Living As Soul: From Mind to Wisdom

Session 3: Knowing

Channeled by John McCurdy on May 4, 2022

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible.

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I am that I am.

Master John of Magical Service!

Ah, another beautiful spring day! Sitting by a stream in Slovenia, listening to the birds singing and all the sounds of life. Beautiful life on Earth! There is nothing like it anywhere.

Ahh…

And humans, oh, they don’t know how good they have it!

Oh, and once again, John is feeling and experiencing the very things that we want to talk about today.

Of course! Because John is me, and I am so much more than the human that you know as John. I am his soul, his divinity, his I am that I am, his master self. However you want to say it, I am all that John is, which is so much more than the human.

Just as you, dear friend, are so much more, so very much more, than the human that you know yourself to be. And oh, so much more than the mind that thinks it is you.

Oh, the mind is starting to figure that out. It knows now that it is not who you are.

It is a part of you, a very amazing and valuable part of you, and we are not here to get rid of the mind or to punish it for somehow getting the idea that it was you. No, that is the idea that you gave it a long time ago, for a very specific reason. You needed to be able to stay on Earth and to have the full experience in a way that you couldn’t have if you remembered your soul. For if you knew, at that point, that you were more than just the human, you would never have been able to dive into those experiences and live them fully.

And oh, those experiences—you look back at them and you remember certain aspects of them, certain perspectives of those experiences, but you don’t remember everything that happened. You don’t remember all the reasons, all the surrounding energies. You were not even aware of many of them. There was so much happening in every single one of those experiences that you were never aware of, and yet it was very real and very valuable.

So, you remember the pain. You remember how difficult some of them were. But what you didn’t remember is how incredibly amazing and valuable they were to you, and to your soul.

Oh, the human goes, “That soul has a strange perspective! I’m glad it was valuable to it, but it sure hurt for me!”

Well, dear friend, it is time to realize and to acknowledge that you are your soul.

Oh yes. Oh yes indeed, you are your soul!

Your soul is so much more aware than—ha! Let’s start over, John.

Your soul is so much more than what you, the human, are aware of. But still, you and your soul are one and the same, and it is time to stop pretending that you are not.

Oh, the human does that so good! Even John, today, feeling this channel coming and knowing that it is about your knowing, was feeling so disconnected from his own knowing.

Hmm…

What a game! What an illusion!

Well, he finally realized it was time to take a walk, to go out in the woods and find a place to let this message out. He was afraid that it wouldn’t come out, that he wouldn’t be able to open up enough.

He got out to the little creek and there was somebody, very close by, running a big grass-cutting machine and making a lot of noise, so he walked on. He walked up the stream, and finally found a place down close to the water, down between the banks. He sat down, and then he started smelling something funny. Then he noticed there were a lot of flies coming around, and when he looked up, right in front of him was a dead rodent! And he thought, “Oh, this day is not going well!”

He got up and put his microphone away, and decided it was time to go home. “It’s time for lunch, so let’s just forget about it for today,” he thought. Something inside of him though, just nudged him in a whole different direction, toward a little gravel bar along the edge of the stream. He thought, “Well, I guess I could sit there, but I don’t know…”

Then some little creature down in the bottom of the stream caught his attention, and he watched it for a few minutes, just fascinated by it. He saw there were several of them, little creatures crawling around with little pieces of debris stuck to their back to camouflage them. And then he realized, “Oh, it really is time to sit down here and do some channeling.”

You see, your knowing, your wisdom—oh, the wisdom from a thousand and more lifetimes—is all here. It is right here, with you, right now. But so often, you don’t recognize it. You are looking for it to come into your mind as words, as thoughts, which are mostly words in your mind. And it doesn’t come that way. And then you are looking for it to solve your human problems, but it doesn’t work that way either, because they are not problems.

John wanted to know why he couldn’t find the proper place. “Maybe that’s something telling me that it’s not time right now,” he thought, and yet he could feel it inside.

Well, you see, there is so much more that goes into your knowing than the little human agendas. He wasn’t just looking for the for the right place to sit. He was looking for—oh, I was looking for how to help him find the right place inside.

Hmm…

Oh, his mind tried to distract him from that. His mind started questioning. “Maybe it’s too unprofessional to do the channel out here in nature where there are all these other sounds. Even the grass-cutter in the background, and all these sounds of nature that are so unpredictable, so unmanageable and uncontrollable. Maybe it’s not professional enough for a class that I am going to sell.”

Ahh. Silly mind!

Oh, it was just trying to do its job. It was trying to protect John. It was trying to maintain his image. It was still trying to distract him from his true knowing, because what he knows down inside is that none of that matters! And the sounds of nature, the sounds of life, oh, what a beautiful background to a message about living! Because that is what we are really talking about.

If you are resonating at all with what we are saying, you are at the place where you are complete. You could choose to stop living at any point, to come home to your soul and stop living on Earth. And you would be welcome. Your soul would welcome you with open arms, and you don’t have to come back. But if you are here, we think you have chosen to live, to live on Earth in a way that has never been done before. There have been a few that have come close. But to truly live here as soul hasn’t been done before, and you are beginning to do it.

So, this entire course, this series of messages, is about living. In fact, every message we do, every channel we put on the website, every class we create, is all about living. It is about all that you are living, experiencing sensual life, and there is no place in all of existence that is more sensual than human life on Earth.

So, we are here to live.

The human goes, “I don’t know, it’s been…” [John chokes up a bit]

Yes indeed, the human John becomes emotional. He says, “I’m not so sure. It has been so difficult here! I don’t know how much more of this ‘living’ I can take!”

Well, what if living as a human on Earth wasn’t hard anymore? What if it was fun? What if it was joyful and pleasurable?

John says, “Well, maybe I could take that for a while. We’ll see. We can give it a try.”

Well dear friend, dear John, it already is.

Oh, before you panic, hear us out. You see, like we explained in our last message, it all depends upon your perspective. It all depends on how you evaluate your circumstances. It depends upon how you interpret the things that happen in your life.

The human mind looks out and sees all these problems that have to be solved. Well, Soul looks out, the master looks out, and doesn’t see problems at all. It sees experiences to be had, and it knows that the more it is willing to dive into those experiences, to breathe them in, the happier it is going to be and the more fun it is going to have. And the happier you are going to be, and the more fun you are going to have.

But instead, the human gets caught in emotions of fear and anxiety, of needing to fix these things before they create havoc and chaos in your life.

Well, dear friend, havoc and chaos comes for a reason. It brings sensuality into life. And if you are willing to see it through, to feel it through, to breathe it in, oh, it will take you to places that will amaze you and thrill you! Places that cannot come to you any other way.

Even the pain that you are feeling in your body is opening you up. The human, the mind, thinks, “Oh, it doesn’t feel very opening to me! It’s shutting me down, because I can’t stand it!”

Well, that is the human perspective. But from Soul’s perspective, oh, we see how much it is opening you up. It is bringing you to that place of finally letting go of control. When it hurts so bad that you finally can’t do anything but just be in the pain, well, that is when, sometimes, we make the most progress forward with you.

It does not have to hurt that bad, though, but that means letting go.

The human is so committed to protecting itself. It feels the pain and it goes, “What do I have to do to fix this? What am I doing wrong?” And that just makes it hurt worse.

When the human can come back to the place of realizing, of acknowledging, “This is my creation, and it is here for a reason. A reason I don’t understand, but a reason nonetheless, and I do not need to fix it. I simply need to allow this experience.” Well, that is when we can move forward.

Mmm…

So, one of the reasons that you don’t recognize your knowing and your soul wisdom, is because you are looking for a solution instead of a knowing.

Hmm…

John was looking for a quiet place to do a channel, a place without the smell of a dead animal right in front of him and without a lot of noise. Well, there is not a place in nature that doesn’t have at least some noise, and there is never a place in nature that is perfect! It always has its drawbacks, and the mind is always trying so hard to figure out how to solve those drawbacks that it misses the knowing.

When John finally let go and decided it was time to go home, well, then the knowing was able to come back in, and the next thing he knew he was sitting in this beautiful place.

There is still noise. There are insects buzzing around and a farmer’s tractor not far away, and yet here he is, finally opened up.

You see, the human tries so hard to make everything perfect, to make everything the way it thinks it should be, that it cannot hear its own soul. I cannot feel its own soul.

You don’t ‘hear’ your soul. It doesn’t come in words. Your soul does not talk to you in words. Oh, sometimes if you open up, the impressions come in strong enough that your mind can turn them into words. That’s all John is doing in this channel. He finally lets go of control, and then, with our help, his mind can translate the feelings and the impressions that come in.

Yours can too, dear friend. It’s right there! It is not some special skill, but you do have to let go of control.

Oh, John remembers a time years ago, many years ago, in 2003. His knowing guided him to start a weekly spiritual discussion group. They met every week in his home, or in other people’s homes. He had a lot of respect from the people around him, so a number of people came. Ha! And then he started realizing that he did not know what to do with this group.

Well, one day it came time for one of these meetings. There was a bit of discussion, and then John started feeling Mother Mary. Oh, he felt her so close and so clearly, and he realized that she wanted to talk. She wanted to talk through him, and he even knew the first couple of words. But his mind, oh, it was so strong and it said, “Well, what if you say those first couple of words and then there is nothing else?”

Because for all of his life, John felt like he had this problem where, if someone would ask him a question or put him on the spot in front of people, suddenly his words would all be gone. His mind would just blank out and he wouldn’t have anything to say. So, his mind reminded him of that and said, “What if you say those first two words that you feel, and then you go blank? You are going to look kind of silly!”

And John tried to open up, but he just could not get past that fear in his mind. He couldn’t let go of the control enough to let those two words out. And he knew, he knew in his very being, that if he would just let those two words out, she would be right there and the rest of the words would come. But oh, as much as he wanted to, he could not let go of the control.

And so, finally, he turned to someone else in the group that was experienced at channeling and said, “I feel Mother Mary, and she has a message for us. Can you bring it through?” And this woman opened up and brought through the message. But the truth is, and John knew it, he could feel, that it wasn’t the same as if he had brought it through. It just wasn’t the same, and shortly after that he disbanded the group.

Because, you see, I was the one that inspired him to start that group. Hmm… [John chokes up]

Yes, John is feeling a lot of emotion right now. He remembers the feelings, because he and I knew that there was a potential that he could open up right then and begin to channel. And if he had, it is very likely that the group would have continued and expanded.

Oh, now John is tempted to feel very disappointed, and to go into, “Oh, if only I had been brave enough back then!”

Well, that is not our purpose with this story, dear John.

No, that group actually served its purpose. It brought him to that point, it created that experience for him, of feeling Mother Mary so clearly and of knowing that she was asking him to open up and channel her. It felt like a huge honor to him, even as he was disappointed because he couldn’t bring himself to do it.

Well, it was not a disappointment to me. I knew he probably wouldn’t be able to do it right then, but I also knew that he would never forget that experience, and that a point would come when he would open up to me, to others, to Mother Mary, indeed—he channels her every so often—and Jeshua, her son from that lifetime two thousand years ago. A very special friend.

I knew the time would come, the perfect time, when he would open up, so it was not a disappointment to me that he couldn’t open up right then. It was simply a step along the way.

John has often looked back on that as a failure, as a time he should have been braver. But no, it was a success. And you see, that is what we were talking about in our last message on emotions. So often, how you experience something depends upon how you perceive it, and you have the choice of how to perceive things.

John has the choice of looking back on that event as a failure, and of feeling all the negative emotions and the shame that comes with that. Or, he can see it from my perspective, as a brilliant opening that set the stage for a few years later, when it was the right time for him to open up to me, his soul, in a new way and to begin channeling in a way that would have been difficult back then. Oh, he could have done it. But this set the stage. It was an opening along the way, so I see it as a brilliant success.

And seeing it that way feels entirely different to John. It brings up positive emotions instead of negative ones, and it opens the door to even deeper knowing.

Oh, when John came out here to the woods to bring this message through, he started seeing the problems. And it brought up the negative emotions, the fear, “I’m not good enough. I don’t know if I should really even be doing this. So, I pushed him into it further. I sat him down right in front of this dead animal!

Oh, I started setting stage for that early this morning. John was laying in his bed when he heard a bird hit the window, and a while later he got up and went downstairs, and the little bird was laying, quite dead, on the walkway in front of the house. He had to take it and dispose of it, and he felt sad and wondered what it meant.

So, I brought him out here, with all the noise and all the challenges, and sat him down in front of the dead rodent. And finally, he let go. He threw in the towel and said, “I’m just going to go home.” And I distracted him from that, until he found himself sitting down and opening up, and finally out of control. Finally open to his knowing.

Hmm…

Oh, he knew we were going to be talking about knowing. He’s known it for several days, and his mind has done a lot of thinking about things we would say. But he never expected this! He didn’t realize before how closely opening to your knowing is tied to letting go of control.

Ah, but he did already know that letting go of control is the key to everything! So of course, it is the key to your knowing, also.

And that is the biggest thing we want to leave you with in this message: If you want to experience your knowing, if you want to experience your soul’s wisdom, this incredible sweet nectar that is right here for you right now—a thousand and more lifetimes worth of distilled wisdom is right here! It is right here! It is available to you for the first time ever, right here! If you want to experience it, you have to let go of control.

You have to allow yourself to go out of control. To go crazy. To do crazy things because it is just what feels good in the moment. To be confused, to allow yourself to be confused.

Oh, what a beautiful place it is when your mind is confused! Because then it can’t control anything, and you are open to your knowing and to your soul.

That doesn’t mean you have to be confused all the time. What you are going to discover is that, as you allow yourself to be out of control, to be crazy, you are going to find so much clarity. You are going to find yourself feeling more clear than you have ever felt in your life! Oh, it will be interspersed with moments of absolute confusion, moments of doing things that don’t make any sense to you, and then you will watch how perfect they turn out to be. And your mind will open to a new level of understanding and clarity.

But it all starts with letting go of control. With letting go of the need to be in control of your life, and of yourself. With letting go of the need to fix everything and perfect everything.

That is all part of your mind’s game. It is all part of it doing its job of distracting you from Soul, but that job is over now. Now it is time to let Soul come in. And believe us when we say, so often Soul feels like an absolute fool to the human!

But now is the time to open up to that, to allow that. To allow yourself to do crazy things, just because it is what calls you in the moment.

Mmm…

Your soul is here, dear friend. It is you, and now the veil between you and it is nearly gone. But you get confused because you think your soul should talk to you, and it doesn’t. It comes to you in feelings.

Not in emotions. Emotions come from your mind, one hundred percent. They are not from your soul.

You see, if you feel sad, it is not your soul. Your soul does not feel sad. It has nothing to be sad about, for all of these experiences, from its perspective, are so beautiful and so amazing. There is so much wisdom coming from them, so much knowing coming from them.

So if you are feeling sad it is tempting to say, “Oh, that makes my soul hurt!”

Well no, it does not. Your soul does not hurt. It can’t! Only your mind can hurt.

If you are afraid, that is not your soul either. What does your soul have to be afraid of? It cannot be touched. It cannot be hurt. I cannot even be disappointed, because it does not have an agenda. It does not have an evaluation of what is better or worse, or of what should happen or what should not happen. It simply does not have those kinds of evaluations, so how can it be disappointed?

Your soul does not get angry. How could it? It is just thrilled at the experience! Oh, it feels the passion in you, and even that is a beautiful experience to your soul. A lot of wisdom comes from it.

Your emotions do not come from your soul. They come from your mind, and from its agendas and its evaluations, and they are all designed to distract you from the sensations that come from your soul.

As the mind relaxes more and more—and it is—as it gradually lets go of this job that it has been doing for so long and with such dedication, the emotions become less and less. And as they do, as the mind lets go of control, then your knowing—oh, John was going to say it comes in more and more, but that is not accurate. It has always been here. It is always present. But these emotions are like bright neon lights, and you can’t see past them. You can’t see anything but them.

As they settle down, which happens when the mind lets go of control, then it is like your eyes adjust and suddenly you can feel these sensations that come from your soul. Suddenly you start to be—oh, it’s not suddenly, it is gradual process—you start to become aware of your knowing. It’s subtle. It’s in the moment. It is about the moment.

Well, even that leads to a little bit of a misconception, because the mind thinks of the moment as somewhere in between the past and the future. But for your soul, the moment includes the past and the future.

The knowing is here and now. It might give you an idea about the future, it might give you a new perspective about the past. It might inspire you to do something in the moment, in the now.

Oh, humans get very confused with that. The mind says, “Oh, I feel something, and that means I need to go do something or other in the future!”

No. It means, just feel it.

If there is something you need to do, you will be inspired in the now moment to do it. Or, you might just find yourself doing it!

But in order for that to happen, you have to let go of control. You have to trust your impulses.

It is like when John finally let go of control enough, he found himself sitting down and going into channel. It was not like words came to him in his mind and said, “Sit down here, John.” No, that is not how it works. He had to wander around a bit, and run into some dead ends, before he let go of control enough to just let go of it all.

And then, well, the next thing he knew he was distracted by the creatures in the water, and the peace around him. Even with the noise of the tractor and all the other sounds of nature, it is so peaceful! And he was like, “Okay, I’ll sit down and see what happens.” And here we are.

So, opening to your knowing.

There is no special trick to it. It just happens, when the human lets go of control.

Ahh…

So easy! And so difficult for the human.

Understand that it is happening. It is indeed happening for you! It might not seem like it, but it is. Because this is your time.

If you are here and resonating with this message, this is your time.

Your mind already knows, but it is a really strong habit that it has!

Your soul is here.

Your soul is gently nudging your mind, saying, Dear mind, you can let go now. It is no longer your job to control this life, this body, or this being. You can let go. It is no longer your job to protect it. It is only your job to interface between me and your biology, and to handle the details you were designed to handle.

It is not your job to evaluate anything anymore, to judge anything, to decide if it is good or bad or if it is dangerous or safe, or if it is the right thing or the wrong thing. You can let all of that go now.

Dear mind, you can rest. Because I, your soul, am here. We are not separated anymore. We are not even maintaining this illusion of separation anymore. My wisdom is here, the wisdom you brought me over all of these many, many, many lifetimes. I have distilled it. It is here.

It is a sweet, golden nectar, and as you let go of control, as you allow the metamorphosis from caterpillar to butterfly, mmm, you are going to start tasting that nectar!

It is not going to come in the ways you expect. It is not going to solve your problems. But you are going to begin to discover that the caterpillar’s problems are not problems at all for the butterfly.

The butterfly does not have any problems. It simply has access to this incredible nectar and to an incredibly sensual experience.

Mmm…

We will come back for one more message, an experience and a deep dive to bring all of this together.

So once again, take some time. Take some time to be with this message, and with all that it has brought up for you. And let go of control.

Be aware, especially in the next few hours and days, be aware of how much you control your life. And that if you want your soul’s knowing, if you want to experience this beautiful, sweet, delicious nectar of your wisdom, then it is time to let go of control.

Allow yourself to go a little crazy. And in that, you will find the wisdom. You will find the clarity. And you will become one of the few sane people on the planet.

Ahh…

And so it is.

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