The Grand Integration

This transcript has been edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible.

Please note: This message is a meditative experience. As such, we urge you to listen to or watch the recording while you read. Also, we’ve spaced out much of the text to encourage you to read it slowly, and to really feel the experience.

The Grand Integration

Channeled by John McCurdy on14 June 2023

I am that I am!

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Master John of Magical Service, here to do some magic with you today. If you choose to join in.

Because, you see, in real magic we don’t do it for other people. But sometimes we inspire it in other people.

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Magic is for self, and for no one else.

If you do it for someone else, no matter how good your intentions are, it’s really what is called black magic: controlling and manipulating others and the environment around you.

No, magic is who you are.

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Real magic is your divinity, and divinity does not act according to human agendas. It acts on divine knowing.

Real magic is not about fixing everything in your life. Although it might get fixed, if that’s how it needs to be. But the human gets frustrated because it thinks that magic should be about doing the things that it wants done. And it is not.

Real magic comes from your soul, because the soul understands why you are here. The soul understands what makes you happy, better than you the human. It understands what makes all this worthwhile. And if you let it, if you let go of your agendas, your soul—your divinity—can bring in a magical and graceful life like you never imagined.

But you have to let it happen.

We did a brilliant class about that a few months ago. It’s called How to Change Your Life, and it’s on our website. You might want to check it out if you haven’t, or revisit it if you have.

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What a time!

What a time to be on Earth right now!

What a time to be on Earth as a human!

And, what a time to be on Earth as divinity itself, as Soul expressing itself in a way it never could before.

For you see, that veil went both ways. It blocked the human from Soul, from everything outside of this perceived human reality. And it also blocked the soul, in a way, out into those other realms.

It was necessary, so that you could have your experiences here on Earth without distraction. But now that’s all over. Now, Soul is here. Divinity is here.

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Now all the empty space between the particles that make up the atoms that make up your body is all lighting up with the light of divinity.

Oh, it’s very different from the light of, for example, the sun. Very different! It is the light of consciousness, of awareness, and it is here. It is inside of you.

In a sense, you could say it has been asleep for all of your time on Earth, and now it’s waking up. And it is changing the very nature, the very structure, of what you call reality.

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And then you wonder why your body is feeling so crazy, why your mind is feeling so crazy, and why everything around you seems to be going crazy. It is because the very nature of reality is changing. The very forces that seem to hold your reality together are changing.

We’re not going to try to define how they are changing, because that’s a mental game that really doesn’t mean anything, and it is very difficult to put into words that mean even a little bit. So, just understand that it is all changing. The very nature and structure of you the human, and everything around you, and everything inside of you, is changing. No wonder you feel a little crazy! No wonder your mind isn’t working so well lately, and your body isn’t working so well lately!

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Be with it. Don’t fight it. Don’t try to fix it. That just makes it worse.

Be with it.

Breathe with it. All of it.

Breathe it in.

It is your soul’s job to take care of all that now, not yours as the human.

Be with it.

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As we record this, the energies are gathering for our Headbander’s Guide to Opening Your Intuition class. Our second session is live in a few hours. [this was on June 14]

Our first session, oh, it made John feel a little crazy. He wasn’t used to those kind of energies, with a whole group of people watching in real time. Ha! But when he went back through the recording and processed the transcript, he realized there was so much there. And there is going to be so much more wisdom in our upcoming sessions.

If you want to, you can still sign up. We haven’t closed registration, because you can always catch up with the recordings. And once we’re finished with this class, it will be available for you to purchase and go through. But if you’d like to get in on it now, there will still be a couple of live sessions left. So sign up! We’re having a great time!

And if you want to check out How to Change Your Life, you’ll find it on the website at johnmccurdy.com.

And soon we are moving to new technology, and to a new website called, iamdivinity.com . We’re still working on that, but it’s coming.

And, while we’re talking about classes, don’t forget Divinity In Experience, coming up in the first week in July. It goes for three months. Well, that’s just the beginning, really, but for right now it’s a three-month class, and it will continue from there.

Divinity In Experience. At least two sessions per month, and probably a couple of recordings in between. And we are going to have a really good time in that class too, as we explore what it means for divinity to be present in our human lives, right now.

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So, for now, let’s have an experience.

I’ll ask John to put our garden waterfall music on. We’ll put it in our ears for now [John puts on headphones], and then he’ll edit the music into the recording so the quality is better.

[music begins]

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So, take a deep breath.

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Open up to the music.

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Imagine this beautiful, green garden all around you.

A beautiful garden!

John always imagines it a little bit like he always imagined the Garden of Eden. Truly a place of myth, but also, so real!

So real. Mostly in another reality.

Mostly in a reality the human remembers and tries to bring into the mind, and it shows up in very human terms. And that’s ok.

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Look around you.

See a little stream running past.

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Hear the flutes and the bells and the birds.

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Look out across the meadows, through the trees.

Oh, so many flowers. Beautiful flowers!

And animals. Every kind of animal.

And they are all in peace. Nobody is trying to eat anybody else.

They’re lounging around, enjoying the warm sunshine.

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And so many of them are looking at you.

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They’re watching this incredible light waking up inside of you, and beginning to shine out from you.

The light of divinity.

Ahh…

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There’s little pond nearby. Let’s walk over there.

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As you look in the pond, you see your own reflection.

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Look at the light shining out from you!

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Oh, you don’t have to do anything to make it shine. Nothing at all.

In fact if you try, that just puts a shade around it.

So don’t try.

Just look.

It’s shining out of you.

It’s natural.

Oh, at this point you cannot stop it!

It’s there.

It is shining.

It’s your consciousness, and it is shining into your body.

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And out of your body. Out into the world.

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Look again at your body in the reflection.

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You can almost see through it.

You can see, if you look, the colors inside of it.

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The turmoil, or chaos almost, of the colors stirring all around inside of your body, lit up by this light.

Triggered by this light.

But look, they’re just colors.

They are the sign of transformation!

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There’s nothing you need to do about them.

Yes, sometimes they hurt.

There is still nothing you need to do about them, except allow them.

Feel them.

They are finding their new place in a whole new reality, a much more fluid and flexible reality.

A much lighter and brighter reality.

So let them.

Let your body go through what it is going through.

Don’t worry about it.

We know that’s difficult for the human.

It thinks maybe it’s dying. Oh, and in a way, it is.

It is dying to everything it has ever been.

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It’s changing.

But this time, it does not have to fall apart and go back to the earth, to the dust.

This time, it is dying into a new birth, a grand transformation. A rebirth.

The rebirth Yeshua spoke of two thousand years ago when he said, “Unless you die are born again, you cannot enter into the kingdom of heaven.”

Well, dear friend, look around you…

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You are looking at heaven itself!

Your own heaven, and you have entered into it.

And now, oh, you are simply allowing the transformation to happen, in a way that truly has never happened before.

None of the ascended masters did what you are doing right now. Some of them were able to stay on Earth in their bodies for a time, like Saint Germain and Kuthumi—Kuthumi  might have the record—but they didn’t do it like you are doing it. They couldn’t.

The energies of mass-consciousness, which is what your so-called reality actually is, simply couldn’t contain that kind of light, so they had to keep some of it out, even then.

But here you are. You are letting it all in, in a beautiful, wonderful, modulated way, so that it doesn’t burn out all the good parts of mass-consciousness and of your mass-consciousness reality.

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So now you can be both at once.

You can be divinity, soul, and human, at the same time.

You can be here, in your own heaven, and on Earth, all at the same time.

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So, take another look at yourself in the pond.

Oh, look! Just in the time we’ve been talking about this, you are glowing even brighter!

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Now, let’s walk over into this other meadow.

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Again, notice the flowers. Beautiful flowers! Flowers like you’ve never seen before. Flowers that don’t even exist on your earth. (Oh, and all of those too…)

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As you step into this meadow you find a whole group of people. Hundreds, even thousands of them.

You look around, and they are all glowing!

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You look a little closer and you realize, they are all YOU!

You from other lifetimes.

They are all looking at you, and there is light coming from all of them.

And they are all in awe as they look at you, because their light is coming on too. Their divinity is waking up too, and it is because of you.

You are the leader. You are the one leading the way.

The “designated ascendee,” you have been called.

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And as your light comes on, oh, it comes on in all of them too. And it’s changing their lives, just like it is changing yours.

Ah, and you are feeling that, too.

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They are all going a little crazy, just like you.

Their bodies are all struggling a bit with the transformation, just like yours is.

And you are feeling all of it!

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So, maybe you can understand a little bit better why you feel so crazy lately. So depressed lately, many of you.

Oh, you are dealing with this unprecedented transformation inside of you!

Inside of all that you are, and all that you have ever been.

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But look around.

Look at the light!

Look at the light coming from all these beings that are you!

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Oh, there are times when the human wonders why it is here.

Its job is done, why do not just go home?

Well, look around at all of these other parts of you.

They’re living in their own part of your timescape, and you think they are all past and gone. But they are not.

That is a human illusion.

They are all out there.

They are all looking to you.

And together, you are beginning this grand reunion!

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Who knows what form it is going to take, but do you really want to leave in the middle of it? Of this reunion of you?

These are not other people.

Oh, in a sense they are, because they live in other bodies and other times and other places.

But they are all you!

Just as much as the human in the mirror is.

Just as much as the human you just saw in that pond.

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You think of them as something else, as somebody else.

You think of your soul as something or someone outside of you, and you call it an oversoul.

Oh, there is a little truth to that, but it is also a huge distortion.

Your soul is you!

Oh, it’s much more than you the human.

This whole garden is your soul. All of the animals, all of the trees and the flowers and the water and the grass.

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This whole human reality that you live in is you. It is your soul.

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Come back now, and look around.

These grand beings, look at the experiences they’ve had!

Oh, some of them are tall and proud and having good lives.

Others are shy and beat down, and having very, very difficult lives.

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But take another look.

Take a look in their hearts.

They are you, so you can see in their hearts…

Look at the gold there!

Look at the gift they bring to you!

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It is truly far more valuable, and far more beautiful, than any gold!

And it is right there.

Your soul has distilled it into wisdom, and it is there.

It is this grand gift, and it is all for you.

Oh, it’s for them, too, but you are the one who gets the most benefit from it right now. And they are all bringing it to you.

Watch, and feel, as they come to you, one by one.

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And hand to you their gold, their gift.

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Yes, there are a lot of them, and those gifts are huge, so this will take a while.

It might take months of your time here on Earth, but it is happening.

It is happening inside of you.

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Do you really want to leave right now, at this point in the middle of the grand celebration?

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Oh, and dear mind, when they give you their gifts, they are not giving anything up.

Because they are you. You are them.

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They are really blending back into you, and they also receive the benefit of all of these gifts.

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So, as they give their gift to you, dear one, know that they are giving it to themselves as well.

Let it in. Let it happen!

Don’t get all righteous about not accepting their gifts from them.

Because as you accept it, you accept it for them as well.

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Oh, this is not about anybody giving up anything.

This is about the grand reunion!

The grand reunion that you have longed for, for so long.

The grand celebration!

And you are doing it, right here on Earth!

And that’s what is incredible, and so appropriate.

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Once this reunion is done, you truly will be a different being.

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Your life will be full of what the human calls magic.

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And you will never, ever, face death again. Not in the way you have known it.

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You will simply choose where to be, and be there.

And where not to be, and where to go back to.

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Ha! We do not want to get into trying to describe it, because we are still discovering what that means.

Nobody has ever done it before!

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So, turn your attention back to the garden.

Oh, these gifts: you do not have to pay your human attention to them, because it is happening.

Your soul is there receiving them, so you are receiving.

It is happening, and it will continue to happen for a time to come.

But understand that, with every one of these gifts comes memories.

Oh, they don’t show up as stories in your mind. No.

Occasionally your mind can remember enough details to make up a little bit of a story that has a little bit of reality to it, but no.

These memories come to you in feelings.

Some of these very difficult lifetimes, as they come to you and hand you their gift, oh, you will feel the difficulty of those lifetimes.

You will feel the depression, and the darkness and the pain.

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And that is the time to smile, to bow to them, and honor them.

And to look again into what you are feeling, and notice also the gold, the beauty, the wisdom that they bring to you from that incredibly difficult lifetime.

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And then, allow the gratitude.

Oh, your soul is so grateful for all of these!

And you are your soul now, so allow that.

Allow these feelings to pass through you.

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They are not yours.

Even the stuff going on in your body is not yours.

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It is reflecting your ancestors, many of which were you.

And many of whom are in front of you right now, in this garden, handing their gifts to you.

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Those things in your body come from other lifetimes.

They are not actually happening in your body.

They are simply being reflected there, as you feel their essence.

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So, don’t panic when you feel the pains in your body.

Some of those pains come from eons ago and are simply being reflected from those other times, as you feel the essence of those lifetimes and of the gifts they bring.

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So, don’t panic. Don’t try to fix it. Don’t run from it.

Allow yourself to feel it.

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And truly, if you feel like you cannot take it anymore and you want to come home, you can do that. Your soul is the one handling all of this, and you can come home if you want to.

You will be welcome.

And, we can pretty much promise that you are going to turn around and look back, and say, “Oh, I didn’t understand! I wish I had stayed a little longer and let this happen!

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Either way is fine, but we encourage you to stay.

Just let it happen!

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Understand that it is not about you.

It is not at all about you, or about anything you have done wrong!

It is not!

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It is about this integration and transformation that is happening in you, right now.

It is a beautiful, beautiful thing that is happening!

There is nothing wrong.

There is nothing you are getting wrong!

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Yes, it’s difficult.

It hurts at times.

You feel the pain that those other bodies, those other lifetimes of you, felt.

You are actually only feeling a shadow of it, a tiny, tiny shadow of it.

But it feels intense.

It hurts a lot, sometimes.

And it is still only a tiny shadow of what they felt, of what they are feeling.

Because they exist right now, in other parts of your timeline.

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So, it is not about you.

You have already dealt with almost all, if not all, of the stuff from this lifetime.

What you are feeling now is about these other parts of you coming home, and bringing you their gifts.

Oh, they do not even know their gifts. They do not know their value.

But they are starting to see it, through you. Because of you.

So, don’t take on all of those pains as though they are something you have to fix and take care of and heal, and all of that nonsense.

Truly, it’s nonsense!

It does not need healed.

It needs a hug, from you, and that is all it needs.

A welcome home hug.

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So, come back to these people in this garden, these facets of you.

There’s one in front of you right now.

It has had a very, very difficult lifetime.

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And it looks in your eyes.

It’s so depressed, so hopeless.

Its body is in so much pain.

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Look in its eyes.

See yourself.

Feel, as your body remembers that pain.

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Just reach out.

Hold out your arms.

Give it a hug.

As you do, breathe it in.

Welcome it home.

Welcome it home!

And as you do, feel as it merges into you.

Feel as your own body absorbs that body and all of its gold, all of its golden nectar of wisdom that your soul has distilled.

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Feel it.

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Now, turn your attention to the next one.

Ah, here’s a bright shiny one!

It had a beautiful lifetime with lots of love, lots of joy, lots of money, lots of….oh…

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It’s all shiny and bright.

Look in its eyes.

Oh, you feel the pain there, too.

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The pain… Oh, because there is always pain in human.

There are always things that do not go the way the human thinks they should go, or wants them to go.

There are always disappointments.

There is always a part that doubts, that questions whether any of it was worthwhile or not.

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So you feel that, too.

Ah, but this one had a much different lifetime than that other one, a much happier lifetime and much more comfortable.

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Feel the shift in your own body as you hug it and welcome it home.

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Oh, sometimes you wonder why it is that one day you are so happy and bright and you feel this divinity coming on inside of you and you feel everything beautiful, and the next day you wake up from bad dreams feeling yucky and depressed and miserable and wondering if anything makes any sense or is worth anything.

Well, that is part of this process.

You are bringing home—rather, your soul, for you the human do not have to do anything but let it happen—your soul is bringing home all these parts of you.

And with each one, you feel them.

You feel their lives.

You feel their bodies.

You feel their minds.

You feel their pain.

You feel their confusion.

You feel their joy and the beauty in their lives, and the darkness.

You feel at all!

Or at least a shadow of it, because that is part of the integration process.

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It’s not you.

It is not anything wrong with you!

It shows up in your body because your body is a dynamic thing.

It’s not just a machine that you put together with bolts and nuts and screwdrivers and wrenches.

No, it is a dynamic thing.

It is constantly reshaping itself to match your consciousness, your energy, and even your emotions.

And, as you feel all of those things from these other parts of you, your body shifts and changes to reflect that.

Oh, please don’t try to stop it from doing that!

It needs to happen.

It is a beautiful, amazing, wonderful thing!

And you can take it. You would not be here if you couldn’t.

Some other aspect of you would be doing this job, and you would be just another one of them.

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But you can.

You can do this because, well, it’s not you doing it.

It is your soul.

It is you who are allowing it to happen through you.

So, please let it.

It will pass.

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Oh, there are only a certain number of these aspects, these other lifetimes, but it takes a little time.

We can’t do it too quickly or your body would not make it.

So we are doing it, your soul is doing it, as quickly as possible.

There is a sense in which these other lifetimes have to come through you!

Oh, don’t take that too literally, but there is a certain sense in which they have to come through you.

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You can fight that.

If you really want to, you can pass it off to someone else and come home.

But, what an honor! What a privilege to be the one who facilitates and allows the integration of all these other parts of you!

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Let it happen.

When you feel depressed, it’s about them. It is not about you!

When your body hurts, it’s about them. It is not about you!

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Oh, John’s feet hurt.

Well, in some of those other lifetimes he walked and walked and walked and walked and walked and walked and walked, until he died from too much walking.

Because that’s how it was then.

And there were quite a few of those.

Walking in the desert.

Walking in the ice until his feet froze off. And fell off.

Walking and walking.

So many of you have done that too, and all of that is coming home now.

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And everything else going on in your body is not from this lifetime.

You already dealt with that.

Everything else going on in your body is from these other lifetimes that you are integrating.

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Well, in order to integrate something, you have to feel it.

So here it is.

You volunteered for this, and you can do it.

You can do it because you do not have to do anything, except let it happen.

Your soul is doing it.

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Yes, it does hurt sometimes, but it will not hurt enough to destroy you.

Your soul won’t let it.

It will not hurt more than what you can deal with.

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So, let it happen.

Let yourself go through this.

It has never happened before and it will never happen again.

Let yourself go through it.

Let yourself have the experience.

Hug yourself.

Oh, hug yourself, and feel the honor that all of these parts of you have for you!

Feel the honor that your soul has for you!

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And don’t worry, you cannot get it wrong in this process.

It will be complete.

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Oh, we are not going to even attempt to predict when that might be, because it is simply not predictable.

How long does it take you to allow all of these things to be felt?

To allow all of these parts of you to come home?

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It won’t be that long, so let it happen.

The more you can let it happen, the quicker it will be done. Truly.

So just let it happen.

There is nothing you need to do.

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Your mind starts running down the path of, “I need to do something! How do I speed this up? How do I let it happen?”

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Be still, mind.

Be still.

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That’s all it takes.

Be still, and KNOW that it is not about you.

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And it is happening, in the perfect timing.

And there is nothing that you, dear mind, need to do about it. Except to be still.

You can rest now.

You did your job so well, and you can rest, dear mind.

That is your job now.

To rest, while Soul handles the rest.

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[a pause]

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Ha ha! John’s mind got stuck for a moment on that unintended pun.

Yes, dear mind, you rest. Your soul will handle everything else.

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Ahh…

Turn your attention back to the garden.

Oh, all those animals…

Everybody is watching you!

You look in that pond again.

Look at this grand shining being that you are!

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Don’t try to shine your light, for that just puts a shade around it.

The light is natural.

It is who you are.

It is shining!

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Once again, all there is to do is let it happen.

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Be still, mind.

Be still.

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Be the observer.

You don’t need to do anything anymore, except to be the observer.

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And then the light shines out.

Then the integrations happen.

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And life begins to be graceful and magical.

Still human, and human things pop up here and there, but you find you don’t have to worry about those things.

Because, just like the integration of your other lifetimes, your soul is handling it all. And they all just unfold, in the perfect flow of divine perfection.

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And so it is.

[the music continues for a few minutes]