How to Change Your Life

6. Taste the Life You Have

Channeled by John McCurdy on September 27, 2022

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, and lines with just a dot, signify places to pause and to feel into what is being said.

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I am that I am!

Master John, of Magical Service!

Ahh…

All those other masters that joined us in her last session are still here. They are still part of this message and they’ve been part of this whole class.

Mmm…

John thought this class was just going to be some little thing to go over some basics that most of you already know. Well, all of you already know, but not all of you have brought it into your human awareness yet. Most of you have, though. But John has been surprised by the energies that start to come in the minute he turns on his recorder and starts getting ready to channel. And he’s been very surprised at where we have gone with this.

So I ask you, dear friend, to open up to the wisdom of your soul.

Oh, it doesn’t come in words, usually. It doesn’t come in the mind.

So many of you still look for your soul outside of you. You look for everything else outside of you too, and none of it is. It’s all inside. It’s all you, playing a game with yourself.

Hmm…

Feel your soul.

Just feel it. It’s right here. It’s you.

Feel its joy.

Oh, if you’re feeling sadness or anything like that, most likely it’s not your soul. It’s the human you.

Feel into your soul’s joy.

Feel your soul’s joy in your life.

Hmm…

Part of you thinks that maybe you’ve been letting your soul down. You know this is your lifetime of completion, but you don’t feel very complete. But you are, dear friend, and your soul has such a big smile on its face.

Feel that!

Feel your soul, and take a look at the smile on its face!

Some of you are going, “I don’t see anything. I don’t feel anything.”

Oh, shut up, Mind. Be still. Let yourself imagine it.

Imagine the smile on your soul’s face.

Yes, we know your soul doesn’t have a face. Imagine it anyway!

It does have a face. It’s your face. It also has its own face, its own presentation of itself in the other realms, of you in the other realms. So allow yourself to imagine the smile in your soul’s face.

Hmm…

Now, where do you think that imagination came from?

It’s real, dear friends. You cannot imagine anything that isn’t real in some dimension or another. It simply isn’t possible.

You think you have to imagine the life that you want, but you don’t. It’s already created!

You think you have to create it. Well that’s really funny, because, well, we see it. It’s already there. It already exists. Oh, better than you ever dreamed! You just haven’t stopped long enough for it to show up here in this realm. And you’re also so committed to your agenda of what it should look like, your idea of how it should be, that there’s no space for the real thing. Because the real thing isn’t going to be anything like you imagine.

[thunder rumbles]

Ah yes, the thunder agrees!

You see, creation doesn’t work that way. That’s a power game, that you have to imagine what you want and then somehow drag it into this reality and manifest it. It doesn’t work that way.

You see, every single potential was created a long time ago. It’s been called The Wall of Fire, the explosion in your consciousness after you asked that question of, Who am I? In that instant every single potential and possibility that ever could be was explored and felt. It already there, and now you’re just choosing which parts of it to walk through and experience how it happened.

So, if you want to change your life, stop trying so hard. Stop trying to make it be a certain way.

Real creation—and yes, there are potentials that were not imagined in that Wall of Fire, and even those can come into being now. But you will never, ever, imagine them beforehand, so stop trying.

Hmm…

In our class on the true nature of reality we called the mind the great anti-creator, and it’s true. The job you gave your mind a long time ago, for a very good reason, in a way that job was to create the opposite of what you thought you wanted, because that kept you distracted from your soul. It kept you locked into the game and it created a grand adventure and a lot of drama. And that’s what you came to Earth for, because you wanted to experience self in every way possible.

So here you are, and there is really only one experience left to have. You’ve been through them all. A thousand and more lifetimes for most of you, and you’ve been through just about every experience that is possible. Except for this experience of being embodied on Earth as a master, and that is what we’re doing right now.

The human says, “Oh good! Now maybe I’ll finally understand how to create what I want!”

Hmm…

Well, probably not. And the more you try, the more stuck you’ll feel and the worse it’ll hurt. Because that’s a power game.

Oh, you are a creator, but creation has no power in it.

Humans imagine the creator as this grand powerful being who, with one word, can create universes. Well, you can do that, but not with power. And you didn’t use power to create this universe.

You created a game within this universe that is all about power. You created it to explore yourself. You created powers to oppress you, so that you could eventually discover what it means to be sovereign and free. At times you gave yourself the power to oppress others, so that you could find out what that feels like and discover what an illusion it is.

Mmm…

So here you are, on this planet.

Oh, you think you’re on it, but it is actually inside of you. It’s actually in your imagination. But you’ve created it, based on this template that makes it look a lot like everybody else’s planet looks, so that you could interact in a shared—or seemingly shared—environment.

We’ve said it’s like a computer game, with all these different people around the world connecting into this game. They’re all seeing the same things, playing by the same rules, and interacting with each other through the game. And yet, they are never actually touching each other. None of what happens within the game is real. It’s all an illusion. It’s a very real experience, but that’s all it is.

So here you are, at the end of your game. You are complete. You can come home anytime you want to, and never have to come back again. You are complete, and yet you’ve chosen the bonus round.

Hmm…

You wanted to know, what is it like to live in this imaginary reality that you call Earth and human life, as a full master? As someone who knows the truth of who they are?

Oh, it’s not so easy, but here you are. Trying to live without power in a world that knows nothing but power.

How do you do that?

You enter Rumi’s field. You let go of all ideas and agendas of how things should be or how they shouldn’t be. You open up to your curiosity, and you live there.

And then, in each moment you’ll know how to respond. You’ll know how to be in that moment.

Oh, the human cries out, “But I want that new life! How do I get it?”

Well, you don’t get it that way, dear friend. That keeps you locked into your old life, because it’s a power game. Instead you stop, and you taste this moment.

When you stop to actually taste something, as John discovered when he stopped to actually taste that flavor that he thought he didn’t like, he discovered that it’s just a flavor. There is no positive or negative to it. It’s just a flavor. Then he could decide if he wanted to like it or not.

Oh, the human does not like that idea. Actually choosing whether you like something or not? That’s a lot of responsibility!

And yes, it is. But it’s also a lot of freedom.

And yes, you can do that. You can stop and taste any flavor, and then decide if you want to like it or not. And so it will be.

That’s who you are, dear friend!

Hmm…

Well, the same is true in every other part of your life. When you come into an experience, the human wants to react. If it’s a good experience or a bad experience, or pleasurable or painful, the human instantly has its reactions. “Oh, that was amazing!” or, “Ouch, that hurts!”

When you stop, take a breath, and taste that experience—feel it just for the experience of it, because you’re curious. What is this really? Then you’ll start to discover that it’s just a flavor. It’s just an experience, and you can decide whether to like it or not. Or whether you want to like it or not.

Or better yet, you can just keep tasting it and not even put a judgment on it.

Hmm…

It will change your relationship with life. It will bring you a level of peace that you’ve never known before. Because when you stop to taste life in this moment, in curiosity—I want to see what this experience tastes like—oh, it opens you up. It reconnects you with the tree of life, with your light body.

It brings balance and integration, automatically.

And you don’t have to do a thing. Just taste the flavor of this experience.

Hmm…

John’s thinking that maybe we’re getting carried away with that word, but no. We like it!

We could also say, feel this experience. But you’re so used to that that it’s become a cliché, so we want you to taste it. It’s a much deeper experience level, and it changes everything.

And that, dear friend, is how you change your life. You drop your agendas. You drop your plans. You drop your ideas of how things should be. And you taste the life you have.

If you don’t like the life you have, then stop and taste it. Taste it, breathe it in, and then it can change.

As long as you’re trying to change it from your agenda of, “Oh, it needs to be different! It needs to be better! I need to feel better! My body needs to be better and be healthier!” all of these agendas keep you locked in and stuck.

If you want to change your life, then let go of the agendas and taste, feel, be in, the life that you have.

Hmm…

When you go and sit on a park bench to do your benching that you’ve heard of, you’re not there to project your light out. You are there to taste the life around you. And as you do that, the light of awareness shines so bright! All by itself, all automatically, because you are opening to your curiosity. You are opening to the actual experience of this flavor, or this—whatever it may be—that is in your experience right now. And in that, you are bringing consciousness (also known as awareness) into your life and into the world all around you. And that changes everything.

Mmm…

So, how to change your life?

Be curious. Instead of reacting to that flavor, taste it. Feel into it. And discover something new about it.

If your body hurts, taste it.

You’re going to discover that pain is an emotion. It’s a big illusion. It is generated entirely by your mind. You could say that it is caused by the resistance in your reaction.

Hmm…

You see, when we designed these bodies eons ago, we knew there needed to be a warning mechanism so that if you did something that endangered this body, you would feel it. You would know about it. So we created the pain system. Well, we overdid it a little bit. We made it a little bit too sensitive, perhaps, or too something. Too overwhelming. And your mind didn’t understand how to modulate it.

You see, pain is nothing more than a mental reaction to a signal. A part of your body gets hurt, and that part of your body sends a signal to your brain. That’s all it is, just like all the other millions and billions of signals that are flying around through your body all the time. It’s no different.

You don’t feel all those others as pain, but when this particular signal goes to your mind and your mind senses it, it says, “Oh, there’s something dangerous happening! I have to turn on the pain!” and there it is.

Well, there should have been a way, you should be able—you are able, but you forgot how—to notice the pain, to notice the signal, the warning, so that you can take appropriate action, and then turn the pain off. You don’t need it anymore. Once you’ve become aware of whatever it’s about you don’t need it anymore, and you should be able to turn it off. And one of these days, you will be able to.

But first, you have to learn this thing of tasting the sensation from a place without agenda, from a place without reaction. Because right now you feel the pain and you go, “Ouch!” and then the pain gets worse. And then you react to that, and it hurts even worse! And so often, it spirals down into something you can hardly bear.

You will learn, as you practice curiosity, as you practice tasting life, you will learn how to say, “Oh, I need to pay attention to that part of my body. Okay, end of pain, I don’t need it anymore.” And then you won’t have it anymore. It will still be there when you need it, as that warning signal, but once it has served that purpose there is no more need for it. It’s only the reaction, the mental reaction, that keeps it going.

So, taste it. Feel into it without judgment, without agenda, without a label of, “Oh, that’s bad! That hurts!”

Taste the sensation, and see where it takes you.

You see, every pain, whether emotional or physical, has a message for you. It’s telling you something. It’s saying, “Pay attention to me, please, because I’m you.” So give it that attention, but not in suffering. Open up to it in curiosity.

Hmm…

We’re making John a little crazy trying to find all the words for this, because there aren’t any words that are adequate. What we’re talking about is—oh, it’s way beyond words!

And you know.

You know what we’re talking about, so taste that. Taste that knowing. Let it in. It’s there.

It’s not going to come as words in your mind, and because of that you’re having a little bit of trouble recognizing it. But you already know.

You know exactly what we’re talking about, so feel it. Taste it. Be curious.

Hmm…

There is no power in curiosity. But oh, the things you discover with curiosity! They will thrill you and amaze you!

And that is how you change your life.

Mmm…

There’s one other thing you need to be aware of. Part of you already is, but let’s review it. And that is that curiosity is about now. It’s not about the future.

We’ve said this before, and we’ll say it again here, very clearly: A master does not get to know the future.

A master has no idea what’s going to happen next. Oh, sometimes he or she has a bit of a sense of it because you can feel the direction things are going, but even then you have no idea what’s actually going to turn up or how it’s actually going to unfold.

You’re floating in the river and you feel the rush of the water picking up speed. Well, you know you’re going downhill, but you still don’t know what’s around the next bend. It could be a lake. It could be a waterfall.

If it’s a lake, you’re going to feel a little bit stuck for a while, and that’s a really good time to rest and relax.

That waterfall, ha! That will change your life, and open you up to a whole new reality!

But you see, the master doesn’t know what is coming. The master can’t know what is coming, because the master is so caught up in the taste of now, in the experience of now.

The master doesn’t get to make plans.

Oh, you might be inspired one day to make a plan for a trip. That’s okay, but keep it about now. Right now the inspiration is to look at the potentials. Huh, maybe we’ll do that. We don’t know for sure, but maybe we’ll do that.

Sometimes you have to make enough of a plan that you can buy the right airline tickets, and that’s okay. You’ll know when to do that. And you will also know that every plan you make is so tentative, because it could change at any moment, depending on what happens in this moment and the moments in between.

So when you make a plan, make it very loosely. Leave it as open as possible, and know that even if you spend money on the tickets and then everything changes, it doesn’t matter. Because you are always going to have what you need.

You may never have a lot of money in your bank. You might be happy about that, because it saves a lot of trouble sometimes! But you will always have what you need, and more.

And you might have a lot of money in your bank. It just depends on what you choose.

Oh, then you turn it into a “should.” I should choose the right thing! Oh my God, how am I going to even know what to choose?

You can’t. You just open to the river, and you let it carry you.

And you know that no matter what happens, you are going to be safe. You are going to have everything you need and you are going to have an absolutely incredible and amazing life, because that’s what happens when you are reconnected with the Tree of Life. When you live in this field out beyond all agendas.

That’s when your life changes, and it continues to change in the most amazing and incredible ways.

Oh, sometimes in ways that scare the pants off of you. And sometimes in ways that make your body hurt, that bring up the old issues where you are still playing with power.

Hmm…

And that is why you hurt, dear friend. There are still places where you are playing with power.

Mmm…

John is taking a deep breath with that one. His mind is going, “Where am I still playing with so much power that I hurt so much?”

It doesn’t matter.

You see, this whole game of figuring it out is another power game. That’s all it is! You don’t need to figure it out, because you already know. You just bring it to your knowing, to your wisdom, and it will figure itself out. You don’t have to do a thing, except to keep opening your curiosity. In the moment.

Hmm…

Pure, simple awareness.

Oh, the mind grabs hold of even that. It tries to think. It goes, “Okay, what do I need to be aware of right now?” and it tries to think really hard about it.

Oh, be still, Mind. Be still!

That’s not awareness, that’s focus. That’s the opposite of awareness. It’s the opposite of curiosity!

No, just be aware.

Be curious.

Oh, you’re sitting on a park bench. You see a person walking past and you go, “Look at that, what a curious way to dress!”

You don’t try to figure it out. You don’t get caught up in a mental game of, “Oh, why is she doing that? Why is she dressed like that?”

You just go, “Huh, interesting. Oh, look at that bird over there! Huh, it’s so amazing that birds can fly!”

Ha ha!

Oh, John is trying to put words on “awareness,” and it’s not working very well. But you know what we mean.

Hmm…

Curiosity.

If you want to change your life, be curious about your life!

Not some life off in the future that doesn’t exist and never will, but this life right here, right now.

This moment, this experience, what does it taste like?

Ha! That doesn’t mean getting in your mind and figuring out an answer to the question, What does it taste like? That’s a mind game. And another example of our limited words.

That question doesn’t need an answer. It needs an experience.

So you go into the experience of what it tastes like. No words, no thoughts. If you’re putting words on it, you’ve missed out. You just have the experience!

Oh, what an interesting flavor! Mmm…

That’s it. That’s all.

And in that you discover your creation.

You don’t plan your creation, you discover it. Always.

And you be curious: Oh, look what I’m creating right now! How amazing!

Hmm…

Let the words go.

We could sit here for hours and hours and hours, spinning around and trying to find the right words. It’s not going to work. You know what we’re talking about. Just feel it. Allow it. Let it come out.

Let that wisdom come out and play.

Don’t think about it, don’t talk about it. Just let it come out and play!

Discover it. Be curious about it.

And then watch your life change.

Mmm…

Oh, we know there are many questions, because minds are so busy and they have so many questions.

Just take your mind into that stillness, into that field that Rumi spoke of.

Keep coming back to that stillness, and there you will discover the keys to the most amazing life that you could ever dream of, and way beyond.

Mmm…

We think we’ve talked enough about how to change your life. Be curious! Be in the simple, pure awareness. Stop trying to change it. Stop trying to fix it. Stop trying to protect yourself.

Find that still place, and in that you will know the appropriate response in every situation.

Let go of the judgments of what those responses might be. Oh, you’ll know!

You might know, in a moment, just the right question to ask somebody to totally shift their perspective and open up a whole new set of possibilities.

Or you might know, in a particular moment, to get right in somebody’s face in all of your strength as an embodied master and say, “No more! Fuck off! I don’t cower to you anymore, and I don’t play your game anymore!”

Hmm…

The human might go, “Oh, that was a pretty ‘powerful’ thing to do!”

Well, be still, Mind. It was the thing to do in the moment, so let go of the judgments and just be you, however that looks.

In that field out beyond all ideas of rightdoing and wrongdoing, there are no words. There are no judgments. You be you, and it’s perfect. It’s you.

Hmm…

You have so many ideas about being nice. Ha!

Well, enlightenment was never about being a nice person.There have been plenty of absolute scoundrels, people that others considered to be evil, who had their enlightenment. Because it isn’t about right or wrong or good or evil. It’s about coming back to you. It’s about letting yourself be you.

You try so hard to be a good person, and that’s just another power game. And it’s killing you! Stop it!

Be real, instead. Be you.

Whatever that looks like in the moment, trust it. Then you open the space for the new life.

Mmm…

So, thank you for joining us in this class on how to change your life. You already know the answers, and we hope we have brought some clarity to them for you.

We will Return for one more session. It will be an experience to bring all of this together, so be prepared to take some time, to relax into it, to feel, to taste some amazing flavors.

But first, give yourself some time to integrate this message, to feel into it. And then come back for our conclusion.

Ahh…

Oh, what a beautiful field this is, out beyond ideas of rightdoing or wrongdoing or of how anything should be or should not be!

Out beyond all the agendas.

Just tasting life, just as it is.

Ahh…

And so it is.

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