The New Love – Part 3: All of Me, In Love

In this message Johannes brings together all the parts, pieces, aspects, facets and lifetimes of me to continue our discussion of The New Love.


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The New Love – Part 3: All of Me, In Love– by John McCurdy
Channeled on June 26, 2021

(John, reading)

“If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

“Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”

                    (1 Corinthians 13, New International Version, Holy Bible)

Ah, yes. I am that I am!

I am Johannes, of magical service. I am Anna, of magical and compassionate service. We are also known as facets of John’s soul.


We asked John to begin this session with the reading of this beautiful passage from what so many humans call their Bible, their holy book. Ah, it is indeed, perhaps, the holiest passage in all of that book! Written by someone, a friend of John’s in that lifetime—John’s name was not John then, our name was not John then—it was written by a friend, someone who is also a friend in this lifetime.


I am Johannes, I am Anna, these metaphorical aspects, facets, of John’s soul. I am also John, the human.


I am George, the human who lived, oh, a hundred and some years ago, who worked so hard to bring peace between Native Americans and the American government. Mostly he felt that the effort failed, eventually. It didn’t, really. It changed things. It changed a great many things, and made things better than they would have been. But eventually, in that lifetime, he turned his attention to trees, to forestry, because trees didn’t argue. Trees weren’t greedy. And there again, he had a profound impact.


I am also the one that has been referred to as Brother John, the brother in the church in Europe some five hundred years ago who finally, after so many lifetimes, began to discover what love really means. He tried to tell his church, but he was before his time and they couldn’t hear him. And he took that as a failure.


I am Eleazar, the priest, who tried so hard to bring justice to the people of Israel, to help form the nation of Israel.


I am the woman in Paris, a few hundred years ago, who dove to the depths trying to understand, to find, this thing called love. Who sold her body to survive, and who went so deep and brought so much wisdom to me, to us.

I am the being who volunteered to come to this new place that you call Earth, at the very beginning. Oh he was so passionate! So full of fire and energy! So eager to come to this place, to discover what it meant to dive into creation, to play out the old battles and the old games in this slowed-down and very real-feeling environment, and to learn, eventually, how energies work. Oh, he had no concept of love, no understanding of love. That would come much, much later in your timeline.


I am the many, many human incarnations that came after that, that came to Earth, that lived out lifetimes—short lifetimes, longer lifetimes. Lifetimes as—oh, as dinosaurs. Lifetimes as other kinds of animals.


I am the one, the many, lifetimes who came and helped to create what you call Atlantis. Who helped—through study, through research, through trial and error, through experiments—who helped to create the body you now call human, or homo sapiens. Oh, there were many versions and eventually we settled on the homo sapiens version. And through many of our lifetimes we refined this animal, this intelligent animal. We gave it intelligence. We standardized it. We standardized the brain, so that these beings would have some semblance of equality in their interactions on Earth.


I am the man, one of the men, who came together in what you call the temples of Tien, and other places in Atlantis, in the era of Atlantis. We came together, some of us, and began to attempt to restore some of the balance between feminine and masculine that had been lost even before Earth was created. Ah, we won’t go into that story right now.

I am one of the men who, when the armies came and told us that we were doing evil by bringing back the feminine, we froze up in horror and confusion and stood by as the armies destroyed our women and our society.


I am the man who watched this in horror, and who then took his own life in shame and returned as a woman, to experience the other side of this horror firsthand.


I am so many humans, so many hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of humans.

I am the soldier who went off into battle to protect his home, so many times. Who so many times was killed, and occasionally was triumphant.

I am the man, the soldier, who came home from war and found his village raided and his wife and children brutally murdered.

I am the one who, for many lifetimes, had no concept of love, or even of compassion. Who became rich and well-to-do. Who became a ruler.

In one lifetime in particular, he had many, many wives. But there was one, in particular, that was special. He didn’t really know what to do about that. He loved her. He didn’t know what that was, but he felt something for her that he had never felt before, that we had never felt before.

He didn’t know what to do with that. He tried to ignore it. He tried not to feel it. He treated her like the rest of his harem, but she felt that too. A point came where she couldn’t take it anymore, the way he treated her, and she took her own life. And then he began to realize what he had lost.

That loss ripped him apart inside. Oh, it destroyed him. He died not long after, and he came back. I, his soul, came back, desperate, desperate to understand what had happened. Oh, that loss tormented me through many lifetimes. We changed our ways. We dove into the depths of experience on Earth, trying to find meaning in life. Trying to find a place, a way, to fill that hole.

We dove deep. Oh, through many lifetimes we searched and we searched. We tried to do penance. We tried to punish self. We studied the religions, the philosophies of life.


Here and there we met up again with this dear one. Sometimes—oh, always there was something special. And almost always, it ended in misunderstanding and pain.


Eventually there was a group of souls who were beginning to discover something new, and at some point they came together. We each took a part of our own awareness, and we created a being. We each gave it a piece of ourselves. We gave it our knowledge and our soul’s wisdom, and then we all went to Earth.

Ahh… A being, one of us, one of this group, came to Earth. You know her as Mother Mary, because she gave birth to this one that you know as Yeshua.

Oh, so many of you were here on Earth at that time. I was here. I wasn’t someone who was recorded in history in that lifetime, but I knew Yeshua. I did what I could to support his cause, because I felt something there. I heard him talk about love, something that had only recently been discovered, and I said, “I have to know more about this!”

After Yeshua’s lifetime, I was one of the ones who began to create what came to be known as the Church, the Christian Church. We needed places to come together, those of us who had been touched by Yeshua’s work, and by Mary Magdalene’s work as his partner. Oh, we needed places where people could learn of this new love, so we created the churches. Many, many of us, and I was there.

Through many lifetimes in the church, oh, I studied so hard. I tried so hard.

The churches became corrupted. Part of me could see that, and part of me sometimes fell into that corruption. Always, always, I was seeking to atone.

Oh, I could see what had happened in the past. I could see how, you could say, I had let my ego get the better of me. How I hadn’t cared about others. So, I dove into learning how to care, and how to protect others.

Oh, so, so many of my lifetimes were dedicated to protecting others! To serving the king, the church, the God, and trying to make amends for all the ones that I had hurt along the way. Oh, so many!

At that point I didn’t understand that it was all a game, that they had all been willing, eager participants. I could only see that I had hurt them, that somehow, I had failed.

I discovered some of what you call the mystery schools, where we came together in a different way, those of us who had participated in what you call the Christ Event. We came together in other times in these Mystery Schools, and we studied the deeper truths. Oh, even then it took a long time to understand.

Those lifetimes were interspersed with lifetimes in the church, trying so hard to find this God, to find this love that God was supposed to be.

Oh, we knew of it at that point, just as the one who wrote this letter to the Corinthians and spoke so eloquently of love, knew of love. It was such a lofty, beautiful ideal! And yet, despite what this person wrote, it seemed to always fail. Always!

People would try to live lovingly. Well, someone else would take advantage of that, take power over them, and hurt them. So what do you do?


So many simply allowed it to happen, and became martyrs. Others fought back and tried to enforce love. Well, that didn’t work, because once it was enforced, it wasn’t love anymore.

Eventually, a few hundred years back, I began to understand, through this incarnation that has been referred to as Brother John. Even then I didn’t know what to do with it, and when my beautiful thesis was rejected, when my beautiful presentation to the church was rejected, I took it as a personal failure and died soon after. In my lifetimes since, I stayed in the background. I hid. I hid my voice. I hid myself.

Oh, I found things to do. You see, once you truly find love, it becomes part of who you are. There is a wisdom that comes with it. So, I spent lifetimes in the background. Oh, I’d been in leadership. I’d been high in the church. I’d even been a king a time or two, but now I stayed in the background.

I became an explorer. As the Americas opened up, I became an explorer there, and eventually served as a law man and in many other ways, trying to bring peace and order.

I served. Oh, I was so used to serving, serving, always serving!

I came into this lifetime is George. I joined the military, because how better to serve? Somehow, I managed to avoid most of the fighting, because I made myself valuable as a negotiator, a guide, a friend to some of the Native Americans, trying to interface between them and the government. Trying to bring a little bit of wisdom to both sides, until eventually that failed. And then I managed to get myself a commission to go and explore the forests of the West.


I came in again. I joined the military, because humans had begun to fly and I was fascinated, and that was a good way to be able to fly. And then the war began. I found myself the pilot of a bomber, in the second world war in the Pacific. Oh, I loved flying, but I was too sensitive to be able to deal with destruction that our bombs were causing. And so, it was a blessing for me when someone shot down my airplane and I died.

Then there was this lifetime. I came into a family—it was a loving family, but my parents were constantly bickering and fighting, and fighting with the grandparents. Oh, and I was so sensitive, this human you know as John. I was so sensitive.


In all this life, John has been looking for love. Searching and searching for love. Trying to understand love. When he was still a child, he could feel someone out there.


Several old friends, he could feel them, even though he didn’t know them. He could feel them, one in particular, and he was searching and searching for this love. Love from the outside, love from another. It kept him alive. It was his passion.

He didn’t really understand that, but nothing else worked very well in his life. He never really materialized a career. He did a lot of different things, but nothing ever stuck because he was searching for love. And he could feel it. Oh, he could feel it!

He searched and he searched. He began to meet some of these old friends. He had some relationships, some beautiful relationships, but also difficult relationships that somehow just didn’t work out.


Then he began to learn—he met up with this group from the past, the same group that had been responsible for Yeshua. They were coming together again around this organization called the Crimson Circle, and through the teachings of Tobias he began to remember this love, the real love.

And he began, finally, to look inside himself. He began, finally, to allow some love for himself. He’d never done that before.

Oh, before, it had been considered shameful and sinful to love self. “How horrible! How selfish! How opposite of loving someone else!” he was taught. Oh, what people didn’t know!

So John, and I his soul, we looked inside. And we finally let in some honor, some respect, for self. We finally began to notice this inner self-talk that Anna spoke about in the last part of this series, and we, together, made a commitment to stop that. To treat self with respect, with honor, and with love.

Oh, it took time. It was a difficult concept. How do I treat myself with love? How do I love myself? Such a big question!

Well, it began with the respect, with talking nicely to self. With touching self.


For so long, for a human to touch self was so taboo. It was considered so evil.

Finally, John allowed himself to touch himself without shame or guilt. And eventually, he began to feel I, his soul, touching him through his own hands.


Finally, finally, in just the past few years, we, I, all that we are, have finally come to know love. To know love within, to know love for self. Ahh… So amazing! So beautiful!


Oh, and then—we’ve told this story before, but one day John found himself on an island in Greece, and who should be there, but that dear one that first opened his heart so long ago, who caused him to first feel something deeper!

And this time, they were ready. This time they had the inner love, both of them. This time they could feel that special connection, and they could allow it to simply be. They could allow their love for self to be reflected back, without need, without control, without needing to hold on, without needing it to be anything more than what it is. And now they’re married, and they are so happy! It’s been three years, and they are so happy!


So, I am that I am. I am all, all, of these beings that I have been. I am all of them, right now!

You see, you look into your past and you think it’s over and done. No, these other lifetimes, they are living right now in other parts of what we call the time-scape. And now they are all gathered together, all of those lifetimes of me, John’s soul, and including the feminine and the masculine facets of Soul, the Divinity, the Merlin, the Master, the I Am.

All of me is gathered together right now, in love.

For the first time in all of creation, I know love! I the soul, I the masculine, I the feminine, I the light, I the dark, I the—so many different humans; I know love.


Humans—oh, love is still a new thing to humans. There are parts of the world where people still do not understand what love is.

People think that love is romance. It isn’t. Love enhances romance and romance enhances love. Oh, it’s a beautiful, beautiful thing when they come together!

People think that love is Mother Love. Once again, it enhances Mother Love. It actually makes it easier for a mother to raise a child in freedom and in honor and to let the child go when it is time. You see, most of the problems on Earth are created by men who never were properly separated from their mothers, who were held onto by their mothers or who had to rebel in order to get away.

Oh, love changes everything!

People think of love as this beautiful feeling of connection, of closeness, of resonance. That’s part of who you are.

We won’t argue with the definitions that have been put on the word love. It can mean many, many different things, but this love that we speak of isn’t any of that.

This love is undefinable.

Oh, for so long, humans that have known of it have tried to enforce it on others, which of course failed. They’ve tried to simply live it, and so often that failed too. And now we know: the reason is because we forgot that it was all about self. And now we know.

And when we turn love inward, when we apply it to self, oh, then it radiates out to everyone around us naturally, beautifully.

It radiates out! It shines upon others, because it is your light!

But that can’t happen, it simply cannot happen, until you turn it upon yourself first. Until you begin to treat yourself with honor and respect and love.

And then a funny thing happens: That love shines out upon others, and it begins to reflect back on you. And then you feel loved by others.

But it’s a new kind of love. It’s a love that is absolutely free. It has no needs, none whatsoever. It’s simply free. It simply shines like a light.


And then it comes back on you, and oh, what a beautiful experience!

And then you discover that it is all you.

You see, everything that John perceives is me. And everything that any of his incarnations perceive, is me. Oh, there is a communication with the other beings that allows a certain reflection, but we’ve already covered that topic.


We’ll ask John to read this beautiful statement of love once more.

From 1st Corinthians 13 in the Christian Bible:

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

We’ll add to that, If I do not have love for myself.

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have self-love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship, but do not have self-love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love FOR SELF never fails.

But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is human knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears…

Dear friend, welcome to completeness!

When you allow the love of self into you, it brings completeness. It brings wholeness. It brings understanding, in a whole new way. It brings wisdom.


The apostle said:

For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

Ahh, dear friend: That was then.

Now, now you see face to face: in the mirror.

Now you know, fully.

Now, you are fully known by your soul. If you allow it.


And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is the love of self. The love, the honor, the respect, the trust, all of those other things that are part of the love, turned upon self. Shone inward on your own self.

Let it in, dear friend.

And now, you are fully known. And that knowing is available to you, and that love shines out.

Oh, it doesn’t need to fix anything anymore, because there’s nothing left to fix. There is only you, in love, shining that love throughout creation.

What else could there possibly be?


I am whole. I am all of these beings that we’ve talked about, and so many more.

I am that I am, in love with me!

And oh, that love is shining back on me in so many different ways!


I am whole.

And I am complete, for now.

And so it is.

* Note: Conscious channeling is an act of translating incoming feelings into human words the mind can understand. It is an imprecise process and sometimes the wrong words come out of my mouth. In the recording it is usually quite obvious what the intended meaning was, but it’s not so obvious in the transcript, so they must be corrected. Those words or phrases, if any, are marked with an asterisk (*) since they are different from the recording.

Also, since spoken word is very different from properly written word, along with my soul I have edited the text slightly. My (our) focus here is not on good grammar, but on clarity and readability without making it too confusing for those who choose to read along while listening to the audio recording. Changes that do not impact the meaning are not marked.

In transcribing these messages I have chosen to include many of the various ahhs, hmms, and other non-word sounds that come out of my mouth while channeling, because they indicate a moment to pause, take a breath, and reflect upon what has just been said. —John

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TRANSLATED_TITLE – por John McCurdy (Traducido por Liliana Audet)
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* Nota: La canalización consciente es un acto de traducción de los sentimientos que llegan en palabras humanas para que la mente pueda entenderlos. Es un proceso impreciso y a veces salen de mi boca palabras equivocadas. En la grabación generalmente es bastante obvio cuál era el significado deseado, pero no es tan obvio en la transcripción, por lo que deben ser corregidas. Estas palabras o frases, si las hubiera, están marcadas con un asterisco (*), ya que son diferentes a las de la grabación.

Además, como la palabra hablada es muy diferente de la palabra correctamente escrita, junto con mi alma he editado ligeramente el texto. Mi (nuestra) atención no se centra en la buena gramática, sino en la claridad y la legibilidad sin que resulte demasiado confuso para aquellos que decidan leer mientras escuchan la grabación de audio. Los cambios que no afectan al significado no están marcados.

Al transcribir estos mensajes he decidido incluir muchos de los diversos ahhs, hmms y otros sonidos sin palabras que salen de mi boca mientras canalizo, porque indican un momento para hacer una pausa, tomar un respiro y reflexionar sobre lo que se acaba de decir. —John

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