So, I definitely noticed that, so I’ll shut up now.

Master Anna: Yes, our question for you would be, it’s a wonderful thing to not suffer, but in that, are you holding yourself down? Like we felt in your question, there’s this feeling of, “Yeah, I’m not suffering anymore, but I’m not really going anywhere either. I’m not really soaring, either.” And that’s not necessarily a bad place. It’s a step up, but is that where you want to be?

And sometimes it’s necessary to just make a change of some kind, even if it’s to take a little trip or something, to stir up the energies and see where they land with you. And to see what new inspirations show up in just changing your environment, even for a short time. Like a weekend trip or a weeklong vacation, or whatever, just to stir things up. It helps the new energies to come in, because if you’re kind of there…

Something we noticed with John, he can be very comfortable sitting at home doing his website stuff and just kind of being comfortable, and every once in a while we need to shake him up a little bit and get him to go out.

Romana is good at that, getting him to go out and feel some different energies, and it helps to bring those new energies, it helps to bring some of them in. Because if you’re just sitting—I mean, it’s good to be comfortable, but if you’re just sitting in the same place all the time, sometimes they have a hard time finding you.

Lisa:I hear you on that, and the second I’m inspired to get up and do something, I’m on it, believe me.

Master Anna: And the other side of it is just to trust the process, because it is a process. It’s an intense, incredible process that you are going through right now, that the human can’t really see.

And so, just trust that. Be ready when the inspirations show up for something to do, but trust the process in the meantime. Trust the flow.

Sometimes when you’re floating on a river, sometimes it goes through these long stretches. It might flow into a lake and it’s very slow for a while, and then all of a sudden it falls out the other side on a waterfall and you’re wondering what’s happening. So trust that flow, because it is happening.

The new energies are coming in, for all of us. For all of you they are coming in, and each in your own unique way. So trust it.

And if you don’t have an inspiration to go out and do something different, then trust that too.

Lisa: Thank you.

Master Anna: Indeed, thank you.

I believe Silvia had a question.

Silvia: Yes, I do. I just want to know, even in the dreams we are still integrating. Are we?

Master Anna: Yes.

Silvia: Not necessarily has to happen on the conscious level.

Master Anna: Right. Yes, much of it is happening in the dreams. Much of it.

Silvia: Well, lately I haven’t dreamed anything. I don’t remember my dreams lately, but when I do they are very intense, very vivid. I’ve been feeling, noticing, aspects coming in and out, in and out. And I said, Oh, wow!

Okay, so that’s the difference from the new and the old energy. It’s like when you are a child, I’m going put this example. When you are a child, mother chooses everything for you. What to wear, what kind of shoes, what to eat, everything.

The new energy now is different because now you choose what to experience. And once you choose, is when the energy responds. If you don’t choose it, nothing happens. It stays calm. So right now, I’m in a project that I chose to do. I didn’t want to for several years. It’s been there. It’s been there waiting. But I said, “Okay, it’s kind of confusing because it’s something that my husband and I, we create.” And I was just blaming on him.

Now it’s his stuff. It’s his stuff, he has to do it. And then I realized that everything that I see in my world is my energy. So I decided to start. When I decided to do that project, energy moves. Even he was just waiting for me to take the decision and move the energy and start doing the project.

So we are doing that, and to my surprise… Before, in the old energy, it was a lot of fighting between him and me, and I want this and he wants this. But now it’s kind of like we find the tolerance, not even the tolerance now, because we have an understanding of where we are going and everything flows.

So, going back to the dreams. I’ve been feeling in conscious, my aspects, my patterns, my habits, and I say, oh, ah, oo! It’s a big clarity, a realization, because those patterns, those habits, those feelings, were creating my life. Sometimes even in a loop, same, same, same, same.

Now that I am noticing that, I think that that’s enough. Just by noticing, it changed. And I was surprised, because that would be easy, just to integrate by dreams.

Master Anna: Yes, and the dreams are part of the integration process, and it doesn’t matter if you remember them or not. They’re happening all the time, even when you are awake. Your soul is integrating all these things, and if there’s something you need to feel as a human, your soul will bring it in and show it to you.

Silvia: Thats the difference! Oh, I see. Ah, another realization! Thank you.

Master Anna: Indeed.

Any other questions or sharings?

Silvia:Yes, another question: When are you coming to United States?

Master Anna: [laughing] Good question! We’ll let you know.

Silvia:Let me know. My house. I would like to go to the class that you are offering, but I’m in the middle of this project that is going to take a few months, and I would like to go there too, in person. So that’s easy if you come here!

Master Anna: [laughing] Yes, we’ll see where it takes us all.

Silvia: I’ll wait until then.

Master Anna: What else?

Monica, anything?

Monica: Not really a question. I just have recognized again Adamus said once you can measure the level of consciousness also by the joy. And yeah, my joy is in a small place at the moment. Yeah, there are glimpses of joy, but not the big joy.

Yeah, it’s more a recognition than a question.

Master Anna: Joy is often associated with happiness and excitement, but it doesn’t necessarily mean that. Something John has discovered in the last few years is that, oh, he’s often been accused by people of being too serious and whatever. But he’s noticed that in the last few years, he’s not all, you know, thrilled and excited all the time, but there’s something underneath. There is a ground underneath that joy is really the only word that describes it, even though it’s not the way the human usually describes it.

It’s like this knowing underneath everything that goes, “Ah, it’s just an experience. There’s something deeper, and I know underneath everything that I’m okay, even when the human is freaking out and feeling whatever it feels.”

Can you relate to that?

Monica: Yeah. Perhaps I have the idea… I had once a time that I felt such a sweetness in me, like honey. It was just a basic sweetness. I was okay with everything that was happening in my life. And then this disappeared again, and this never came back. So constantly and, yeah, it’s perhaps this that I’m looking for again.

And perhaps this is holding me away to experience it, because I would like to experience it again. Because it was so, yeah, I was swimming in honey non-stop.

Master Anna: Mmm…

Maybe it was that…

Hmm…

Sometimes the human gets tastes of that amazing beauty. Bbut there’s still the other side, the darkness, and that’s where you also find your divinity. And it’s about trusting that. Trusting that even where you are right now, even with everything you’re feeling right now, that is still there. That part of you is still there.

Monica: Yeah. Perhaps I can’t accept everything what is happening in my life. I can feel, it’s a sadness.

Master Anna: Indeed. There’s lots of sadness among among Shaumbra right now. Lots of sadness.

John feels it often, because there’s so much that is falling away. You are dying. We are all dying, in a very real way. We are losing the mass-consciousness human, and that is a death. Even though we’re doing it different this time, we are doing it through a transformation, it is still a death. And there’s a lot of grief in that. A lot of sadness. So much of you is dissolving away, and there is a lot of sadness in that.

Monica: Yeah, that’s why I have sometimes a question mark. Because I had this sweetness already in my life, and this feeling from honey, and it’s like a loss. Like I have lost it, even I know I can’t lose it. But it’s a long time since, counted by years.

And at the moment I have the feeling the sadness is going worse and worse, the trauma thoughts are still the same as ever. Yeah, I’m waiting. Or I want now this change. I have enough.

Master Anna: Can you be in the sadness, the experience of the sadness?

Just be in it?

It’s a river. It’s this river of life that we’ve been talking about. Adamus has talked about it. This river of life is carrying you, and right now it’s carrying you through this sad place. Can you just allow that to happen? Allow it to carry you through?

It will.

It’s a very common thing for people to have—uh, what do they call them? These intense experiences of enlightenment, or of realization, where they feel life in a whole new way for a short time. It gives them a glimpse of where they are going to, and then it’s gone, because they still have to get there through all of these experiences and integrations.

Monica:Yeah, this is many years since, and the human idea was to get back there faster.

Master Anna: But the way back, is in.  Into what is, right now.

Into the experience.

Monica: Yeah, it’s in. [laughing] Yeah, the mind is mixing it up.

Master Anna: So go into whatever the experience is right now. That’s what takes you there.

Monica: Thank you very much, that I could share.

Master Anna: Romana?

Romana: I don’t have anything really to say, but I feel what you said now, it’s just so important to embrace all the feelings, all the darkness inside. I feel like in this enlightenment journey we are so grasping for feeling good, for feeling joy and to feel this sweetness, and when we have the taste of it, it’s almost the next step is depression, because we are comparing every experience with what we experienced.

But I feel that what we are learning now is to have this ultimate compassion for ourselves in all our forms, in all the sadness, all the shame, all these terrible fears that are coming up. And sometimes we tend to feel like, “Oh, I feel I’m going backwards. I’m so disappointed. I’m supposed to be enlightened already and dance from joy and all these things, and look at me.”

But I feel now, it comes this moment when I have to be compassion. “Yeah, that’s me, and I need me. And I can love myself with all these feelings, with all this boredom, or whatever is there.” And this love that I feel is starting to bring the sweetness back, I feel.

That’s all.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Silvia?

Silvia: When I was going through that part, sadness in me, I just want to mention this because that helps me a lot.

Just by listening to your videos, it’s like listening myself. And I release a lot, and I cry with your videos, and really it is so touching what you are doing with us. Thank you. I just want to comment that.

Master Anna: Ahh. Thank you!

Silvia:It really felt like it was myself talking to myself.

Master Anna: Thank you.

Chris, let’s bring in those couple of questions from the others. Just start with the first one.

Chris: Fantastic, question one:

“I’m not sure why my impulse on humour in the last session was misunderstood. It was NOT about denying challenges, or about life always having to be easy. Let me try again to explain what I mean, hopefully more clearly:

“To me, true Humour (capital H) is NOT being witty, making jokes, or having fun, let alone, making fun of… – True Humour is very deep AND very light at the same time.

“It helps experiencing challenges from a different perspective, so the pain, which the human attributes to it, may be relieved, at least to a certain degree. I’d even call Humour a Divine quality: It helps transform reality, the way it is experienced by the human, into something light, and joyful.

“Or, as I put it: Humour lightens up everything. Humour helps to transcend, to go beyond. Humour finds the light even in the dark. It puts the sparkle back into the human’s eyes, when they are filled with tears, it puts lightness into the heart. Humour is like a magic wand… –

“Hmmm…. –

“Okay, so I’ve been rather serious about this just now – but, well, it’s kinda hard to send in humour, dear Anna (smile), since it usually arises from the present situation, and often, it is very subtle. One can open up to it, and receive it – to be experienced, right in life.”

Master Anna: Hmm…

Indeed, we couldn’t agree more, dear one who sent in the question.

And we wouldd add simply that humor is also something that comes from inside. If you are feeling humorous inside, you are going to feel humor in everything. And if you’re not, you are not even going to feel whatever humor is there.

So we would invite you to look inside you for the humor that you are seeking in this class. Find it inside you.

Humor is something that does not come on demand. Sometimes it’s there and sometimes it’s not, but mostly it’s in your own perception. And that is something you have to feel on the inside before you are going to see it anywhere on the outside.

So, we will leave it at that for now. Next question.

Chris: Question two:

“We all go through different challenges, and I wonder if there are any specific reasons, why some seem to have more physical issues (pain, illness, accidents), others more emotional ones (relationships, family issues, etc.), some more in their private lives, some more in the work area.

“I’d guess it has to do with individual experiences in our incarnations, or if we had more or less lifetimes, therefore maybe more ingrained patterns of a certain kind? And there is probably more to it. Could you give some background information on this topic?

“- Thank you.”

Master Anna: You answered your own question, again.

It’s all of that.

Every person’s journey is unique. It’s different, because each one of you are creators. You’ve been creating—even though you’ve connected your creation, much of your creation, into the mass-consciousness pattern, you have still done it your own way.

So everybody has their own patterns, their own issues, their own aspects and their own relationship with them, and they all affect the body in different ways.

You said it quite well yourself, that they are all different, and we can’t define it further than that. But each one of you have your own experiences, and your own patterns that you’ve created largely as a result of those experiences, and now you are changing that. You are breaking down all these patterns and disconnecting from the master pattern, you could call it.

We call it mass-consciousness, for that is the master pattern of human life and of your body, and in a sense you are tearing yourself away from it, and it hurts, often, for most people. Others have a much different experience, sometimes easier, sometimes harder, sometimes in many different ways. But it is your own experience, and it’s better not to get into trying to define it or trying to figure out why.

In fact, we recommend you take the word “why” out of your vocabulary. It might be useful for certain very limited technical situations in life, but for the most part it’s a useless question.

It’s a mind question that always ends up confusing you, because the only answer to “why” is another mind answer.

So we would say, stop asking why, and just feel.

Have, receive, the experience!

That is so much what it’s all about right now.

There is no “why” in receiving.

There is no, “Where did this come from?” in receiving.

It’s just opening up, and receiving.

Having the experience that you are having.

Receive it!

It doesn’t need defined. It doesn’t need a reason. It’s just what’s here right now, and it needs to be received because it’s part of you.

It’s your own energy. Just receive it.

Trust, in the moment. Sometimes you’ll have an inspiration to do something, sometimes you won’t.

Receive it.

Receive it!

Stop trying to figure it out. Stop asking why.

Stop trying to find the reasons, or the aspects behind it.

Hmm…

Most of you have taken the Aspectology class from the Crimson Circle. It’s a beautiful, wonderful class. It’s important to know all of these things about aspects, and then it’s important to let it go.

Sometimes somebody comes to John saying, “I have all these aspects that are driving me crazy!”

And the first thing John says, or that I say through him is, “Take that word out of your vocabulary now. You know what it means. Now take it out of your vocabulary, because you are getting hung up on it and on these aspects.”

Forget about the aspects. They are not important!

What is important is to receive. To receive all of you, including them!

You don’t have to define them. You don’t have to go, “Oh, this is that aspect, or that aspect, or whatever.” Just receive.

Receive the aspects.

Let them be transformed into facets, into part of you, because that’s what they are.

But without definition. Without stories.

Just receive.

Hmm…

John wanted to say, “Receive them,” but we stopped him and said, just receive.

Don’t even give it that definition. You don’t need it anymore.

Just receive.

Receive all that you are. And even that is more definition than we really need, but receive.

Receive life.

Receive you.

Mmm…

Just be still for a few moments.

Just receive.

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No definitions.

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[be still for a few minutes and just receive]

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Mmm…

Let’s go into the imagination a little bit.

Imagine yourself.

You’re walking through your life and someone with authority comes to you and says, “Your problems are all over. I’m taking care of them. They are not your responsibility anymore.”

Mmm…

How would you feel?

Oh, this is somebody that you trust.

The human tends to go, “I don’t know if I would trust them. Can they really do that?”

Let’s go past that.

Imagine there is somebody that can, that you do trust, and they are real and they are saying, “I am taking over all of your responsibility, for everything, so that you can be free to just be, to just live.”

How would you feel?

Make it real, How do you feel?

This is your imagination. It’s real.

More than that, this is exactly what your soul is saying to you right now.

Your soul is saying, “I am taking it all. It’s all my responsibility now, my dear human. Can you let me have it? Can you let me take it?

“Can you let all those questions, those why questions, and those definitions, and those stories, can you let them all go?

“Let me take them. I know what to do with them.

“Can you just be in your life right now, however it is?

“Can you just receive my gift to you?

“Simply receive?

“Open up.

“Just receive.”

Mmm…

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Life.

Oh, it’s so grand when you are just receiving!

Oh, it still hurts sometimes. It’s still confusing to the mind. But when you are just receiving, even the mind doesn’t care. It just is what it is. You are receiving.

Hmm…

It’s all you.

There is not anything you can perceive that isn’t you.

Receive it.

Mmm…

And that, dear friends, is your assignment, if you will, your challenge, for the next two weeks: Let your soul take it all. Let all those questions go. Just receive.

Mmm…

And so it is.

[music plays and goodbyes are said]

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